Still Trying To Break This Cycle: The Breaking The Chains By Dokken

You know it's a real downer every time you try to build something only to have it fall apart. It feels even worse when you realize that the way it fell apart is similar to events that happened in the past that had the same results. You start think that this keeps happening again and again like a vicious cycle. The thought of that really irks me and I really want it to stop. This vicious cycle that I want to break reminds me of the song "Breaking The Chains" by Dokken.

It always starts out great then something happens and before you know it, you're down in the dumps. For it to happen once is bad enough but for the same thing to happen again and again is more than coincidence. It hurts even more when you're starting over cause the last thing that you want is to have more pain than you already have. It makes you wonder if your fate to always lose and to be left broken down and miserable. The painful thing to be dealt with.

Personally I find that insulting cause I still believe that there's something out there and that we have the power to change our situation and grab it. It's not going to be easy but it's better than just die everyday from that pain of lost by being trapped by its chains of misery. Even if I'm a bit stubborn, I still want something better and I'm trying hard to avoid the things that caused the fallout. It's tough to break the chains but the payoff is worth it.

Makes Me Want To Speed Down The Highway When I Drive: Easy Driver By Kenny Loggins

The thing I like best about the 24K songs is that it gets you motivated to get things done. If not, it's just great songs to listen to just to make you feel good. Apart from relaxing in my room, I like listening to these tunes when I'm driving down the highway. Makes me want to step up the gas and just speed on down the road. One of my favorite songs that I like listening to when driving is Kenny Loggin's song "Easy Driver".

This is one of those catchy tunes that really gets you when it starts to play. You can already feel the energy spreading all you from the very start. It's gets better when you're behind the wheel and there's no traffic. I'm no speedster but when this song plays I really go fast and sing along. It's just so full of energy that I really cruise down the highway.

Man, why can't we have more songs like these anymore. All we get are tunes about whiners who don't man up and clean their mess. I can't connect with it anymore. So when these songs start to play, you can bet my ears are glued to the airwaves. It just can't be beat and that's a fact!

Reminds Me Of My Early Days In The Real World: Dyslexic Heart By Paul Westerberg

I really am getting so old these days. The fact that the white hairs on my beard are getting more prominent is a sad fact of that. Apart from faciamil hair, even sideburns are starting to show some strands of white. I'm starting to long for the early years after I graduated from college when I had enough money for weekend gimmicks and life was just starting. Longing for those days reminds me of the song "Dyslexic Heart" by Paul Westerberg.

This was part of the soundtrack from the movie "Singles" which depicted the lives and loves of young adults who are just about to make their way into the real world. You were excited and free to try new things on your own and being single, you'd to check to spots with your pals and party hard all night. The difference was that you were doing it on your own steam without having to ask from your parents since you were making your own money. Since you were already old enough, there were no more restrictions on what you wanted to do and where you wanted to go. It was pure freedom at its best.

These days, you go out after you make sure that all the business is settled. There are now more responsibilities to take care of and very little time for leisure. Priorities come before gimmicks since you have to be careful how to budget what you have. Oh well, at least we all had a taste of the good times. We could re-live but we're now getting older.

To My Girl Buddy: Good Friend By Mary MacGregor

Yesterday started off badly as the storm intensified and I had to walk in the rain again. Though I had a jacket and umbrella. there were some parts of my clothes that got wet. Apart from that, the storm intensified and we were all worried that it might flood the roads. Then out of the blue, my old girl buddy dropped by for a visit and we had a short chat about how we were doing and how the guys in Quezon City were faring. Though it was only for a few minutes, I felt seeing and talking to her because for some reason she always lifts me up when I'm down. When I think of her, the song "Good Friend" by Mary MacGregor comes to mind.

I remember they use to show this on Channel 2 back in the 70's when there were was a lack of programs to watch. I have to admit, it's a guilty pleasure to listen to. Anyway whenever she's there, it brightens my day even when the storm is at its height. I miss the good old days when we use to call each often and she did give good advice. I never forget the goods that she did for me and she did without asking for anything in return which is why I value her friendship.

I don't anything from her anymore for she's done enough for me. The fact that we still keep in touch is something that I am very grateful for. I'm glad that she's doing all right cause she deserves all the blessings that God has bestowed to her. I just hope that our friend would last forever for she's one in a million. She really is a good friend and I'm blessed to her friend.

Put Your Best Foot Forward: Dress For Success By Roxxette

Well there's a lot of pressure on us lately and even when we finish something, here comes another. A situation like that can really wear a person out. Still, if there's something that has to be done, Even when you're weary, do your best and get it done. Doing your best reminds of the song "Dressed For Success" by Roxxette.

I almost forgot what I said before that even when you're tired, never leave a job undone. It's like working out when you feel lazy then you find some kind of motivation. Once you get it, then hop to it. Also, make sure to do what you do as best as you can. At least no one can say that you didn't do your job.

I guess that's why I go straight to work when something is assigned to me. The more you let it wait, the tougher it gets. Also it makes you look bad and that's one thing that I don't want on my reputation. Do your best and show your best is the way. So when something gets assigned to you, do it and do it good.

Be Grateful You Still Have A Job And Work Harder To Make Ends Meet: Working For Huey Lewis

I remember a scene in the movie "Gridlock" where Tom Roth's character was asking for directions and the man brushed him off saying he had no change. Roth's character was angered by that remark and yelled back that he has job. He also added that there're a lot of people who don't have jobs and are having difficulty getting one. It reminds me that I am fortunate that I am working cause a lot of people aren't. That realization reminds me of the song "Working For A Living" by Huey Lewis And The News.

Life is so hard these days as all the good jobs are taken and your lucky if you can land one no matter how crappy it is. It's not just the money that you make but it also tells people that you are doing something with your life. There are times when what you make is not enough and that's where you go out of the box by doing something's on the side to make ends meet. Just be sure it's legal or else.

These days you do what you can at work as well any opportunity that comes by. If a better jobs comes by and you're hired then take it. Till then just hang in there and do what you can. Sometimes it's cool and sometimes it's aint. Just be grateful you still got a job.

What Takes To Be No. 1: No. 1 By Chaz Jankel

A lot of times, we all strive to be the best that we can be. If you got what it takes, then go for it. Just remember not to loose your soul in the process. The ambition to the top guy can a very ruthless game. When think about people who want to be the top guy, it reminds me of the song "No. 1" by Chaz Jankel.

This was the soundtrack for the movie "Real Genius". We all want to be the top guy that everyone admires and follows. The question is are you prepared to what it takes to get because you have to be willing to do things you thought you never could and disappoint or even hurt a lot of people in the process. Even when you reach the top, be ready to defend it cause there's going to be lot of guys who are as hungry as you are may even go beyond what you did to get that spot. Are you prepared for that.

This ruthless game's been going from generation to generation. It's not a nice guy's game and you're going to find that out the hard way. There's nothing wrong with striving to reach the top. Just be careful and keep your eyes open. Do your best to reach that spot. Just be careful that it doesn't bring out your worse.

Even If You Burn Bridges, It'll Always Be Apart Of You: Say Goodbye By Krokus

There comes a point in your life when something's over. You can either feel glad or sad depending on what you experienced during that period. When that time comes, you do what is expected and that is to move on. Still, even if you do, it will always be apart of you for the rest of your life. This is the reason why I chose the song "Say Goodbye" by Krokus.

I spent a long time looking for this song. I guess it's because of the message that it gives that no matter what you experienced in the past, you learn to come to terms and something that I'm still coping since I'm so sentimental. I keep hearing what my friend told me about not being able to escape the past because it's part of who you are. That's what I get for burning bridges one too many times. Even when I walk away, the past has a way of reminding of the things that happened back then.

I guess you learn to take the good as well as the bad. Sometimes things have a way of making you go back to where you came from. Maybe it's a way of bring you have closure and I have to admit that's something that I'm missing. Right now I try to move on but even as I try to burn bridges, the past always comes calling me back. It really follows me wherever I go.

One Of The Most Violent Movies That I Ever Watched: Push It To The Limit By Paul Engamann

Some might it disturbing but I've been watching violent and action packed films since I was a kid. I guess stems from the days when most of the films we watched were those old war, sword or gunfighter classics. Anything from fist to firepower was what tuned us in. One of the most violent films that I ever watched was "Scarface". I remember the soundtrack was called "Push It To The Limit" by Paul Engamann.

The film was about a Cuban Immigrant named Tony Montana who rose from ranks of the drug trade and his violent fall from grace. There was a lot of profanity and violence in that film. The most violent scenes were when he was tied and his partner was cut in half with a chain saw and the last scene where he was pumped with coke in bloody shoot that resulted in his death. Many were appalled by the violence in film with some giving it negative ratings while giving it positive ratings. Despite the mixed reviews, it has endured and is now considered one of the best films ever made and to this day it is watched by a lot of people and its merchandise continues to sell.

Even to this day, it still shocks people when they it in its original form. Sure there are a lot of slasher and gory films out there but for me don't compare to this film. It really hits you bluntly cause you know thing like this really happen and it takes away that romantic notion that being a gangster is cool. They all a violent end. And this really brings that message home.

Getting Overworked: I've Been Working Too Hard By Southside Johnny And The Asbury Jukes

These days things are very tense around here. It's bad enough that we have to come with something every week and rack our brains to make it look good. That's the reason why I feel so weary and tense when the day is over. I'm beginning to think that the more we bust our chops up, the more crap gets dumped our way. Feeling weary after breaking one's back reminds of the song Ï've Been Working So Hard" by Southside Johnny And The Asbury Jukes.

I hate it when people say that I'm lazy and though I'm not perfect, I do my best to get things done. For some reason, we got put into a bad light and everything we've built up has gone down the drain. It's bad enough that the air gets out of us when we get home and now we've been stigmatized. The results of what we've accomplished are posted for all to see. It galls me that that isn't proof enough.

I really like what I'm doing and it's what I do best. That's the reason why I give it all that I've got when I do it. After what happened, I think I need to slow down a bit. I'll still do what I'm ask and accomplish it but this left a bad tastes in my mouth. I guess I have been working too hard.

Under The Magnifying Glass: Somebody's Watching Me By Rockwell

As if things were already bad enough, we get more bad news. For some reason, rumors were spread and we wound up getting a bad rep. As a result, there's been a shake down and it's a bad one. Things are going to get a little tight again and it looks like we're under the magnifying glass once more and paranoia is setting in. This reminds me of Rockwell's song "Somebody's Watching Me".

After working so hard to improve our image, I feel somebody pulled the floor from under us and now we get branded with the scarlet letter once more. This really sucks big time! We've been busting our butts and making our goals for the day. Now a false word and all of that goes up in smoke. It really makes me mad.

Now I feel like I have to watch my every move as well as my words. It sure put a dark cloud on all us. I can say that I am saddened by all this. I wish people look before they lay down the law. It isn't and it looks like we have to start over. It's gonna be a pain and I'm not happy about being under the magnifying glass again.

Things Really Aren't What They Used To Be: Mercy, Mercy Me By Marvin Gaye

Whether I read the newspapers, listen to radio, surf the internet or watch television, it's always the same bad news if you're lucky. These days, things just get worse. That's the reason why I don't watch the morning news anymore cause it's just going to ruin your day.Even if they sugar-coat with some dumb feature on food or exercise, the awful taste of what the bad the news brings. Things really aren't what they use to be. Seeing how things have come down to this reminds me of Marvin Gaye's song "Mercy, Mercy Me".

You keep hoping that the start of the year would be good. You try hard and pray hard but alas, someone crazy maniac or careless klutz does something and affect everything and everyone. Forrest burning, smoke belching, high prices, high crime rate just keeps getting worse every year. If given a a choice, a lot of people would rather go back in time to a past where everything. Alas, it's only wishful thinking.

Well you can't go back to those good old days. The best you can do is reminisce when you have the time. You can't escape the crap and you'll have to face it everyday if you want to survive. I guess you'll have to deal with it as best as you can cause it's a fact of life. Still, it's sad that things are not what they use to be.

Chill Out Song That Takes Me Away To Another Place: A Little Paradise By The Dawn

As I've blogged before, a good 24K song is a heck of a lot better than taking pill to relax. I guess I was vindicated when I read an article on the internet that listening to your favorite song is just a good as a massage or even taking a pill to relax. It's natural and when you have it, it's free. A little imagination and you feel like you're in another place where everything is all right. One song that does that is the Dawn's "A Little Paradise".

It's a very light and playful song and once it plays, you already feel the stress being lifted from you. Just close your eyes and left your mind drift with the music. Pretty soon, you find yourself in your private place. There everything negative and is gone and you get yourself energized. A few minutes a day can really do wonders for the soul. Well you can say that I'm cheap or that I'm a bit out of cash which is why I choose to limit myself to such. Well there's a little bit of truth to that but it still works for me.

Times are tough and you do what you can to calm down. Just turn on the song and let your imagination do the rest. Just a little paradise is good enough for me.

Disappointed But Don't Want To Loose Faith: One By U2

Every had those times when you tried hard and prayed hard but nothing happened during the times when you need it most. Afterward, you are left feeling angry and disappointed. That doesn't that you've given up completely. Despite that, it can be very frustrating and you fight hard to give in to doubt. When it comes to hanging on but feeling disappointed, it reminds me of the song "One" by U2.

A lot of times, we do our best and pray that it would pull through but alas, it was not enough or worse nothing happened. It's at times like that when you feel that you've wasted your time. That's when you want to vent your rage at anything or anyone. Sometimes you have to fight the urge to lay blame even as baffled rage boils up inside you. You keep yourself in check because it's the right thing to do cause what's done is done.

I know that life isn't fair but sometimes it's a little too unfair than usual. It's bad enough that people are so hard up on things and when the help they've pray for doesn't come so stings. Still, apart of me still believes that things will be better despite all these disappointments. We just have to keep trying and keep believing. I just things that things go easy on us because things are hard enough as it is. (P.S. Once again I am okay and am not mad at anything or anyone. Just giving my thoughts on situations like this.)

At Least The Angels Listen: She Talks To Angels By The Black Crowes

Before I start this blog post, I would just like to say I'm feeling okay and I'm not pointing fingers at anything or anyone. Anyhow, this post is dedicated to misunderstood people who people pay no attention to. A lot of times, nobody lends an ear to these poor souls and most of the time, they just get laughed as fools for their ideas. A lot of times these talk to imaginary souls or maybe the angles in the hopes that someone is listening. That's why I chose the song "She Talks To Angels" by The Black Crowes for this post.

There are a lot of people out there who have a lot of things locked up inside them. Just like all of us, they too want to express what's inside them. Problem is that sometimes it doesn't come out right. As a result, people look at them as weird or even crazy which leads to them to get even more alienated from others. A lot of times, you see them mumbling to themselves whether they're walking or just being still just to get out of their system.

I guess that's the reason why I lend an ear to some people cause I know what it's like not to have someone listen to you. It makes you feel alone and that nobody cares. You carry on like everything's all right but inside it isn't. So they just talk to the angels about it. At least they're willing to listen.

Missing The Old House: Green River By Credence Clear Water Revival

Last year, I blogged about my old house where I used the song "Barry Town" by Steely Dan for that post. Still reeling from that stupid escapade, I remember the good times that me, my brothers and my friends had back there. Life was way much simpler back then and there was always a place to hang out with since it was so large. The good about that is there was always a corner where one could retreat to and just chill. Missing that old house reminds me of the song "Green River" by Credence Clear Water Revival.

Man life was so simpler back then. That was always a place of magic and mystery where there was always something going down on a weekends. Even when nothing was happening, you can simply chill the whole day away without a care in the world. I had a lot of fun living there. It was our own version of Never Never Land.

Sadly, things are different now. Getting genuine down time is now a rare commodity. Worse part about is whenever I pass by the old road leading to my former residence, I can't help but feel a stab in the heart realizing that it's no longer there. Sometimes at night, I remember the place the way it was back then and all the great times that we had which so much fun. Maybe if some miracle would happen, one day I'll back there and the old place restored to its old glory and the good times are back again

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That Certainly Wasn't Funny Anymore: That Joke Isn't Funny Anymore By The Smiths

Once again, I went home very late and feeling really worn out. Last night I was attending my extra-curricular activity which is a pain in the butt. As always, those dudes pulled the same old routine. This time they took it to another excruciating level. I was already tired from all the other things that I've been doing and now I have to deal with this?! The smith's song "That Joke Isn't Funny Anymore" reflected my exasperation with last night's gig.

As I blogged yesterday, every time that day comes, I really get tense because of the way things are done there. The last two weeks were awful since we had to go home late and it was raining hard resulting in me getting wet. Yesterday, I thought things would be different but alas, I was greatly mistaken for got worse and it was getting on my nerves. Finally I had enough and went home. I was so pissed that it me a while to get myself calm and go to bed.

For people who feel that there's something important to resolve, they sure drag their feet. Late, unprepared and making a mountain out of a molehill is what's best describes them. Man, these were the traits our teachers told us never to do when we were in school. If they really were passionate about what they were going to talk about they'd be there on time and be prepared to discuss it. All I know that it's not funny anymore and it's becoming a disgusting habit unbecoming of these guys.

Most Stressful Day: Heart Attack By Olivia Newton John John

Well, it's that day again which I find most stressful. Just when I thought I no longer had to do this I get reassigned to it again. As much as I hate it, it comes with the territory so I have no choice. That's why I feel so relieved when it's over because it is so stressful that I feel a heart attack coming at the day's start. I guess that's the reason why I'm using Olivia Newton John's song "Heart Attack" for this post.

I consider this my "black eye" day and it's bad enough I have the other things that I do. What I hate about this particular day is that things start late and it seems like everybody is waiting on everyone else to get things started. When things do start, they make a mountain out of a molehill. After the drama and wasted time, it's over. The hard about is when it's either late, raining or both and only when you enter the house can you say the day is over.

I won't give the details about this day on the grounds that I might get in trouble. All I can say is that I wouldn't wish on anyone else. I guess what annoys about this is that I like starting things early and I want to get straight to the point. That way, I don't waste anybody's time. Sadly, that's not how other people do things when day appears, it really gives me a heart attack.

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Touchy People: Sensitive By Re-Flex

For some reason, I always have the lousy luck of being paired with some of the most difficult people in the world. These guys are very hard to get along with. They are so aloof that you can literally feel a thick, solid wall between you and that person. What's worse is that working with these people can be like walking through a mind field. One wrong step and they go nuclear. Dealing with these kind of people reminds me of the song "Sensitive" by Re-Flex.

It's a given fact that every institution has an eccentric and difficult person. As much as it pains me, I guess I have no choice but to work with these people. Since I want to start things right, I always make it a point to extend my hand to loosen things up. I listen to his/her ideas and try to add my own along the way. That way things won't be so rocky and the job gets finished faster.

Right now, I'm glad that I'm working with people who are not so difficult. They may not be perfect but at least they're easy-going. Still, if there comes a time when I have to be paired with sensitive people, I'll try to find out what makes them tick and that way, we can get along till the job's done. Sometimes you have to reach out to sensitive people if you want to get to know them better.

Feels Good To Have Someone Stand By You: I'll Stand By You By The Pretenders

When you're problems start mounting, you start to feel that you're all alone. That feeling gets stronger when there's no one to turn to or no one even cares. Then out of the blue, someone does come in when things get tougher. These are the people who have your back when you thought there was nobody there. When I think of people like that, I remember the song "I'll Stand By You" by The Pretenders.

A lot of times there have been people who just gave me a helping hand when it seems there was none. From my parents, my brothers, classmates, friends and even strangers who I now consider my friends. They came in and cheered me up when I was down. The fact that it was unexpected made me appreciate it even more. Well, they also gave me some constructive advice and I didn't mind because it was for my own good. What was important was that they took the time out to see how I was which means a lot to me.

It's cool when someone stops by and lends a hand to those who need it. It makes one feel that there's someone out there looking out for you. I guess it's the Big Guy's way of showing us that things are still okay. That's why I never take people like that for granted. They stood by me when things were bad and I will always be grateful for that.

My Attitude Towards A Rainy Night: I Love A Rainy Night By Eddie Rabbit

The rains brought on by the two new low pressure areas have sure made it a hassle to commute going to work and coming home. Going home with shoes getting wet going all the way to your feet as well as getting your clothes drenched isn't my idea of a cool night. It doesn't help that traffic is slow and everyone is crowding in. giving you very little space to sit. The torture ends when you finally get home all wet despite the fact that you have a coat and umbrella. I really don't agree with Eddie Rabbit's song "I Love A Rainy Night".

I guess when he sang this song, he was in a toasty warm room with no leaks while it was pouring outside. It's a different story when people dilly-dally causing you to go home late and have the skies fall on you in buckets. Even if your rain gear is complete, you still wind up getting soaked. I guess the guy inside is all warm and dry can afford to be cheerful. Lucky them!

Well, I heard that the skies will be clearing up in two days. I'm tired of wearing rain gear that's suppose to keep me warm but makes me sweat at the same time. I get pissed when my shoes which I had just brought get so soaked to my feet that bubbles start foaming out when I walk. I just hope that those reports are true cause going home during a rainy night is excruciating. The only time when I will love a rainy night is when I'm home, clean and dry.

When Symbols Of Your Culture Are Starting To Disappear: Great Pinoy Antiquities By Juan Dela Cruz

I remember when I was college, my of my English Elective class made me read the book "State Of War". I remember one chapter where one of the characters who was an old man was looking at the pier. As he gazed, it struck him that something was missing and if I remember right, it was the boats that fished in the area. The reason why there were no boats was the livelihood was dying out and it was part of that town's culture and heritage since the town began. When I realize that several iconic structures which represents one's culture starts to disappear one by one, the song "Great Pinoy Antiquities" by Juan Dela Cruz comes to mind.

It's incredible these days how much has change over a period of time. Sadly, some of those things that vanish are part of our identity. The old houses, certain customs and traditions and even institutions that identified us as a people are now fading with time. The fact that we don't notice it should alarm us for these things are part of who we are. If that is lost, then it won''t be long until everything will soon follow after.

You know I'm glad that there movements that help preserve our cultural heritage. Even if it means going pop, it's better than not doing anything at all. I guess these new young bloods are doing some good when it comes to something important as this. The effort we put in preserving our cultural heritage reflects how much we value our identity as a people. Never take that for granted cause it's part of who we are.

A Cool Place To Live: Sunny Hills By Bobby Caldwell

I remember when I started earning a lot, I so happy that I was contemplating on moving out and going on my own. Too bad, fate took a nasty turn and today it's just a good memory. Still, if I had the chance (and the money) to move out and settle somewhere, it would be where people are cool and stress was non-existent. To sum it up, some place where I can live in peace doing what I want to do. One song that embodies that dream is Bobby Caldwell's "Sunny Hills".

Every time I hear this song, I feel at peace for some reason. Some people say that this song is about a retirement home but for me it's my ideal neighborhood. A place where you can make a lot of friends and let your mind drift to dreamland is a dream itself. A House with a rocking chair that faces the sunset is probably where I'll be from dawn till dusk. Add a cuban in one hand and a brew in the other and I'm as happy as a clam.

Well, that dream is still a long way off though. Times are hard and if I want to achieve that dream I'm work hard and work smart. These days money melts away faster than ice in a volcano. Still, it's a dream worth pursuing which is why I like this song. It reminds me that somewhere out there is a place worth settling down on.

I Hate Lying: Lying Eyes By The Eagles

I remember in the movie "The Negotiator" Samuel Jackson's character explained how you can tell if a person is lying. First by by taking a look at if the person is looking to the right or the left (left: truth; right: lie). He also went further by stating that a person's body action's can also give him away. Either way, lying is something that I really hate the most. Poor liars reminds me of the song "Lying Eyes" by The Eagles.

I have to admit one of my weaknesses is that I tend to trust people too much. I guess I give them too much benefit of the doubt. That's why when they lie, it really betrays my trust. The worst part about is that I'm left feeling like a fool. So when people destroy my trust, they're nothing to me anymore. These days, I really am very careful about who I associate with.

I hate it when someone 'lies to me because for me, it's the ultimate slap to the face. Once you've slighted me, you better not show yourself to me. If you do, you're lucky if all you get is a broken nose. I hate liars and I find out that someone lied to me, they better not show themselves to me again.

I'm Still Thankful I Still Am: I'm Alive By Jackson Browne

Despite the many depressing and complaining post that I write on this blog, I never take for granted the good things that happened in my life. It's a good reminder that things are not so bad. Apart from that, the fact that I'm still here means I'm probably doing something. I guess that something is that I'm still alive. The fact that I'm thankful I'm still here, reminds me of the song "I'm Alive" by Jackson Browne.

There have been a lot of ups and downs in my life (a lot of them downs) yet I'm still here. I accredit that to the old saying that while you're still alive, there's still hope. That's one of the few things that helped me through the many storms that always rain down on me. I could've let myself get swallowed up by the flood but I chose to hold on. I guess I'll keep holding on till the sun rises and I hope rises soon.

I don't know when I'll get it right. I guess I'll just have to keep trying till I do. Nobody said that life was easy and things get worse before they get better. All I know is that I'm still alive and I'm thankful for that. I guess I just have to be more alive to appreciate it more.

Overlook Song/When I Think About All Those Girls: China Girl By John Cougar Mellencamp

A lot of my entries in this blog have used songs from John Mellencamp. He started out as John Cougar, then John Cougar Mellencamp and finally John Mellencamp. Despite the name change, it did not change the quality of his songs which were always good to listen both then and now. Still, there were a lot of songs that should have been played on air that never got the chance. That's always been the pratfall of a lot of stations both in the past and the present. One such song that should have been played on the air from him is "China Girl".

This is one of my favorite songs from the album "American Fool". I have to admit, it makes me think about all those girls from past to present. For me, they were all immaculate and left a deep impression on me. When me and friends met last Friday, it was one of the topics that came into play. I guess we all had our dream girls back then. When this song plays, I can see them again in my mind. Just like them,

I was wondering what happened to them and how they are doing today. I hope that they are all doing well. They were cool girls and will always will be in my book. I hope to get to meet them someday. I'll say it again, they're all immaculate just like that China girl.

Hate Nasty Surprises: All Of A Sudden By Joe Walsh

Right now I'm still basking at that gimmick I had with my batch mates last Friday. Nothing fancy but the evening was cool and once again I heard the laughter of my friends which made my day. I was really afraid that something would happen that would ruin the night. A lot of times, a nasty surprise would come out of the blue and ruin everything. When it comes to nasty surprises, I remember the song "All Of A Sudden" by Joe Walsh.

There were many times in my life when something would suddenly happen while I was enjoying myself. One of them literally was a big BUST which still sends shivers down my spine whenever I remember it. Man, I hate it when that happens because being able to enjoy yourself seldom happens. Times are hard and you're always overworked. Just when you're about to have a good time, something spoils it, leaving you very pissed.

Sometimes I wonder if the people cause these things ever regret their actions? You know some people don't even have the time to sit down so when good gathering is scheduled, they really get excited. Sometimes I think some of these people do it on purpose and they don't even realize what that event means to others. Those who do deserve knuckle-punch to the head to make them realize their mistakes. That's why I always prepare for the worse because you'll never know when something will happen all of a sudden.

Sure Brought Back Memories: I Will Remember You By Amy Grant

Though it's been two days past, I still feel good about that get-together with my batch mates. It sure felt good seeing again and talking about the good old days. Though we were older, I still saw them as they were way back then. As we talked that night, I could feel the spirits of other people who I wanted to see from my batch during that time since everyone was so nostalgic. Thinking about my batch mates during my high school days reminds me of the song "I Will Remember You" by Amy Grant.

As the conversation turned to the past, I started to think about other people in my batch. Most of whom where the ones who I had a lot of fun with. My thoughts also drifted to the people who I had known only for a moment but lingered in my head. Though some I've known all through out high school and others for a few moments, they all left a deep impression on me. I kept wondering where they are and how they've been.

Even after waking up with a heavy head, the question still lingers. I don't where they are and I haven't heard from them in a long time. I guess of certain possibilities that could've been which makes me wonder about them. Wherever they are, I hope that they are well. They have a special place in me cause I still remember them.

Reliving Those Round The Clock Parties: Living After Midnight By Judas Priest

Boy, it took a while but I finally cleared my head from Friday night's revelry. As I've mentioned yesterday, we got together after not not seeing each other for a long time. For one night we were high school students again and it felt great. I have to admit I thought I would pass out because I'm not the party animal that I was when I was a lot younger. Remember those all-night parties reminds of the song "Living After Midnight" by Judas Priest.

That night I felt that a time machine took me back to the good old days we talked about batchmates and said a lot of jokes. We were having so much fun that it didn't occur to me that it was almost dawn. I had to admit I had too much of the brew that I felt it was coming to my nose and that wasn't even half of what I use to consume back then. Sadly, all good things must end but I felt really good because even though I wasn't the guzzler that I was back then, it was the company and not about seeing who can drink more.

I guess when you'e younger you want to prove that you're the strongest drinker in the bunch as well as the guy who stay up till dawn. That wasn't important anymore and it was more of enjoying the company of your friends on such rare occasions. I don't push anymore cause there's nothing prove. What was important was that we had a good time. As Elias would say: "Feeling Good's Good Enough" which is what really mattered.

Cool Gathering: Good Clean Fun By The Allman Brothers Band

Man, What a cool night I had! That get-together was a success as I spent the night with some of my high school batchmates. It was a long time since we've been together and after coping with a lot of stress, it was great seeing them again as we spent the nights exchanging stories over a few brews. It was everything that I always wanted in a gathering and thank God it was a success! After having a good time, I feel like listening to the song "Good Clean Fun" by The Allman Brothers.

I know this song is scouring but it is also about having a good time without any hassles. There was certainly no hassles that happened last night. I felt like I was in high school again as the conversation and laughter took the years away and for just night, we were all classmates again. We were all having a lot of fun that we didn't realize it was almost dawn. Even though I was stewed, I didn't cause I was with my people again and it felt great.

I am thankful that nothing bad happened last night because it's been a while since I had a good time and I haven't these guys in ages. I really hoped that that nothing would ruin the night and thankfully nothing bad happened. Initially, we thought about going out but to heck with that cause we were all having good time and the joints weren't good and didn't cater to our taste. As Don Henley said in the Sunset Grill, "All Our Friends Are Here" so why ask for anything else? Look forward to another round with them again sometime in the future cause last night was a blast!

Slow But Good Gathering: Let The Good Times Roll By The Cars

Well yesterday, I received a call from my buddy telling that tonight's gimmick is on. I have to admit that after a stressful time, it'd be good to see the old group again. But as I've mentioned in my earlier blog posts, I'm not the party animal I use to be. So I'm glad to hear that there's nothing wild going on and just a good old gathering of buds who haven't seen each other for a while. That's the reason why I chose the song "Let The Good Times Roll" by The Cars.

As I've mentioned earlier, the last couple of months have been very stressful. All work and no play makes one really dull and boy I'm so dull that I can't cut a simple breeze. That's why when he called me for a get-together, I said yes without hesitation. I haven't them in a while and I could sure use a change of scenery. Just a moment to see them again does wonders for my soul.

It's been a long time and I really need some relief. I'm also glad that nothing wild will be planned tonight. I'm too old for that. Brews, herbs and good old conversation is all I need. I look forward to tonight cause I could sure use it. Please lordy, don't let anything bad happen tonight. I only have a few pleasures left and this is one of them so I hope the good times roll even if it's a slow roll.