Wednesday, August 31, 2011

What's Done Is Done (Too Late For Regret): Sayang By Claire Dela Fuente

I don't a person who has never had any regrets in his or her life. Everyone has had that certain moment where they wish that it could have been different. The reason for this is that it meant so much to them it could have made their lives happier. Alas, in the end it was just not meant to be and you always think what a waste is was. Everyt time, I hear that "Sayang" by Claire Dela Fuente, I have to admit I get reminded of opportunities that are now be forever lost to me.

We all with dreams of what we want to be and what we want to do in life. Unfortunately only the fortunate few are able to achieve their dreams. There are those who's path in life often gets derailed by a series of unfortunate events of things that they did or didn't do. As a result,the things they wanted to do or be are now just wishful thinking at best and broken dreams at worst. Some are lucky to be able to make something out of their lives with what's left but still haunts that some things were just not meant to be.

You can't and turn back time and once it's over, it's over. For me, there were a lot of things that I wish happened but didn't but I made a vow not to feel regret. Though there are times when that feel creeps, I really have fight the urge to give to it. I don't want to spend the rest of my life wallowing in regret. I've wasted enough time as it is and I just want to move and what's done is done so there's time for regret.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Still Trying Break That Cycle: Falls Apart By Sugar Ray

I know I should be glad that it's a long weekend cause it gives one an opportunity to do things that one normally doesn't have the time for. Unfortunately the fatigue of working so hard had set in and I spent most of the weekend, snoring in bed. That means I wasted a lot of time that could have been spent on trying to find ways to improve my chances of generating income. I guess I just fell apart and as result, I haven't cracked that vicious cycle of starting out good but falling short in the end. Right now Sugar Ray's song "Falling Apart" is playing in my head.

You know I was very glad that my blog was restored a few months ago, but sometimes I lament the opportunities that were lost during that time when I needed to make what I was working on a success. I'm sick and tired of that vicious when you start great but fall apart in the end. I guess the that I've been stems from those opportunities that were lost and the fact that I'm getting older doesn't much. I was just so tired that I accomplished nothing today and just blew away quality time which could have been spent more productively. I can't regret it later on because I didn't move so now I have really something else.

Nobody gassing out in the end. You accomplished nothing and you have no one to blame but yourself. Still, at least I was able to recharge myself a bit and with that I feel that I can resume what I'm doing. Take out the hesitancy and maybe I'll get somewhere. I have to because if I don't, I don't want to lay in bed at night being haunted by things that could have been. I just hope one day, I break this cycle cause I am so tired of seeing things fall apart.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Rain And Mondays Can Be A Real Downer: Rainy Days And Mondays By The Carpenters

According to last week's weather report, it was forcasted that will a really rainy week due to some typhoon or low pressure that will pass through the country. Yesterday, I was already feeling the effects of it as sporadic rain showers started all over the metro, leaving people wet from head to toe. To top it off, the car having problems because once you turn it off, it won't start. Then tomorrow is Monday and although it is holiday tomorrow, the repair shop is closed so it's still a bummer. The Carpenters' song "Rainy Days And Mondays" best sums up that double whammy situation.

You can't leave the house cause it's pouring buckets out there and although there is no typhoon, heavy rains are enough to cause a flood these days. I should know since I went through a traumatic experience where I was trapped in flood two years and it's brings shivers to my spine. Mondays are always a downer cause you know once you wake up, the grinds starts. As I've said in the last paragraph, it's a holiday tomorrow but I can't get the car fixed cause the shop is closed. That makes it a bummer as well.

I guess they go hand in hand sometimes and this is one of those times. I don't why something always spoils my holiday whenever a good long weekend comes along. Oh well, guess I'll try to find something productive to do. I'll do it as soon as shake off some of this unwanted stress that's keeping me immobile lately. Rainy days and Mondays can keep anybody down.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Nothing Like Metal To Get That Kick Butt Feeling: Killed By Death By Motorhead

One thing I like about listening to heavy metal is that it's good for getting the bad blood out of your system by taking out whatever inhibitions that you have. A lot of times, people are polite to the point of being "too nice" that others just keep pushing thinking that they can do it all the time. Little do they know that when they do that, they light a long fuse that's lead to a very big BOOM! It's because the "nice guys" have been turned inside out into very angry and bulging-eyed maniacs who want to cut loose. Motorhead's song "Killed By Death" is a great song whee those who get pissed and want to cut loose.

It's not like I suddenly want to trash the place or just go berserk, but when people just start pushing your buttons and ruining your day, your good mood starts to run out of your body and your temper's suddenly rising. Then it gets to the point where you start talking back or start throwing back cause you can't take it anymore. This is especially true for a lot of people who have no time for themselves and hadn't had a break for so long. You can already tell that they are at that level when the smile is stiff and the veins start showing in the clenched hand. Add a little heavy metal and let the sparks fly.

I'm not trying to metal into a bad light and I'm quite a fan of the genre. There's no denying that it's good to listen to when you're annoyed at certain things that's been going around you. Just lock yourself in your room and pump up the volume. If possible, punch the bag or do some push ups. That out get the bad blood out before you spill blood. There's nothing like metal to get that kick butt feeling and get that bad temper out of your system.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Re-posted/Won't Go To My High School Reunion: My Old School By Steely Dan

I may be wrong but I think on this rainy weekend, I do believe that tonight is the grand reunion of my old school. Two months, old classmates that I bumped often remind me about it and while I had that small get-together with my old buds, they brought it up. Whether the weather is good or bad tonight, I don't think I'll go. I've attended a few reunions before but that does it for me and I have my reasons for not going. There are a lot of things that are still going on with me as well as a few sad reminders from the past. This gives me the opportunity to re-post the video of Steely Dan's song "My Old School".

I deleted my blog post using this song by mistake. Anyway, when for those who were able to read my older posts, I was the type of guy went against the flow and the people I befriended were like me who were loners by nature and did their own thing. Apart from that, a lot of things that I wanted to do during that time that sadly didn't come true. When graduation came, I felt that something was missing or to put it simply, there was no closure.

It's bad enough that I have to deal with a lot of important things right now and when my mind wanders to the past, I have to admit it still stings. It gets worse when I fight the urge to believe that what was not fulfilled in the past was a factor in what made me what I am today. Finally, the people that I really wanted to see won't be there cause like me, they'd rather go their own way and move on. It doesn't mean that I didn't have a good time and yes I had my moments. Still, the things that matter the most didn't come true which is why I won't go.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Shake Downs Are A Downer: Shake Down By Bob Seger

When people ask me what I want right now, my answer will always be to simply live peacefully and be able to do what I want to do. It may be a boring answer but to be able to be stress-free is something of a rarity when you get older due to the demands that life puts on you. That's why one of the things that ticks me off is when things happen that turns my world upside down. When crap happens, it leaves me tired, stressed and very angry. When the tranquility that you enjoy gets messed up by some bad news, Bob Seger's song "Shake Down" comes to mind.

As I've said before, the things that I wanted to be or do are now a distant memory that I just try do deal with as I go about with my life. Things are hard enough already and trying to find solace is now hard as you have very little tine for yourself which is why a shake down is the last thing that I want to happen. It gets worse when you've just been through a bad day and then something else happens further extending your agony. It's like adding insult to injury.

I don't bother people and all ask is that people don't bother me. I've got enough problems as it is and don't like it when my routine gets disrupted. It'll only cause more grief to everyone around. That's why I stay away from trouble as much as possible cause it causes a shake down that is really a bummer. For those who think I'm boring so be it and just let me go back to my boring life.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Back When You Struggled To Get Good Reception What's The Frequency Kenneth By R.E.M.

When I look the kind of music gadgets that come out these days, I'm amazed at the new technology that comes out. All the ipods that store large amounts of music and even videos whose sound comes out loud and clear which can be easily recharged without worrying about batteries are my favorite. This is because back in my day, you had to carry a large boom box or settle for a cheap radio and had to struggle to get good frequency. The struggle to get clear sound on one's radio reminds me of R.E.M.'s song "What's The Freqency Kenneth".

I remember back in the day when you carried a walkman, people would look at you and think you were cool. The only trouble was you had to carry ton of tapes and batteries with you and if you listen to the radio, you had to struggle with the frequency, especially when another radio station is cutting in. The same thing applied to those big stereos and when your in a very enclosed space, you'll be lucky to crappy frequency. That sucks especially when 24K was on a Friday and you're office didn't have access to that station.

These days, the strength of the new gadgets are a blessing. Even the cheap imitations are also good though they don't last like the original. Even in places where signal are difficult, you can still get to hear your station and more importantly, your music. That's why when I'm thankful for the new advancements made in technology cause frequency is seldom or never a problem. That's why when 24K is on I have a big smile on my face cause there's good frequency and I listen to it from morning to night.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Need To Reconnect With Followers/Got Your Back: Allies By Heart

One of the things I missed since the community I joined shut down was the support that I got from the people I interacted with. I gained a lot from their support and it felt good connecting with others who were also into blogging. All of that came tumbling down when some jerk hacked my blog and as a result, it was it listed a a danger site on all the search engines. Though I finally cleaned my blog, I am back at square one and only a few of my followers visit (John Marine, Dad-O-Matic, thank you!) which makes me want to re-connect with them again and revive the relationship we had. Missing out on those days when we had each other's back and wanting to re-connect with them reminds me of the song "Allies" by Heart.

In that brief period, it felt really good to connect with other people. the messages they left and the support they gave inspired me and made me feel that I was going somewhere with this blog. When the malware hit me, it came at the worst of times as I needed the income I started generating to supplement my earnings to help out with the expenses at home. When I still of the financial and social loss due to that bad act, it still hurts me and it feels like somebody just set my house on fire and ran away with all my money.

As I'm starting over, I miss the legitimate people who visit my blog and gave their support. Lately, I've been joining other blog communities in the hopes that I revive that success that I had with the community that I was once a part of. I also want to generate some income and sustain to help out more in the house. This doesn't that my sole goal is just money but I am grateful to those who helped me out. and I'm going to try revive my relationship with them this weekend. It felt good to have others watching your back just like true allies and I hope I gain that again.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Bad Situations That Hamper Your Goals: Trapped In A Stairway By Paul Jabbara

Ever had those times when you're so close to achieving something and all of a sudden, something or someone destroys all that you've worked hard on. Or that you're just doing something routine and then crap happens. Whatever the case, you're left standing there frustrated and pissed that these bad things happened. It makes you feel that someone dropped a cage on you and everything that was within your reach is now out of your reach. That feeling of always getting locked out of your goals due to some cruel twist of fate reminds of Paul Jabbara's song "Trapped In A Stairway".

In these last few years, I've been working on something just help get make a little extra income. It's not as easy as it seems and just when I'm so close, a cruel joke gets played on me and everything that I've worked so hard on either gets stalled or ruined. It's like running a race and you're doing what you can to get a head and joker comes in tries to trip you. It's costs you some distance and some time but you try to pick yourself up and stay focused your goal. Just get up and go again and if another joker comes in, give em one to the jaw!

I've seen a lot of good things good down the drain due to some cruel twists of faith and it's really getting to me. I guess I'm blogging about it because I'm tired of that feeling of being trapped and helpless. This is especially true when the things that you want in life is within your reach. I don't want to get locked out anymore and miss out on the good things that life has to offer. I just hope I do right this time around instead getting myself trapped and locked out again.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Really Bad Dreams: Had A Dream By Roger Hodgson

Having great dream can sure make you start the right. You feel good because of the positive effect that the dream had on you. However, when you have a nightmare, it's a different story, especially when it either ends on a bad note and leaves a deep impression on you. You know when a dream is bad when you wake up screaming with sweat or you just open your eyes with a bad feeling. Having a bad dream reminds me of Roger Hodgson's song "Had A Dream".

This is one of those rare songs that seldom gets played which is an injustice. Anyway, when comes to bad dreams, I had my share of them. One was when I was in a room and it suddenly grew dark and I feel the darkness swallowing me which caused me to wake up screaming in a cold sweat The other was when I couldn't see what was going on but though I woke up calm, I was troubled. To this day, those two dreams really haunted me.

As I've blogged before, the thing that matters to me most the happiness and safety of my family and when I have nightmares like these, I bothers me to no end. We've been through a lot in the last couple of years and the last thing we need is more crap. I'm not superstitious but things like these enter one's thoughts in the night, it's hard to shake off. I just hope that nothing bad happens anymore. Bad dreams are bad enough and I don't want them to be real.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Taking Risks: Roll The Bones By Rush

They say in life, there's no gain without pain. Meaning if you want things to happen, you be prepared to do what it takes. Nothing is easy in life and to top it off, you can never tell the outcome. Still, if you want that badly, you have to give it all you've got. Roll the dice and hope for the best. When it comes to taking risks, I remember the song "Roll The Bones' by Rush.
It took me a while to adjust to this song cause it had a little rap in it. Anyway, the things I'm working on has produced much results which me worried for some time now. I guess this is because times are tough and the future looms heavily inside me. I don't what the future has in store me but if I don't do something now I'll wind up with zip. I guess I better be ready to run a tisks just to give thing a jolt I don't want to be on the loosing end again.

I keep remembering what Patton said about not taking counsel of your fears. I have to admit I've been hesitant lately but I can't let that stop me. What I do is figure out how to do this again so I can be prepared for for the risks that I have to take. Life's a gamble they say and only those with guts come out on top. I just hope I score this time around when I roll the bones.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

For Those Who Often Feel Out Of Place Or Alienated: Alien By Atlanta Rythm Section

Ever had those times like when you're in a party and you just can't connect with the crowd or being in a place when you feel alone even if it's bustling with life? Well I've sure had my moments when I felt that way. It's a really bad feeling where you just can't with your environment. It gets worse when the people there are hostile. That helpless feeling that one gets from being alienated or out of place reminds of the song "Aliens" by Atlanta Rythm Section.

I guess the reason why I get so alienated is because I had grown so used to the environment that me and brothers had that when I went out to the outside world it was like culture shock. As I grew up, even I improved my people skills, I was very much a loner and the friends that I did often shared the qualities of my brothers which is why the circle of friends that I had was very minute. I guess it was because I was looking for a place where I could be my and do what I wanted to do. What frustrates me now is that since all the things that I wanted to be or do has now crumbled to dust, that alienated feeling still jabs at me since I now have to make do with what's there. Sadly, it's not much.

I'm not one to cry over spilled milk but it still jabs at me especially now that I'm getting older. I'm just trying to get by just like everyone cause this world won't stop for anybody. I just trying to keep trying till I get it right. Hopefully, when I do get it right, things will change. Then maybe just like this song, I'll find my way back home.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Cold Feet Will Get You Nowhere: Wag Na Lang Kaya By True Faith

The saying that nice guys finish last needs to be corrected. It's more about the aggressive guys who gets the prize because being passive or getting cold feet will get you nowhere. It kinda sucks when you really want something but are afraid to go after it. Still if you're going to hesitate and don't go for it, you might wind up regretting it for the rest of your life. When it comes to losing out because of cold feet, the song "Wag Na Lang Kaya" by True Faith comes to mind.

I know this song is about being afraid to approach a crush but if you ask me it can applied to other situations where people want to something so bad but hesitate. Whether it is a person, a job etc., how much you want something depends on how determined you are to get it. Being passive or simply longing for something or someone is not get to get you that which you seek. Don't be sore if because of your hesitancy the thing/person you long for goes to someone else. The one who works hard for it gets the prize and the loser has to accept it.

Crying sour grapes won't ease things either. If you really want it, then do all that you can to attain it. Things don't last forever and before you know it, it's gone. After that you may wind dying in your bed every night from regret. So go after it while you can and don't let anything hold you back.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Instant Gratification: You Did It In Minute By Hall And Oates

It's that day again where I have to do something extra which is a pain in the butt. On top of that I'm getting a headache from a tasj where I am just feeling my way around and I don't know what I'm doing. This has been a really grueling week. Times like this I wish there was a magic bullet that solve all these woes. Wishing of a quick fix reminds of Hall And Oates' song "You Did It In A Minute".

I remember watching a talk show and how the guest often describes this generation as one that demands instant gratification, meaning when they want something, it should be given pronto. I have to agree with them when they say the reason for this is because of the technology that we possess these days that makes processing and delivery go faster. The problem is that people who are doing it are the ones who under a lot of pressure to come with it quickly and should be to the demands of those who requested it. Times like that I wish something would come out of the blue and solve this thing in the blink of an eye. That way, I wouldn't feel so stressed out.

Unfortunately, despite all the new advancements in technology, there are somethings that have to be done the old and hard way. Right now I'm just slugging my way as I go through with this puzzle. I just hope that meet these people's expectations cause I'm really feeling the pressure. How some people can just come with a quick fix is something that I would really like to learn. That way, I can get things done in a minute with less hassle which would do me good.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

My Family Means A Lot To Me: Love Vigilantes By New Order

These last few years have been rough on me and my family. Times have been tough and it sure brought its fair share of pressure on us. Still, despite the tough times, what is important we are all still here despite the constant barrage of storms that life throws at us. With all the things that has happened lately, the picture of me and my family together always warms me through the tough times. When I think of how much my family means to me, the song "Love Vigilantes" by New Order comes to mind.

I know I'm just a dreamer but these days, that's the only thing that's free. A lot of times when I pray I pray for our prosperity and happiness. Whenever we gather together is when I'm at my happiest. Seeing them all laughing and enjoying themselves makes me happy as well. Every time that happens it's like a picture perfect moment for me. I wish I could freeze that moment for a life time.

Not a day goes by when I don't think about them. They mean the world to me. That's because we're all apart of each other. Their happiness means a lot to me. After a lot of bad and crazy times, I only wish that things would be better for me and my family. As the saying goes, "There's Nothing Like Family".

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Well There's No Harm In Dreaming: Dreaming By Orchestral Maneuvers In The Dark

anyone that caught your fancy and it may be something that you want to have. Sadly no matter how hard you try, it's just out your reach. Well, at least you can always dream about it. Just left with the thought of having something you can't have reminds me of Orchestral Maneuvers In The Dark's song "Dreaming".

This happens to all of us, especially now that times are tough on everyone. Window shopping is probably the only shopping most people do since the price tags are so hefty. It gets worse if its someone you want to be with. Even if that person likes you, if you're out in that person's league, it's going to hurt you in the long run. That's why you better think things over if it's really worth it because this ain't no fairy tail where you live happily ever after; rather you're going to be breaking your back till you break.

This may be a big let-down but you have to be realistic about things. Can you handle it or not is the question. If you can't then let it go cause it's not worth the hassle. Either look for something you can handle or work hard to earn it. Still, it was a good thought while it lasted and there's no harm in dreaming.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Need To Get Things In Order: Do You Know Where You're Going To By Diana Ross

I know that I should be thankful for the things that I have and be grateful for the people I have around me. I never take that for granted but these days there's a certain desperation that I'm feeling. It doesn't help that I'm getting older and my whites are starting to show. It just that the fear of repeating the cycle still hangs heavy inside and that if I don't do anything I fear that I might find myself stranded again. As I try to get things in order with my life the song "Do You Know Where You're Going To" by Diana Ross comes to mind.

When my family once reprimanded me to get my life in order, it still echoes in my head. This isn't because I resented it but because it reminds me that life is short and no matter how much help you get, eventually you're on your own. Times like that you need to stop and take a long hard look at where you are and where you're going. It doesn't help that the things you are working on hit a snag or just didn't happen. That just makes you even more desperate and more stressed out.

When someone tells you to straighten out your life, you better listen. Even when things are cool, you'll never know the bad times hits you and things right now are pretty bad. I try to stay level headed inside me is a desperate urge to make something happen and keep it that way. If I can only find some stability where I can do things on my own till the day I die, then I guess I achieved something. I'm still figuring it out but I am determined to get things in order if it's the last thing I ever do.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

That's One Way To Jolt You: Eruption By Van Halen

There are days when you feel like you don't want to get out of bed. You're so sluggish that if you just close your eyes for a second, you'd go into coma. To top it off, you wish you Rip Van Wrinkle since you don't to get up and just sleep the whole day. Times like that you need something really loud and really strong to blast you wide awake. One song that does that is Van Halen's "Eruption".

I got that idea from watching the first installment of the movie Back To The Future. This is where he puts a pair of earphones on his future father and turns on the walkman to high volume, really jolting him from his sleep. Apart from a wake up song, I use to listen to this when I work out cause it keeps the adrenaline pumping which me going. That's better than taking something that might do you more harm than good. That's what I call a natural high.

These days, the contemporary songs don't that kind of punch anymore. Some would argue that I'm not up to date with what's hot. Well, I'm officially old school now and I'm with listening to what I grew with. I just can't relate to it anymore. Besides they don't the same power that this song and others like it have.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

How're You Doing?: Hello It's Me By Todd Lundgren

Lately, I've been running into a lot of people from my past and every time that happens, I just can't help but want to sit down and chat about the old days and ask them how they've been. It's always an awkward situation because a part of me is a bit embarrassed to say how things are and I bet the guy or gal feels the same way. Still, when I see people from my past I would really like to spend time with them because of the times we had together. It's like the past coming to life again. Asking how old acquaintances are doing reminds me of Todd Rundgren's song "Hello It's Me".

A lot of times I often wonder what people who became part of my life are now doing now. This is often true to those who really touched my life back then. When you have a history with somebody, it stinks when you loose contact with that person, especially when you have formed a strong bond back then. You really wonder about them during times when you're alone and want to find someone you in common with outside the family. For me, I wished that we maintained our contact with each other. To see that relationship suddenly end, really makes you feel that you are isolated because you lost someone who knows you very well.

Not a day goes by when I don't wonder where they are now or what they are doing. I know I sure had a lot of ups and downs and I guess they do too. Maybe they've matured and got lucky and if that's the case, then I'm happy for them. I guess if the chance comes when we bump into each other, there would be a long stare then recognition. Finally its "hello it's me" and the past comes alive even for a moment but it will a fine moment indeed.

Friday, August 12, 2011

The Sweet Life Is Not That Sweet:: But I've Never Been To Me By Charlene Duncan

When I was growing up I remember people often tell tales about the cool spots that they hang out as well as rub shoulders with some celebrities and big shots who hang around there. The way they talked about it, it sometimes temps the listener to wish that he/she could change places. Still, that doesn't mean that the good is what it seems to be. It still can't replace the real warm and love of the people around you. The song "But I've Never Been To Me" by Charlene Duncan reminds me that of that old lesson.

This song is about a woman who lived the good life telling a housewife that sweet life that she had lived wasn't all that great. She went further that it was all an illusion and she missed out of the real things that mattered in life. Eventually, she grew tired of the sweet life and wished that she had settled down when she had the chance. This song had a deep impression on me when I first heard it. It made me realize what real paradise is compared to a few crazy nights.

I guess that's why when I blog about having a good time with the gang, I remember that lesson. Sure it'd be good to party out in some classy bar and see the sights but it's nothing if you're not with your people. Heck, I've always been cool with just a case of brews, a few herbs and my 24k tunes with my bros and buds laughing through the night. It's because I'm with real people and good people who I'm fond of and trusted for years and have stood by me through my life. That's the sweet for me and can never be beat.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Those Long Piericing Looks: Sad Eyes By Robert John

When bad news hits, the first sign that you're displeased are your eyes then followed by your face. At that point, your face looks so bad that it's hard to look at you, especially if the person facing you is the bearer of bad news. One thing's for sure the look on those eyes can really pierce deep inside you. It gets too much that even if you turn away you feel that person's anguish. When I think about those looks and expression, the song "Sad Eyes" by Robert John comes to mind.

I know this song is about breaking up but you to admit that getting that kind of look is not limited to a break-up alone. Any kind of bad news can surely turn a person's facial expression faster than day turning into night. If you're the one who dropped the bomb, the first thing you feel is regret and you'd be wishing that someone else did it. It can be a very tense moment, that anyone would wish could just go away. Sadly, you have to face the music to the bitter end.

You try to break it as gently as you can but there's no avoiding those long, sad piercing looks. Still it had to be done and the person concerned should know that it was coming. That doesn't make it any easier especially if the person is very emotional. Well, just take it and move on. There's just no sugar-coating bad news so just break as best as you can and endure those long, piercing looks till your job is done.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Melancholic, Hazy, Haunting: Fade Into You By Mazzy Star

I often mention in post about being sentimental and often haunted by the past. This is especially true when those memories were about either bad or sad. There are also times when I had just been through a day so bad that I would spend the hours walking around oblivious or just swallowing something to chase the blues away. I do what to get these things out of my system even if I know it's now a part of me no matter what. When it comes to being melancholic, haunted by the past or just the need to clear your head after a bad day, the song "Fade Into You" by Mazzy Star comes to mind.

I remember this song first came out during one of the down periods of my life when things weren't moving and problems just kept on coming. A lot of times, I spent my days trying to turn things around but wound up getting disappointed. As a result, I wound up feeling glum and that time, I'd go somewhere just to get away from it all even if it's just for a few hours. My moods alternated between being haunted by disappointments and longing for the good old days. At that time, this song came out came and whenever it played on the radio, I kept listening to it as one way to get some relief.

Everybody has their ups and downs as well as their way of dealing with it. They also say that problems won't end until you're in the grave. You just have to handle it as best as you can. Still, some things are really hard to handle and they really leave a mark on you. When similar crap happens, images of those experience can sure spring up and fade of all sudden. It's a painful reminder that leaves you haunted, hazy and melancholic.

Monday, August 8, 2011

I Guess The Joke Was On Me: Who Will Be The Fool Tonight By The Larsen Feiten Band

Last night while I was surfing the web, something happened that set me in panic mode. I couldn't sleep the whole night and when I woke up, I was almost late for work. It didn't end there as once again I had trouble with my computer and it drove me bongers. After taking a deep breath though, I finally figured out what to do but because of that I was left a little agitated and humiliated by the experience. Whenever crap happens and I'm the victim, the song "Who Will Be The Fool Tonight" by the Larsen Feiten Band comes to mind.

They say that every dog has his day but in my case it's night and day(double whammy). I hate those moments when I go into panic mode and all reason leaves me. The worse part about it is that I can't blame anyone but myself for what I happened. I had to admit I was careless which led to this mess. I guess it's another bitter pill that I have to swallow.

Well live and learn they say. I guess I better learn from this folly cause I don't want it to happen again. I've through a lot lately and the last that I need is more crap. Right now I'm trying to relax and regain my composure cause I'm really stressed out from all this. Being the fool for the ay sure is humiliating but learn and move on cause it's only thing to do.

I Guess The Joke Was On Me: Who Will Be The Fool Tonight By The Larsen Feiten Band

Last night while I was surfing the web, something happened that set me in panic mode. I couldn't sleep the whole night and when I woke up, I was almost late for work. It didn't end there as once again I had trouble with my computer and it drove me bongers. After taking a deep breath though, I finally figured out what to do but because of that I was left a little agitated and humiliated by the experience. Whenever crap happens and I'm the victim, the song "Who Will Be The Fool Tonight" by the Larsen Feiten Band comes to mind.

They say that every dog has his day but in my case it's night and day(double whammy). I hate those moments when I go into panic mode and all reason leaves me. The worse part about it is that I can't blame anyone but myself for what I happened. I had to admit I was careless which led to this mess. I guess it's another bitter pill that I have to swallow.

Well live and learn they say. I guess I better learn from this folly cause I don't want it to happen again. I've through a lot lately and the last that I need is more crap. Right now I'm trying to relax and regain my composure cause I'm really stressed out from all this. Being the fool for the ay sure is humiliating but learn and move on cause it's only thing to do..

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Making My Way Home As Best As I Can: Gonna Hitch A Ride By Boston

Whenever I'm at a get-together with my buds, you can bet that I'm in for one wild night. This especially true when the party starts roaring on its own weight. But all good things come to an end and now comes the hard part and is going home and keeping it together at the same time. It's almost downer but I always manage to make it back. The process of making back home after a wild night reminds me of the song "Gonna Hitch A Ride" by Boston.

Back then I always make a mess of myself and unfortunately my brothers would have haul my carcass back. When you get older you learn how to handle yourself because you still have to make it back after the fun's over. Sometimes I manage to get a ride and other times I'm able to get a cab all the while with this song playing in my head. It keeps me alert as the journey home begins. At the same I'm just tripping as I make my home.

So far, so good because I always manage to make it back safe and sound. I might hurl along the way but at least I'm okay. It would cool to just trip on just a bit especially during the smoke part of the lyrics. Still, home beckons and I'm on my way. Whether I try or hitch a ride, the night was worth it.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

You Can Bet I Feel Low When I'm Listening To This: Lowlife By The Police

The great thing about listening to a 24K tunes is that they have a song for every mood. That's why a good 24K song can also keep the doctor away. Some can energize you while others can soothe when you're down. Add a some herbs and sauce and it'll chase the blues away. Speaking of moods, when I'm feeling low I like listening to the song "Lowlife" by The Police.

I remember back in '99, when I had a bad time at work, I stayed a bit and left when everybody did. It was so late I had a hard time finding a place to eat for dinner and bought some hooch to chase the blues away. Went to my room and played this song while I took some comfort down south. After a while I dozed off feeling a little better and didn't go to work the next day.

You can bet that when I'm listening to this song, I have a glass/bottle in one hand and a stoogie on the other. At that point, I want to be alone and let the music and other stuff wash over me. Nobody likes hitting it low and for all those are, you have my sympathies. Bad days just happen and you just got to deal with it. Times like these when life is at its lowest.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Talk About It: Mothers Talk By Tears For Fears

I'm no expert but one of the reason's why there is conflict is because we keep it all inside. I remember feeling really down and blog about then all of a sudden, my mother took me aside and talk about it. I realize right then and there that I should have said something cause it affected her a lot. I forgot that old lesson about letting it out and making your feeling known. Remembering reminds me of the song "Mothers Talk" by Tears For Fears.

For who've my post, there were reasons why I don't say what's inside me. To mention it again is difficult enough as it is. Still after that conversation, I realized that it won't do you any good keeping it in. It gets worse when someone else hears about it. I felt bad about making her and other people worry.

I guess it's all the pressure of trying to deal with everyday things. I'm not backing out of what I mentioned about my blog. It's just that I remember that some of my entries are about being honest and best practice it. That way people would better understand me. More importantly, things get worked out better.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Hedonistic 80's: Relax By Frankie Goes To Hollywood

I remember back when I was in high school, a lot of new wave songs were really getting rauchy. This was coupled by the style back then where leather and spandex became the rage as well as pastel and cardigans. Punks, new wavers and metal heads often went around clad like they were characters from a Mad Max movie. Some of the songs were more prone to tell people to let go of their inhibitions and just let loose. Remembering that aspect of the past reminds me of the song "Relax" by Frankie Goes To Hollywood.

If people let them loose in the 70's, they took it to another level in the 80's. The clubs back then that played this song was anything but wholesome. When leather was involved, you can bet that it's just the tip of the iceberg. When they bring out the other "toys", you can bet you're in for a long night. Well if that's what gets some people off, that's their thing.

Different strokes for different folks they say. Some like it but this isn't my cup of tea. It's too crazy for my taste. Even today, when I hear this song, the images that arises from it gives me goose bumps. For me, this song really embodies that the hedonistic side of the 80's.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Taking Stock Of Where I've Been And Where I'm Going: Highways Of My Life By The Isley Brothers

I remember the movie "Murphy's Romance" where Sally Field's character was crying that she's in her forties and is living like a nut. These I feel the same way and it doesn't help that problems keep mounting and I haven't the means to deal with them. They say that life is like a road that you travel with play you left behind is the past; the where you are travel is the present and the next destination is the future. With the way I'm driving, I really need to take stock of where I've been and where I'm going. That metaphor reminds of the Isley Brothers' song "Highways Of My Life".

I hate to admit it but life didn't turn out the way I wanted it to. Despite the factors that played into the equation, I take the blame for what my life has become. I guess the reason why people say I think too much is because the past always haunts me because of all the things that were never to be. Even though I want to move on, the past has a way of repeating itself with painful results. That's why lately I try to be very careful where I steer as I travel down life's unpredictable road hoping I won't go back to where I've been.

I say this because I want to change my life for the better. Right now I'm stock of things that I have and do to ensure I don't go down the wrong road again though I have to admit it's easier said than done. I just wanna make sure that the rides gets a bit smoother this time around. Well we'll never know what awaits us on the other side. We'll just cruise down the highway until then.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Times When You Don't Want It To End: Aint Even Done With The Night By John Mellencamp

One thing I remember about those good old times that we had back in the days is that we always had a great time. Every time we had a gimmick going down, you can bet everybody was laughing and the juice was overflowing. It didn't take long for the party to start rocking and the only time when it was over was when everybody was passed out. Even when you wake up with a heavy head it was worth it and the only thing that you regret is that the night came to an end. Not wanting to have a good time end reminds me of John Mellencamp's song "Aint Even Done With The Night".

I know this is more of a date song but then again when things are cool, you'd wish that it would stay that way. As I've said before, being with all the people you like and having a good time can sure chase the blues away. So what if the gimmick's far or that there's not enough money in your pocket. What is important is that you're having a good time. Once you're stewed you would care cause feeling good is good enough.

The only thing that would bring the night to a close is when you more than reach your limit. By that time, you'd either be out like a rock or probably heaving in some corner. When that happens, it gives the other guys another reason to laugh their heads out. Man those were the times. I still they didn't end.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Just Try To Get Along: People Are People By Depeche Mode

One of the first things that you have to do when you're in a new environment is getting along with new people. No two people are the same. Some have their virtues as well as their faults. When the group is new, you have to get to know them well for things to go smoothly. Trying to get along with people reminds me of the song "People Are People" by Depeche Mode.

Whenever I'm with a new group of people, I'll be the first to extend my hand. As much as possible, I do my best to get along with others because I am now apart of the group. I'll be working with them so I want to form a bond with them as soon as possible. To do this, I try to find what it is that we have in common and start off from there. That way, we can better understand each other.

Nobody's perfect and that's the first thing that I remember when I'm with someone new. I don't get in other people's way and I respect their space. I only ask that they do the same for me in return. The sooner we understand each other, the better. People are people so accept them for who they are.