Friday, October 8, 2010

One Of Those Senseless One-Hit Songs: Amadeus By Falco

I have to admit that there are some songs played on 24K that I don't like. Some of them can be a real pain in the ear. When I think about it, I wonder how they became hits in the first place. Still, for some reason there people out there who not only like them really dance to them. I guess what's noise pollution to some is music to others. One such song that I never liked was Falco's "Amadeus".

I used to remember my brother teasing me with song due to a time where he saw me with my hair unkempt (which is one the reasons why I didn't like this song). Anyway I know that Amadeus was like the rocker of classical music back then which is why I guess there were leather-clad bikers mixed in with those who sported elegant 1700-style clothing (plus the wigs and ruffles) in the video. Still, every time, I hear this song, I wanna turn off the radio. I can't understand what this song no matter how many times it got played.

After this song, I never heard another from this guy. There was song and video with him and Bridgette Nielsen, but it was seldom heard on the radio. After that he faded away like a lot of one-hit wonders of the time. For some, this song rocks but for me, it was senseless then and its senseless now. Different strokes for different folks I guess. I'm just glad that it was just a one-hit-wonder.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

One Of The Sexiest Films During My Time: What A Feeling By Irene Cara

I remember one of the sexiest films that shown during my time was "Flash Dance". It starred Jennifer Beals a steel worker who had ambitions of being a dancer. I remember a lot of my friends watched this film which was so popular during that time. There were a lot of great tracks that were included in its soundtrack as well. The song that stands out the most from this film was "What A Feeling" by Irene Cara.

Man, this song was so popular, it was played everywhere. Even school activities made use of this song during their presentation. For me the hottest scenes were the club dance where they pour water over the dancer as she sat on the chair as well her audition where she wore a very skimpy black top and shorts (if you could call it that). In the end, she got the part as well as the man. Still those two scenes were smoking.

I'm glad too see that the lead actress is still active. She's done of film and t.v. work to this day and she's still hot. Still, she will always be remembered for those scenes. She was every boy's fantasy at the time. Man, she burns the screen during that time and still does to this day.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Oh Those Disco Days/Iconic Solo Dance: You Should Be Dancing By The Bee Gees

Man, I remember when the movie Saturday Night Fever burst into the screen. It put the Disco era in full swing. People were packing Discotheques just to be seen. I also remember how everybody wanted to be John Travolta back then. They especially wanted to dance the way he did. For me, the high point of this movie was went he did a solo dance to the song "You Should Be Dancing" by The Bee Gees.

I remember this was the scene where the dancers cleared the floor and John started to do his thing on the dance floor. Once he started, it was hard not to watch his routine. The man moved gracefully on the floor and did splits that would put a martial artist to shame. Because of that my two brothers often tried their best to be limber just so to imitate what he did. What a crazy time that was!

Well these days, when you go to a dance club, it's more about hip hop. People these days dance like they've been possessed by the devil. They don't have grace that people had back then. These days you'd see moves like that in a sausage bar. Still, you have to admit when John did it, everybody watched. To this day, people still ask him if he can still dance and dance he still could.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

What Is It All About: Alfie Theme Song

One of my favorite parts of the 1960s film "Alfie" was the last part where Micheal Caine's character delivers a monologue asking what's it all about. He concludes that even though you got everything materially, if you don't have peace of mind, you don't have anything. That scene really had a deep impression on me, especially when I'm struggling with a lot of things. And I'm not alone as a lot of people these are wondering what is it you need to find that peace of mind that gives meaning to one's life. When it comes to asking and answering that question, the movie's soundtrack of the same name comes to mind.

As I get older and still find myself struggling with a lot of old as well new issues, that question hangs heavily in my mind. I should be at that point, where I have it figured out or at least got a grip on my life, but sadly I haven't. The worst part about is I can feel that I've been past over by time and that I've got to make do with what I can find or get. Still, I can't get any satisfaction and as I see my friends reach that point of settling down, I find myself longing for the same. Even the wildest parties or escaping to some exotic island can't erase this thought which has now grown stronger as I grow older.

I wish find some kind of stability in my life, specially now that I feel that my time has passed me by. Still I find there are others who are better off than me still asking the same question. I guess it doesn't matter whether one is rich or poor, married or single these days as we find asking the same question. Well as I continue my daily struggle, one I hope to find the answer or at least feel it. So the question what's it all about is something I have to figure out myself in the end.

Monday, October 4, 2010

When You Don't Want To Hear It: I Don't Want To Hear What Love Can Do By Van Halen

here are times when you get so mad that reach that point of anger where you're oblivious to everything around you. That's when you're eyes are bulging; you're screaming obscenities at the top of your lungs and probably breaking everything you see in sight. The hard part about that stage is your now beyond really reason as you're anger has already gotten the best of you. That's when you might yourself and worse people around you. When you're so fully of rage and beyond, the song "I Don't Want To Hear What Love Can Do" By Van Halen" comes to mind.

I guess that's the reason why when things blow up, I try to pacify rather than add fuel to the fire. It's not always easy seeing people possessed by rage and any suggestion to calm down only enrages them even more. You only have to stand by and hope that they get it out of their system. When they target other people when they're angry, that's when I draw the line. Even if their anger is righteous, that doesn't give them the right to be disrespectful to other people.

Times like that, I wish these people would go jogging or punch the bag till they've calmed down. When they start spreading their anger around, it's like dropping a match in a gasoline station. Pretty soon everybody gets caught up in the madness and nothing gets solved. People who get mad beyond reason better be careful because there are those won't stand for it. It might costs them dearly in the end.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

It Affects All Of Us: I Cry Just A Little Bit By The Outfield

Every time I remember my father's passing, it still hurts me deep inside. I'd give anything to hear his morning rants about coffee or creamers just to know that he's there. Still, I know I am not the only affected by this as my brothers and my mother still mourn his death as well. It hurts even more when I see my mother cry, I feel like crying too. It takes a piece out of my heart when that happens. When I hear the Outfield's song "I Cry Just A Little Bit", it reflects what I feel when I see her grieve for my father.

As I have said before, you never know how much a person means to you until they are gone. Whenever she wakes up early in the morning, I know the loss hits her again. It gets worse during Sundays because that's the day they spend a lot of time together. The best I can do when that happens is let her cry and be by her side till she gets it out of her system. It's hard seeing her like this but join her and try to console because like her I too miss him very much.

Still, I'll be there for as long as it takes because she's my mother and she was there for me when I needed her. It's my turn to give comfort as she has comforted me when I was a boy. It's tough but I know he's up there playing all the 18 holes in God's big golf courses with my granddad as well as my nanny. For now, I'll do my best to keep her from crying cause when she cries, I cry too.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Pressure Of Transition: New Kid In Town By The Eagles

There comes a time when even the best of us would succumb to the pressures of time. When you're not as fast or strong as you once were, it's time to hang it up and make way for the new generation. It won't be easy for the new guys either, especially if the old guard accomplished a lot during their time. So there's a lot of pressure on them as well. When it comes the pressures of transition, I remember the song "New Kid In Town" by The Eagles.

Whether it was good or bad, you do your best during your time. When it's over, it's time to hang it up. For the new guy, he better be careful with what he promises. The bigger the promises, the higher expection to follow through. After all the fanfare, you better put your nose to the grind.

Nobody said it would be easy and there would also be a lot obstacles thrown your way. Whatever happens, you do it as you call it. Just do the best that you can in everything that you do. That's the least that people would ask from you. So buckle up and ready cause your the new guy incharge.

The Only One Who Could Save You Is You (With A Little Help From The Big Guy): Who Will Save Your Soul By Jewel

When problems comes knocking on your door, it's like junk mail which just overwhelms you. Sometimes you gets so desperate that you wonder how you're going to get out of this mess. You'd even go so far as to wish that someone would bail you out. Even when you hope against hope, deep inside you know what the answer is. When it comes to seeking relief or salvation, Jewel's song "Who Will Save Your Soul" comes to mind.

It would be nice to just wish all the crap away so that life would be sweet but unfortunately it won't happen. Even if some help came by, its your battle and you have to face whether you like it or not. For me, I'm a firm believer in saying "God Helps Those Who Help Themselves". I do what I can as hard as I can these days. I just hope the Big Guy gives me a boost to carry me through these tough times.

In the end, you won't be saved unless you make an effort to do so. Salvation doesn't fall from the sky and you do what you can. As for me, all I ask is that things would be better and am trying hard to make it so. I know the Big Guy is up there somewhere and I hope he takes it easy on me. I'll do what I can but it would sure be great if he'd meet me half-way.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

For All Those Angry People Who've Reached Their Limit: I Don't Care Anymore

As I have mentioned before, I'm easy when it comes to dealing with other people. Most of the time, I'm the one who backs down just to settle things amicably. It happens so often that people often remark that if I was an explosive device, I'd have a very long fuse. Still, just like everyone else, I have my limits and once the fuse is lit and hits the power enough is enough. You called down the thunder you asked for it and to heck with the consequences. When my anger reached its peak and I don't care anymore, the song " I Don't Care Anymore" by Phil Collins comes to mind.

The problem with people is that when you're too nice, they tend to abuse you. These are the kind of people who really make me see red. They're the ones who play with fire only to get burned themselves. I don't like getting angry but I'm not going to let some jerk keep annoying me. Times like that I don't care anymore. You made this mess so clean up and see if I care.

When I get in mad mode, I just want to throw my hands up and leave. Anyone who tries to push it might wind up with a kick in the face. Like anyone else who get pissed, I too need some time to cool off. I sometimes hate myself when my emotions take hold of me which is why I don't like getting angry. At that point, I really don't care anymore.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

When It Was Easy To Party Out When You Wanted To: Let's Get Crazy Tonight

Day in and day out, it seems like everyday is the same. Nothing changes and you're lucky that if nothing bad happens before the day draws to a close. Pretty monotonous life huh? When you were younger, you didn't have to deal with this crap. Whenever you had the itch to do something all you had to was pick up the phone and let the party begin. Remember those sudden urges to just party reminds of Rupert Holmes' song "Let's Get Crazy Tonight".

The fact that you can just party out of the blue when you were younger goes to show just how much time you had on your hands. A few brews and a good sound system and instant party. Once the gang arrives, let the party begin! It won't stop until the last bottle is empty and everybody's passed out on the floor. It really was a crazy way to pass the time.

Right now, there are a lot of things to attend to. Hopefully, things will look up with these months as things are starting to pick though slowly. When bears fruit and becomes sustainable, then I'll be able to party again. You can say I'm being too strict with myself but I want to make sure that thing are cool before doing anything else. I guess when I go crazy, let it all the way to savor every moment and let nothing stop it.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

It's In The Family : Running In The Family By Level 42

I know I'm beginning to sound monotonous about about being tense everyday but I just can't help it. Things aren't happening yet and though things are still okay, it doesn't give me much comfort. One thing that gave me reassurance was what my brother told me. He reminded me that I was my father's son which meant that you are strong and never forget it. Being reminded of that also reminded me of the song "Running In The Family" by Level 42.

Though we acted differently, there are times when we share the same traits as our parents. It just doesn't manifest itself that often or we just have different interest. Still, the passion is there and its the same passion that runs deep in the family as well as the resolve not give and until we achieve what we set out to do. Even if the paths we take are different, the way and attitude is always there. It really struck me upon realizing it.

Well things are still up in the air right now but I'm still have my nose to the grind. I may not be as smart or aggressive as my father but I won't give up. There are somethings that a person has to face and resolve and for me this is it. Though still apprehensive, I'll go on. This is because it runs in the family.

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Monday, September 27, 2010

Unwind A Bit After Work: Happy Hour By The Housemartins

I remember blogging about how I'd have a drink or two before going home. Though it may not have been a healthy habit physically,mentally and emotionally you get a lot out of your mind and heart. This is truly so when you have good people to talk to while you enjoy your drink. After a weary and sometimes bad day, you really need to take some time to get it all out of your system. Remembering those times when you unwind a bit before going home reminds me of the song "Happy Hour" by The Housemartins.

When work sucks and you feel the same way, sometimes you want to just get it off your chest before going home. Having a few brews with someone who's had his or her share of crap helps you open up about the remains of the day. Just go to a good place where the atmosphere is cool and the drinks are cheap. Pretty soon the smile replaces the scowl and you feel relaxed after a tensed. Not wanting to overdo it, if you feel better, then that's the time to call it a day.

It's been a while since I shared a drink with my friends (inner-circle). Especially now, that things are a bit chaotic and I'm needed here at home as soon as work is done. Still, it's starting to take it's toll on me as I wake up and go to sleep tense. I just hope that what I am working on will finally bear fruit and be sustainable so that from their I can work on other things that can help ease the situation around here. Once all of this is resolved, I'd gladly have a real good drink and have a good time cause by then it'll really be happy hour.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

I Guess I'm In It Now: Into The Fire By Dokken

They say that you shouldn't look fore trouble because trouble will surely find you sooner of later. I was never one for getting into trouble because of that. Life is hard enough as it is. Unfortunately, whether you like or not, the crap will hit the fan and your going to have to deal with it. Times like that, you have to take the bull by the horn. When you're in it deep, the song "Into The Fire" by Dokken comes to mind.

For young people who complain about life, my advice to them is enjoy your youth while you still can. When problems hit you, that's when it separates the lions from the lambs. I was hoping for a happier year this year but a tragedy shattered that hope. It's affected all of us and right now we are coping with it. Not a day goes by when I worry about what the future will bring. Still, that doesn't mean that I'll curl up and die because I swore that I'll make it through this one way or another.

I know it's easier said than done. Right now the things that I am working still haven't reaped results as I had hoped. Still, I won't give up because there's a lot stake here. For once in my life, I really want to win. Even if I'm in deep, I'll make it out of here.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Reminds Me Of My Nanny/How My Favorite Songs Affect Me: Yesterday Once More By The Carpenters

Today is Saturday again and that means it 24K again. Today is also my late Nanny's birthday and I miss her a lot. What the two have are the fond memories of the good times that I have about the good time that I had in the past. She was a second mother who raised us through the years and cheered us up when we were down. Now that she's gone, I think about her a lot and just like my favorite 24K songs, her memories really bring back the past so vividly that it sometimes overwhelms me. I remember one of her favorite songs was "Yesterday Once More" by The Carpenters.

Like any of my top 24K songs, this one really makes me stop what I'm doing and just want to listen to it. With this song, the memories of the good times I spent with her come alive and I hear her laughter and remember how she stood by us like a true mother. I remember when I took her out to a movie and treated her to the mall, I felt happy and proud to do something for her in return for all that she's done. I wish I could've done more before she passed away. Not a day goes by when I don't think of her.

Wherever she is, I hope she's doing fine because she deserves it after all that she has done for all of us. I remember I saw her in dream where she was in a party and she was smiling. Someone told me that it was a sign that she's in heaven and I hope that's true. I bet right now, she, my father and grandfather are having a great time somewhere up there. Happy Birthday Ads, I miss you a lot.

Friday, September 24, 2010

This Definitely Isn't America: This Is Not America By David Bowie

When Barack Obama won the 2008 elections, people hoped that change would come at last after a tumultuous eight years under the Bush Administration. Hopes bringing the war to an end as well as fixing the economy were high on the hopes of Americans when he was sworn into office. Everyone heaped praises for him being the first African-American President as his youth, eloquence and image captured the imagination of Americans and the world as a whole. These days it's a different story as more people are now dissatisfied with the Obama and his policies as it is counter to what Americans believe in. This recent 360 degree view of the current U.S. President reminded me of the song "This Is Not America" by David Bowie.

This is the soundtrack from the movie "The Falcon And The Snowman" about two Americans who sold secrets to the Russians. Even though I am politically right of center, I was willing to give the Obama a chance since the U.S. economy went down during the Bush Administration. Unfortunately, many of Obama's policies run counter to that of the American character which put to much emphasis on big government and his programs wold burdened already cash-strapped Americans who are having a hard time staying afloat. To sum it up, all of his policies are the ones that make people more dependent on government rather than encourage self-growth. To top it off, he keeps blaming Bush just to remind people this wasn't his mess.

Correct me if I'm wrong but the U.S. that I remember was a country where people chased their dreams; were proud of who they were and were fiercely independent. It's no wonder the Tea Party Movement is growing because these want that America back again. I guess we'll in the November elections and in 2012 if Obama will still remain in Office. The negative reaction to his polices is proof that people don't want that kind of America. I guess Obama and the progressives really underestimated the true nature of the American character.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Looking For The Person You Once Were: Everybody's Looking For Jack By Colin James Hay

Way back when you were younger, things were different. Life was simple and the future was full of promise. Back then when people look at you, they say that you were full of potential that you were destined for big things. You thought that it was so easy to just go out there and it would fall into your lap. Sometimes things don't turn out the way you thought they would and in the process the person you once were or were expecting to be gets lost over the years. When that happens, I remember Colin James Hay's song "Everybody's Looking For Jack".

Sometimes having a lot of potential is not enough to ensure that you'll get where you're going. We've all seen such people tumble down the road from time to time. It sure is sad when that happens. Whether they didn't try or something bad happened, sometimes these people failed to reach their potential. They were the least likely people who would wind up in such a situation. We are left wondering where that person who was so full of promise disappear to.

What have we learned from this? Potential isn't enough for one to be successful in the future. You have to have drive to achieve your dreams because life is not easy and you have to fight every inch of the way to become that person people believed that you would be. Some say it's not too late and you can still find that golden boy inside you if you just move. It won't be easy but if you keep trying, then that person will be back again. When that day comes back, I guess people will find Jack again.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Why I Hate Making Mistakes: Mistake Number Three By Culture Club

They say that no matter how careful we try to be, mistakes happen. They also said even if mistakes happen, we should not be afraid to try again. As much as I agree with the second sentence, there are times when making a mistake can really hit you hard. Sometimes it not only affects you but also people around you and that makes it worse. Whether it's because we took something for granted or something just happened out of the blue, when a mistake happens, you can bet the consequences are catastrophic. when I think about mistakes and their consequences, Culture Club's song "Mistake Number 3" comes to mind.

When I was young, I remember the stern reprimand that we got from our parents when we made a mistake. They made sure that we understood what would happen if we did it again and we did our best not to. As a result, I've come to realize that we make mistakes, other people get affected as well. If it was just me, it would be okay. If other people got hurt, it would really bother me.

Still, we can't let that stop us from trying. We just have to learn things along the way. There is no full proof guarantee that things won't go wrong. I know now that although it's hard when mistakes happen, you have to face up to it. More importantly, you have to learn from and grow from it. In the end, you have to chalk it up as one of life's lesson and move on.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Back When There Was No Stress: Feels Like Heaven By Fiction Factory

I remember the good old days when life was simple and problems were non-existent. The only thing that you worried about was what to do for the day. No matter what you did, at the end of the day, everything was all right. Those were the days, huh. Remembering those care-free days reminds me of the song “Feels Like Heaven” by Fiction Factory.

Man, the only thing that I was worried about that time was having trouble with school work but I always did my chores and passed my lessons despite the difficulties. I had to or it would have cut in on my fun time. Looking back, I never realize just how easy life was back then. There was always something to do and it was always fun.

These days, It’s a different story as responsibilities keep popping up and deadlines have to be met. These days, I worry about the future as the consequences of my mistakes are catching up with me. I just hope I get it together before things start crashing down. Maybe one day, I’ll get to feel that care-free feeling that we once enjoyed in the past. I’d give anything to feel like that again.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Wishing And Making Wishes Come True: Wishing By Flock Of Seagulls

Every time I think about the band Flock Of Seagulls, the first thing that comes to mind is the outrageous hairstyle that their lead-singer wore at the time. It was combination of hawkman/wolverine that definitely caught people’s attention. Lately, however, there is one thing that got my attention from this group. It has something to do with wishing and making wishes come true. The song is of course, called wishing.

Like a lot of songs at the time, this one is about wishing to be with someone. For me, it’s more about wishing and making something come true. It’s okay to wish for something but there is a difference between wishing and actually making it come true. If you’re stuck with just the wishing part, chances are you’re not going to get anything done. You have to be ready to do what it takes to make things happen.

As for me, I am currently working on something right now. I’m taking it one step at a time to learn more so that I know what I’ll need to do. I really want to get it right cause if I do, then it will really help ease things around here. Hopefully, I’ll be able to make things happen soon. It’s better than just wishing.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Another One Of Those Get Up And Go/Feel Good Songs: Jet By Paul Mccartney And Wings

Well the night has come and the day is officially over. Once again tomorrow is Monday and I already feel the lead in me getting heavier. It's at these times, that I need a good motivational song to get me going for the start of the week. One that jolts me awake and makes me feel good at the same time even if it is Monday. One song that fits the bill is Paul Maccartney And Wings'song "Jet".

It's been so long since I listened to this song that once it crossed my mind, I was surprised. I gave it a listen again and boy it sure sounded good. Now this is the stuff that makes me feel good during the day. If they had more songs like this on the airwaves, I'd bet people wouldn't downloading tunes on the net anymore. That goes to show just how good the music was back then.

Well, I'm wrapping up a few things before I call it quits for the day. One for sure, I'll be listening to this song when I wake up in the morning. It's the next best thing to strong coffee and what's best is that there's no caffeine. Two birds with one stone is what I say about this song. I feel good and motivated to start the week.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Something Cheerful : Parker's Band By Steely Dan

I've been through a lot these past few weels. It really left me worn out and stressed without any relief in sight. With Monday fast approaching, I could sure use something cheerful to pick me up. Suddenly, a song just came into my head that just fitted that bill. That song was Steely Dan's "Parker's Band".

It was loud, fast-paced and had a way of lifting me out of my funk. It was like someone shaking your up and telling you that something grand is happening. When you take listen to that song, I guess it's the next best thing to having your real "bros" and "buds" with you with the band playing and everybody cheering. More importantly, it reminded me that there is still something good out there. Just get yourself on your feet and find it.

I don't know how long this cheerfulness will last. For all I know is that the next bum rap is just around the corner. For know I'll just immerse myself into this song and let it wash all the bad stuff away. With the weekend at a close, I really need to pick myself up. I guess the best way to do that is take a piece of Parker's Band.

Friday, September 17, 2010

So People Would Know You Better: Tell Me What's On Your Mind By Information Society

As I have mentioned several times on this blog, I am a very private person. I never give away too much of myself when I am with other people. I guess it stems from my loner nature and the fact that I can only connect with those who are now part of that circle of friends who we consider brethren when we do our weekend gigs. Still I also know that if I want people to understand me better, I have to open up a little more. With in mind, it reminds me of the song "Tell Me What's On Your Mind" by Information Society.

Whenever I hear this song, I feel like the nuts and bolts of a heavy machine is falling apart. Well going back to being very introverted, I've always went against the flow whenever I'm around people who are outside the circle. I feel that they just don't understand what makes me tick and even if they did, it's not their thing. I guess that's why I feel so awkward when it comes to going out with people outside the circle because I know everything that they like is what I don't like. It's not that I'm a grouch but I'm a very brooding type of person who needs to be with his kind.

Still no one is an island. As much as possible, I try to find some activity where we can get something in common. That I try to at least make an effort so that people would know that I am an okay guy. It'll take some time though but I hope I able to open and be accepted for who I am. I guest I'll just take it one step at a time.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I Guess I Still Believe: I Believe By Tears For Fears

It's funny how when times change, so do people's values. What was once taboo is now open to the public and what was once sacred is now an object of ridicule. I never subscribed to this view after realizing that your values and beliefs tell people who you are. Sometimes what you believe in fails you but you keep believing because it is during those bad times where your beliefs are tested to its limits. When asks about what I believe and hold dear, the song "I Believe" by Tears For Fears comes to mind.

This song is probably best listened to in a dark, airconditioned bar with stoogie and a brew. As you alternate between puffs and gulps, you think about ideas that you believe in and how you stand by them no matter how rocky things. For right now, things are still a bit messed up and the worst part about it is that everything I believe in is getting trashed left and right. As much as it hurts, I bite the bullet and keep working. As much as it hurts to cry, you've got to keep moving if you want things to change and be proven right.

Despite all the crap that gets thrown my way I still believe in a lot of things that kept me going. I maybe no angel but I believe faith, hope and love as well as God Almighty. I believe that despite all the crap that gets thrown my way, things will be better if we just ride out the storm. Sometimes they get too much for me and leave me weary at the end of the day but I still believe that it'll all come to pass. Through the good times and bad, I still believe.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

It’s Like When Sand Castles Crumble: Come Undone By Duran Duran

Whenever one builds a sand castle at the beach they really put their effort into it. Despite the heat and coarseness of the sand, they keep on building till it’s finished. Even if it is a simple little piece of work, it can be frustrating when it suddenly shakes and crumbles back to being plain old sand. You breathe a deep sigh after going through all that work just to see come undone. Seeing things fall apart like that reminds me of the song “Come Undone” by Duran Duran.

One of the painful realities about life is that nothing is permanent and when change comes, it comes when you least expect it. It is even more difficult when you finally found what you’re looking for or finished completing your ideal life. All of a sudden, something happens and it all goes down the drain. All that hard work gone in an instant and just when you think you wouldn’t want anything more. It is really one of life’s most cruel jokes.

Well, like sand, if there is life, then there’s hope. You just have to put a little more effort and start over. I know it’s a bummer but it’s either that or curl up and die. I have no intentions of doing the latter. Still, even if it is water under the bridge, it still stings when you think about what was lost. It really hurts when it comes undone.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

When You Realize What You Missed Out: Sandra By Barry Manilow

This might come out as a surprise to a lot of people but when I was in Grade Five, I found myself listening to Barry Manilow. I guess I was still finding my way to what kind of music that best identifies with my character. Still, there were some songs from him that still catches my ear. I guess because like a lot of songs in my collection, it's something that I can relate to. One song that I suddenly found myself remembering from him is "Sandra".

I guess it's about a devoted wife who realizes just how much she was missing out on life. It's something that I can relate to because there were a lot of things that I missed out on life. Things that would have helped me cope with a lot of things that people go through in life. Some of them may seem trivial, but in reality they are essential if people are going to be complete and move in life. Right now I find myself wishing that I hadn't especially now that things are so complicated and there are a lot of things need to be taken care of.

Sadly, time waits for no one. As incomplete as I feel myself to be, I have to keep moving forward. Hopefully, one day things will really settle down, I'll be able to address these things that I've missed out on. I hope I do cause there's lately I've been feeling down. The fact that I feel that is enough for me to know that I know that I've missed.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Another One Of Those Songs That Calms Me Down When Things Get Crazy: Weather With You By Crowded House

One thing that I can say that the weather and my life is that you can never tell what happens next. I guess that's why I've been so apprehensive cause lately I tend to fear what new miserable experience will be thrown my way. In all that time, I forgot an old lesson and that's just take what life throws at you and make the most of it. Also, that a good song can also soothe your soul when things get a little crazy. One song that reminds me of that is "Weather With You" by Crowded House.

This past week was a real downer for me as one bad thing happened after another. Sometimes when bad things just keep coming it sure can be too hard to process. At times like that, you can really use some space to think and calm down. I did just that and it helped me feel better. Though the problems are still there, at least I was able to get hold of myself to face them once again.

Like I've always said, a good 24K song can be like aspirin or in my case paracetamol. Sometimes listening to it can really calm you down. I sure needed after such a crazy week. I don't what's going to happen next and I'd rather not ask. If it will come, it will come. Just take like you would the weather.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

When The Sky Itself Offers No Relief: The Sky Is Crying By Stevie Ray Vaughn

The problem with being blue is that even the good things that have been happening around you don’t matter. You feel so low that you find yourself imprisoned by your problems. You feel heavy and it sure is hard to get a more on when more crap gets thrown your way. Even the clear blue sky offers no relief from the crappy feeling that’s inside you. With that in mind, I remember Stevie Ray Vaughn’s version of the song “The Sky Is Crying”.

I have to thank my brother for introducing me to Stevie Ray when I was in college cause the man was amazing as he helped keep the blues alive during my college days. Anyway, whenever I hear this song, you can bet that I’m in a mood as nothing good and a lot of bad is happening around me. Broke, health, emotional issues have been plaguing me left and right. At times like I take my usual trip down south or hang out with Jack or Johnnie. Anything to chase away the blues.

Despite the crap that I’ve been right now, what keeps me going is the fact that this will be temporary. It’s just a matter of riding out the storm and finding a way to make things right. I just need some time to sort things out without throwing this crap to other people. It’s going to be tough though cause the crap doesn’t seem to stop either. That’s reason why I think the sky is crying even if people see it as clear blue.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

We All Have Our Reasons For Singing The Blues: Why I Sing The Blues By B.B. King

Though things are starting to calm down again, I still feel that I'm in a deep blue funk. I don't know how long this lull is going to last, but I'm savoring it before something happens and I wind up drowning in the blues. I know I'm not alone but sometimes we all get a little bit caught up with our own problems and there times when we need to just let it all out. Thinking about the things that bring us down reminds me of the song "Why I Sing The Blues" by B.B. King.

Life is hard enough as it is and now it's getting a lot harder for a lot of people. Whether it is family, money, relationship, work, there's always a reason why someone out there feels so down. To add insult to injury, you already paid your dues and nobody seems to understand, let alone care. When that happens, it really makes you feel so alone and alienated. Why wouldn't you have the blues, let alone sing it.

Still, life and time waits for no one. You either get with the program or shrivel up and die. Despite my blues, I do what I can because it's all that I can do. I just wish things would ease because sometimes I feel like paying dues I don't even owe. I know life is hard and unfair, but lately things are getting more and more unfair and that is not right. So when I sing the blues, I have reasons just like everyone cause there's always a reason to sing the blues.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Too Numbed To Cry: I Can't Cry Anymore By Sheryl Crow

Last me and my brothers had an impromptu get-together at my second brother's house. It did me good because for a few hours, it was back to the good old days where we gathered around and simply had a good time. It's been a long time since we did that and I was able to get some of the stress out of my system. The last few weeks was really hell for me that I really got numbed out of my senses. That point of getting numbed without expressing any kind of emotion reminds me of the song "I Can't Cry Anymore" by Sheryl Crow.

The last couple of weeks almost gave me a heart attack due to the crises that's been happening here. I never admitted it to anyone but it was already getting too much for me that it almost drove me to the point of tears. Still, I had to get my bearings straight and get a hold of myself. I remember someone saying that if you want to solve your problems, face and don't cry like a spoiled brat. It really helped me focus and and get my nerves back in order which I needed to do first if I was going to stand my ground around here.

That dinner last night gave me an opportunity to breathe easy for the first time in weeks. To be honest, I was too numbed out to even cry. I guess I needed some time to catch my second breath. Still, time waits for no one so I better get up and do something. To be honest, I'm really tired of crying and would rather do something.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Yes Sir! Right Away Sir! : Coming Right By Bruce Willis

Whenever I see these reality shows on cable that deals about small businesses and the people who operate them, I wonder how they can be themselves while the camera's rolling. One thing's for sure, when your the rank-and-file, when they tell you to jump, you better get to it. Bosses don't want hear excuses that it can't be done. What they want to hear or better yet see are results so when they order something, say "Yes Sir" and get to it. When I think about getting the the job done and fulfilling my duties, it reminds me of the song "Coming Right Up".

Whenever I see people in those reality shows goofing off the job and getting yelled at, all I can say is that they brought it on themselves. You have to set your priorities straight and its simply by knowing what you're suppose to be doing at that time and place. If it's break time, then do your thing but when the clock strikes one, time to get back to the grind. Also be positive about what you're doing. It gets the job faster and helps you appreciate what you're doing.

Most important is always be courteous because it shows that you are more than capable of doing your job and people will trust you more for it. Remember when at work, finish the job and and finish it properly. Be fast but make sure that you do it right so that you don't have to worry about anything at the day's end. So when they tell you to do something just say "Right Away Sir" and do it. It'll make things run more smoothly.

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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

If There Was Such A Ride, I'd Hopped In: Joyride By Roxxette

Had a bad day in the office again. There was something that was said that left a bad taste in my mouth which lead to even more difficult details that yours truly will have a hard time getting. If that wasn't enough, I come home to a tantrum that gets me riled up as well. It's bad enough I had a bad day in the office and I can come only to experience more of the same. Right now, I feel so out of it, that I'm really desperate of some kind of relief. The need of a change of perspective made me remember Roxxette's song "Joyride".

Sleeping and waking up to the same thing is bad enough and now I have to deal more crap. I know it's my fault that things are the way they are but the struggle to control my temper is really starting to take its toll on me. What I'd give to get on board on a car and just zoom away to a destination where I can what I want and be what I want to be. Like what Kevin Costner said in the movie a perfect world where the car is like a time machine where you leave all the crap behind the past and speed off to better future. How I wish it was so.

Unfortunately, reality can sure slap you in the face. There's magic carpet or sports car type ride that will whisk you away and once again you're left dealing with the crap or reality. The answer is always the same and that's work hard to make your dreams a reality. Still, it would be nice of there was such a ride. If there was, I'd hop on in and just zoom away.

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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Getting The Low End Of The Stick: She Caught The Katy By The Blues Brothers

With so many problems and virtually no solution in sight, I am once again on my down mood. Sleeping and waking up to the same situation sure is a bummer. I guess that’s the reason why I’ve been listening to some blues or any song that has a good saxophone or brass section. It really reflects how low I’ve been feeling. One song that has caught my fancy due to my mood is the Blues Brothers’ version of a Taj Mahal classic called “She Caught The Katy”.

I remember this was the opening theme of the movie which was one of my all-time favorites. Anyway, I don’t what the Katy is but lately I feel so low that I’d be lucky if I had a mule to ride. A lot of the things that I hoped for didn’t come about and what’s worse is that the opposite is happening, , the reason for my latest melancholy mood. Right now I’d like to take some comfort down south or take a walk with Johnnie or even hook up with Jack. Anything to chase the blues.

Well, right now I am still trying to get what I’m working on to bear results though I have to admit it’s still an uphill struggle. It gets worse when people tell me that it won’t work and I get a lecture on the “what could’ves” which I have no defense against since nothing’s happening. Right now, the only thing that I can do is work through the ridicule and all the other crap till I do make something from what I am working on. I’d settle for a day without a hassle caused there’s not a day where something doesn’t happen around here. This is really getting the low end of the stick.

Monday, September 6, 2010

You Know The Reason Why But You Don’t Want To Admit It: How Could This Happen To Me By Tower Of Power

You heard the story before. A person comes on to the scene with amazing abilities that people are quickly impressed. They say that he or she will make it big in the future. Sometimes, however, it doesn’t mean that they’ll turn to be successful when they step into the real world. There are times when they wind up failing despite their potential and a lot of times, they wonder what happen. Wondering how that could have happen reminds me of the song “How Could This Happen To Me” by Tower Of Power.

A lot of times, I hear stories of people who are so talented fail in life. It’s surprising because you never thought this would happen. They were so good that you’d think that the road to success was always open to them. To that happen is really so sad. If I had that ability, I wouldn’t be struggling like this right now.

It is often surprising that someone so talented would ironically fail in life. In the past, they just breezed through everything that they did. Sometimes you wonder what it is that people did or did not do to wind up that way. Well, it just goes to sure that some things aren’t so sure in life. They knew what went wrong but they’ll never it.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Double Or Nothing: Lay It On The Line By Triumph

One of the reasons why I’m getting so alienated is due to the stress brought about by the constant worry about taking care of things around here. It gets worse because what I’m working on has not produced any results and there are a lot of things that I need to do around here. Right now, I need to try other venues to help ease the situation. I’m a bit hesitant because I don’t what I’m going to try will the real thing or just a scam. When I listen to Triumph’s song “Lay It On The Line”, I feel like I need to make a decision if I am really determined to make things happen.

The problem with me is that I was never a risk-taker and would rather do things slowly and steadily. Unfortunately, time does not wait for anyone and before you know it, the opportunity is lost. I don’t want to miss out again but I don’t want to be impulsive either. Still, I better think wisely but quick at the same time. If I don’t nothing happens and I might to do things that I don’t want to do since my methods failed.

Be that as it may, I can’t afford to sit still. Life is full risks and sometimes you have to take one if you want to succeed. I just want to know more before I get committed to doing it. I guess it’s double or nothing and if it’s double, then it was worth it. If it’s nothing at least I was willing to try. Well here goes nothing and wish me luck.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Another Song That Gets Me All Fired Up: Fanfare For The Common Man Cover By Emerson, Lake And Palmer

As I previously said before in my blog entries, one of the good qualities of a 24K song is that it inspires you to do your best in whatever you do. It should boost your spirits at the time when you are about to face your biggest challenge. It inspires you to achieve what you set out to do. One song that clearly does that is Emerson, Lake And Palmer's version of "Fanfare For The Common Man".

This song was originally composed in 1942 by Aaron Copeland to honoring the common man. Emerson,Lake And Palmer later revived the song which became one of their biggest hits. It was later used most notably by CBS for as the opening of their sports program CBS Sports Spectacular. It is not surprising because it's inspirational tone really makes people get up and do something great. You don't songs like these anymore.

I wish we had more inspiring tunes like this because it reminds us to aim high and overcome adversity. Sadly, I will again say that most of the songs today do anything but inspire. A lot of them speak of irresponsible people whining and complaining about their situation rather than doing something about it. Well, if that's music today, no thank. I'll stick to my 24K classics cause at least some of them lift me up rather than make me want to whine.

Friday, September 3, 2010

First Really Gritty Police Series: Hills Street Blues Theme By Mike Post

I remember when I was a kid one of my favorite television shoes was Hill Street Blues (I bet you'd expected care bears). It was one of the few television shows that had real action in it. It featured what cops in New York City were up against every time they started their beat. It may start out slow but things get complicated as the episode unfolds. I also liked the theme song of the series by Mike Post.

Going back to the show, what I liked about it is that it gave viewers a glimpse of what cops deal with when they start their shift and although things are a bit slow during the briefing, things start to get rough. Although nobody cussed during an episode, the violence was ahead of its time. It was gritty and almost realistic as well as some of the situations that these guys go through. Some handle the pressure while others get overwhelmed by it and it's something I can relate to.

These days if you want to see something gritty, you watch it on cable. For a television show, characters really push the envelope. It also spawned a lot of cop shows that took what it created a step further and that's no understatement. Still, what was great about this show is that it was able to show all these things under a lot of restrictions at the time. Now that's creativity under pressure.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Need For Change But Feeling Apprehensive: The Boarder By America

As much as I hate to admit it, I think I've been living in a shell which is ironic because I've been trying hard to break out of my own mental and emotional embryo. I think that I've been living in a shell for so long that I'm starting to get use to it. Even my mother as well as my brothers are urging me to try on a new leaf. Maybe I should though I have to admit to a little cold feet, yet it's out there and if you want it, go for it. When I think about a promise land where there maybe better opportunities, I think of America's song "The Border".

I guess I've been feeling lost in the midst of my problems. I feel so alienated at work and I feel like there's nothing or no one here for me. My only apprehension is leaving my mother because I've taken care of her for so long that I fear for her security if I do leave. Before anything else I want to make sure that she is happy and safe. If anything would happen to her it would break my heart.

I know that I suggested change before and I'm not backing out of anything that I have written on this blog. I agree that to have change, you should also be ready to adjust to it for it to work. Still, I want to make sure that everything is going to be all right before I make any undertaking of that sort. It's still a big world out there and I know that I still got time. When all is right, then I'll make a dash for the border and hopefully, I'll find what it is that I'm missing.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Why Is It That Things Or People Fail Us At The Most Crucial Times: Just When I Needed You Most By Randy Vanwarmer

Ever had those days when you are at your most desperate? Times when you really want things to push through cause there was a lot riding on it. It's ironic that during times like that when you need help the most that it doesn't come. It gets worse when things fall apart and you feel abandoned or duped and angry that what you wanted to do didn't push through. That's the feeling I get when I hear Randy Vanwarmer's song "Just When I Needed You Most".
I know this is another breank-up song but it also reminds of times when people fail you when you were counting on them. Sometimes you count thin k you can count on people to be there for you. Just when you really need them, they fail you at that important time. It hurts even more when they gave their word that they'd be there only to fail you. In the end, you feel like fool for trusting too much on these things or people for thinking that they'd be there when you need them.

I guess that's the reason why I don't make promises that I can't keep. I also do my best to help those who have helped me. They were there for me so it is just that I be there for them. I know how it feels to be abandoned after being promised some help and I wouldn't want to do that to anyone else. When we say that we'll be there, we should because people trust us and we shouldn't break that trust.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I'm Trying Hard To Be Strong: How Long Can A Man Be Strong By Jeff Healy

If there's one thing that every man or even every woman wants to aspire to is to be strong. The stronger you are, the more obstacles and trials you will overcome. The problem is that once you overcome one trial, a more complex and troublesome one will appear. As hard as you try to be strong, it gets to a point where you find your back against the wall as your mental and emotional fortitude are put to the test. Even if you do come out on top, it still scars you deeply to the point of breaking down. Wondering what it takes to be strong reminds of Jeff Healy's song "How Long Can Man Be Strong".

Hard times are here and they are really bearing me down. I keep hearing my father's voice about being able to be strong cause times are going be tough and boy he was right. Right now I wish that everything that I'm working on would start to show results because if not, I'll be force to do things that will really take some mental and emotional toll on me. I'm the best that I can so that things can back to the way they were when times were good. I'm tired of helplessly watching things fall apart and I want to do something about it in my own way.

I know I'm not alone in this because my brothers are helping in this situation as well. If I'm having a hard time, they got it even harder because they got families to support. All the more the reason why I'm trying to be strong because I want to help them as well. I don't how long I can be strong but I know I must if I want to succeed. It's not just for me, but for them as well.

Monday, August 30, 2010

I Wish This Was Possible: Down So Long By Sting

Just when I thought things were about to lighten up, bad thing started happening again. Apart from doing my best to cope with the everyday craziness that’s been happening here, I get more bad news. Not only is it bad, it really breaks my heart cause I’m already stressed out emotionally, mentally and physically. It’s so frustrating because I’m starting to feel that no matter how I try to dig myself out of this hole, the more I get pushed back to the bottom. How I wish that I could just take all the crap and throw it away like that's been plaguing my life. The wish for some relief while wallowing down in the blues reminds me of the song "Been Down So Long" by Sting.

This is one of those songs you want to listen when things get too much and you just want to drown your miseries in hooch or any other just to chase the blues. Another thing I about this song is that apart from having a good combination of jazz and blues, it really expresses the frustration that one feels when there's just to much to bear. Every time I hear this song, I'm either half-way through a case of brews; taking comfort down south or having a walk with Johnnie with a big fat stoogie in my mouth. Even if I get a huge headache and have to face the crap again, sometimes you really a break to drown your frustrations. That just goes to show I feel when this song is playing.

How I wish that were possible. To just taking every problems and throw them out the window like the crap that it is. Sadly, it's never that easy and wishing to throw them away is just wishful thinking. I guess that means we have take the situation head on and wrestle with it until it's solve. If it were possible then I'd rush to the sea throw and throw it all out myself.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Right Now I Wish All The Bad Would Disappear: Eagles Fly By Sammy Hagar

You know we're still coping with the loss of our father and things haven't been easy. As much as I don't want to take things for granted, there are times when it just overwhelms me. I've been thinking too much to the point that some people think I'm aloof, hence, resulting in further alienation. Life has been so dreary that sometimes something really good would happen to lift me up from this blue funk. The need to lift myself out of this depressing state can be expressed in Sammy Hagar's song "Eagles Fly".

Apart from the loss that we had to deal with, the fact that things haven't been well with me for the last 10 years has already starting to eat up at every single reserve of fortitude and patience that I have left. When people tell go off and have an adventure, how can I do that when I haven't figured out a way to solve the financial dilenma here, let my mother's sorrow which I share since my dad's passing. The fact that health problems are now taking a physical and emotional toll on her has sunk my spirits to an all new low. Right now, I'm either banging the desk while typing on my laptop trying hard not to give in to all this pressure even as I feel my chest starting tighten around me.

As much as I want to fly away to never land, I cannot abandon my responsibilities here. How I wish things would lighten up here if what I was doing would just bear some fruit. Till then, I have to deal with this cause it's the only thing that I can do and do it as best as I can. Hopefully the day will come when the sun appears and all the misery would vanish from this household. When that happen, then I could really fly like an eagle to a place where I can be at peace.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Getting Wild On Saturdays: Saturday Night's Alright For Fighting By Elton Joh

As monotonous as it sounds, part of going down memory lane for me is always remembering the good old days when Friday struck and everyone jump for joy cause it was gimmick time. After a hard week of work or study, it was time pop up some ice cold brews and loosen up. However, it was just a warm up cause after Friday comes Saturday and that's where anything and everything goes. Once the party starts on a on Saturday Night, you can expect a rocking and wild night goes on till the early crack of dawn. Remembering that high point of gimmick days reminds me of the song "Saturday Night's All Right For Fighting" by Elton John.

Ah, the wild days where many often led to party and partied we did bringing the whole house down. What we did on a Friday was just for starters and besides back then we were younger and had more tolerance for the brew. On Saturday it was different as the night would go full swing and we wouldn't stop until someone passed out, hurled or both. It was just about having fun but determining who would go the distance and come out the last man standing. It would be bragging rights for the guy who did while the rest gets the ridicule.

Well those days are really long gone. We're not as strong with the brew as we use to be. When we do drink, it's all about relaxing than consuming. The humor and the camaraderie is still there though but it's less frequent due to other responsibilities are now the priority. Still, letting loose on Saturday night is a cool because it gives you a chance to throw all those bad vibes out the window. That's the reason why every generation believes that Saturday will always be all right.

Friday, August 27, 2010

The First Reality Show: Bad Boys By Inner Circle

Remember during the early 90's, one of my favorite shows was "Cops". It was not ica scripted television show or a documentary. Rather it shows the real cops doing their jobs which at times could be very dangerous. Sometimes all they do is just roam their beat till their shift is over or respond quickly when an emergency occurs in their area. You don't know what to expect because there are no scripts but one thing's for sure and that anything can happen once they go out and do their duty. The theme song of the show was taken from Inner Circle's song "Bad Boys".

When you watch the show, you what cops go through everyday. Sometimes it's just another day with no hassle which is good because nobody gets hurt. Other days, they have their hands full resolving conflicts which can still be settled amicably. There are days,however, when they must deal with violent situations and as much as they try to avoid it, someone still gets hurt. Through it all, these guys can't afford to keep their guard down because if they do, the consequences could be very severe.

I guess this show is a good reference to those who aspire to have a career in law enforcement. There's no fancy wise-mouth fashion hollywood actors here. Just guys who do their duty at the risk of their own lives. If you want to be in it just for the badge and uniform, better drop it cause you'll be doing more harm than good. This about serving and protecting people with your life and it's no joke. There are a lot a of bad boys out there and it takes a special breed of people to bring them down which is why the cops who appear in this show get my deepest respect.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

A Tragedy That Could Have Been Avoided: Invisible Sun By The Police


The tragic ending to the hostage crisis in Manila sure casts a heavy shadow on the whole country. It's bad enough that we're trying to get out of the political and economic slump that's been hurting the country for so many years. What's worse is that so many innocent lives were lost and they only wanted to come and see what our country has to offer. Just when we'd hope things get would get better, it had just gotten worse instead. When of that hostage crisis and the lives lost in that incident and the effects that it had on all of us, the song "Invisible Sun" by The Police comes to mind.

Man, those people were here just here to have a good time and to have a mad man gun them down because he lost his job really infuriates me. I've had my share of tough times, I would never lash out at other people, let alone hurt them just because I had a bad day. Add to that the many mistakes that only contributed the pressure which caused the lives of innocent people has earned us another bad reputation. We've been holding rallies against other countries for so long, now we're getting getting our embassy's surrounded by demonstrators who stick tirades on our embassy seals. I guess it's our turn to feel the heat.

Right now, a lot of people are giving their insights on what happened and how it could have been avoided. Unfortunately, it'll never bring back the lives of those who were killed on that day. I do so hope that everyone learns from this tragedy so that it won't happen again. If it does, then it me that we didn't learn anything and it'll happen again. For me, that's another bad reminder that it's hopeless to even hope for change. I hate to think that things around here will be like this song about being an invisible sun where there hope is none.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Half-way Through The Week: Waiting On Wednesday By Lisa Loeb And Nine Stories

The next best day to Friday for me is Wednesday. The reason for this is because once it’s Wednesday, you get that feeling that half your work load has already been accomplished. The best part is that you get that feeling knowing that you’re half-way through the week and before you know it, it’s break time once more. It makes the last two days bearable knowing that you’re almost there. The feeling that I get when I’m half-way through the week reminds me of the song “Waiting On Wednesday” by Lisa Loeb And Nine Stories.

For all of us, starting the week takes a lot of effort as we call on all our effort to get the lead out of our system as we take the first step on the week’s journey. Tuesday we put a little more effort into it but there is still a lot to do. But when Wednesday comes, we are already going about it full throttle. Thursday is all about the final drafting to see if everything is all right. On Friday, just submit and effort go home feeling good that you’re done.

Of course, there are times when a snag hits the plan. Still, if you can find a way to adjust the plan to fit the situation, then there’s no problem. What is important is that you get it done before the deadline. Well tomorrow is the start of the daily grind. While I work, I’m going to waiting on Wednesday as a sign that I’m almost done.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Song I Listen To When I'm Sad And Searching For A Place Where I Can Smile Again: Blue Bayou By Roy Orbison

Though I don't show it, lately I've been feeling very melancholic and alienated. I guess this is because I've been trying so hard to find a way to solve things here that I've been missing out on a lot of things. Each day, this feeling is getting stronger and I feel so alone in my dilemma that I want to go back to the old days when we lived in the big house in the old road. Back then, there was was less pressure, we were close and tight and the good times kept going and going. Longing for the old house reminds me of the song "Blue Bayou" by Roy Orbison.

Linda Ronstadt sang a version of this song but I'm a stickler for the original song. Anyway, every time I hear this song it really makes me wish we were back in the old house. I always get that far away look when I hear it. I guess the frustration of what I am feeling makes the feeling to go back grow even more intense. It was so much happy back then and there was not a care in the world.

Sadly, there's no going back. I'm left with what I'm facing and dealing with in the present and it sucks big time! Still, that doesn't mean that I'm going to throw the towel and curl up in a corner. I still believe that things will get better if I just keep trying. When that happens, I'll be at ease even if the big house is no more.