Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Well, it's a brand new week and summer is now in full swing. It should be just like any other week, except for one thing: my dad's no longer with us. We've laid him to rest last Saturday, yet we still feel the pain of losing him. Still, we have to carry on to honor his memory and hope one day, we would be together with him again. Keeping that thought in mind reminds me of the song "One More Day" by Sinead O' Connor.
I still can't believe that he left us and a part of me still thinks it wasn't fair. Just things were going well and the bond was restored, this had to happen. I prayed for my parents that the good lord would keep them safe while I was at work and my biggest joy was seeing them smiling and laughing at the table after the day was done. Right now my mom's still coping with the loss and seeing her suddenly cry really breaks my heart. I have to admit I miss his fits when there's coffee or when something was wrong with the computer. Despite getting stressed from those episodes, I must admit he taught me that nothing gets done unless you make things happen which is something I will not forget.
Right now, my only consolation is that he is free from pain and is in a better place. Right now I bet he and my grandfather are playing 18 holes of golf in that big course in the sky. As for me, I intend to keep what I promised and that is to take care of my mother. Thanks Dad for all things you gave us and taught us. We will live by them forever.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
It always starts with a casual meeting which starts to grow when you get to know her more . Later on, you start to feel that things are getting too deep when she starts invading your thoughts. Try as you might to shake it off, her image stays in your head. That's when you know that she really turned your world upside down. When that happens, the song "That Girl" by Christopher Cross comes to mind.
Before I continue, I don't want people to think that I don't get the impression that I'm some kind of crazy guy, but when it hit you, it has a way of throwing you off your game. It gets worse for those who have a hard time saying what they feel and they are resign themselves to simply gazing at the girl. A lot of times when she's there, you have a hard time getting through the day. That goes to show how much she means to you.
For those who mustered up the courage to speak and win her, congratulations. For those who fail, better like next time. One thing's for sure, she sure had an effect on you. When they get to us, it's like being hit with a tazzer. And it's all because of that girl.
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Christopher Cross That Girl
Monday, March 29, 2010
Yesterday, I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of togas were flying up in the air as many school celebrated the graduation of their seniors. For college kids, it's high time for them to leave the class room and venture out to find their place in the real world. While some already know what they intend to do in life, others are still figuring out what path should they take. Just remember the classroom is different from the real world. Wondering how well students would do after school reminds me of the song "Teacher, Teacher" by 38 Special.
One big difference between classes and the real world is the rules change. At this point in life, you have start doing things on your own and nobody plays fair. If you think life sucks at school, just wait till your thrown into real world where you have to fend for yourself. This is where you have to use all that you have learned in school and apply it to how you want to live your life. Apart from what you learn, you also have to take full stock of all your talents and abilities and use them to the fullest so you will be able make in this jungle we call reality.
Life isn't fair but that doesn't mean it's impossible. You got make good use of all that you got to make your stand in this world. Life is what you make and in the end, whether you succeed or not depends on how well you apply what you learn. As a former teacher, I did what could for my students and everyday I pray that they do well in life. I can't answer all the questions but I did all that I could do. I pray that they do well out there.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Today was the blackest day of my life because I said my last goodbye to my father after me and my family laid him to rest. After suffering an accident which left him with a terrible head injury, the entire family was hoping that he would pull through despite the seriousness of his condition. Alas, he expired on Wednesday at 5:00 in the afternoon. I thought the world fell apart as we tearfully said our goodbyes to our dearly beloved dad. It was so painful for us to see him go but it was for the best. The pain of losing my father and difficulty of accepting this reality reminds me of the song "Time For Letting Go" by Jude Cole.
I remember receiving the frantic call that made me rush back to the house as well as the long hours of waiting while the doctors and my brother did all that they could for him. When my brother told me he was fading fast, my knees buckled, yet despite the despair and shock, I battled through traffic to be by his side where my grief took hold of me as I sobbed and pleaded for him to wake up. Friends, relatives and business associates came and paid their respects to my father during his wake and my brother gave an eloquent eulogy which drove us to tears. As we finally laid him to rest this afternoon, I still could not believe that he's gone. At the back of my head, I felt that it was unfair because I have never seen him so happy and everything was looking good not only for him but for the entire family as well.
The best way for me to honor his memory is to carry on what he left behind. I promised him that I would look after our mother and I intend to fulfill that vow. I will remember him as a man of principle who always finished what he started and spoke his mind no matter who got offended. He taught me the value of discipline and fulfilling one's obligation. I know he's up there with my grand father playing golf and having grand time which he earned after all his hard work.
Goodbye Dad and may God keep you.
Friday, March 26, 2010
As many of you have noticed, many of my entries make use of songs from the band Boston. The first time I heard the song "More Than A Feeling", I was totally blown away by it and have liked it and several other songs since. After going on a long hiatus, I heard that the band was coming out with a new album. This got me totally excited that I just couldn't wait and neither can my brothers. The carrier single of the new album was called "Amanda".
During my younger days, really good heart-pounding rock songs were becoming a rare commodity which is one of the reasons for my excitement. I guess I was hoping for more of the same heavy rock band that always knocked my head off my shoulders. As I listened to the carrier single, it didn't sound right. There were no heavy guitars and drums and high-pitched lead vocals that blasted me away. Instead, it was more of a love ballad that left me scratching my head in disbelief because this wasn't the same band that I rocked to when I first heard them.
Although, there were a few good songs, it doesn't measure up to their earlier hits. Though I admit that I expecting the same, I was hoping for something much like their usual play. I guess times mellows even the most hardest rockers. With lead singer Brad Delp's passing, I guess it will be long time before we someone who can belt it out like he use to do. In the end, it's just not what I expected.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
When You Get More Than What You Bargained For: Girls Aint Nothing But Trouble By DJ Jazzy Jeff And The Fresh Prince
You know its funny when you see a beautiful girl, the first that comes to your mind is that you got to have her. By some miracle, you do win her, you find yourself crying out its a miracle. Of course when you realize that there some things about her that you don't like, it's only then that you realize you made a big mistake. That's the lesson I learned from the song " Girls Aint Nothing But Trouble" by DJ Jazzy Jeff And The Fresh Prince.
Sure appearances make a first impression, but its what's inside that really matters(I still hope that's true). You have to find something that you have in common with that person to really hit it off. Otherwise, you're just wasting your time with that person. What's worse is that you might wind with a very bad break-up and nobody wants that. I'm sure nobody wants that.
I guess it all depends on just how much that person means to you. What lengths are you willing to go to and how are you willing to sacrifice will determine if she is the one. If not, she's just eye candy and that's just about it. You think long and hard before you go through with it. You might get more than what you bargained for.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
A lot of times, people often mistake confidence for being arrogant. When it comes to young girls, the term that best describes them is "sassy". Whenever they're in the mode, it really drives us guys crazy. Still you can't accuse them for being timid. When I think of girls who are sassy and are on the edge, the song "She Bops" by Cindy Lauper pops into my head.
These days, there are a lot of movies and tv shows dedicated to these kinds of women. Confident, outrageous and hard to figure out is what best describes them. They tend to flirt with disaster which sends our blood pressure rising and they got more energy than the energizer bunny. But by hook or by crook, they get the job done in their own way. You can't fault them for that.
Yet it's that sassy image that makes them appealing. The fact that they don't cow-tow to anybody is admirable indeed. In the end, we accept even with their sassy outlook. They wouldn't be who they are and couldn't go t far without it. That's who they are and we love them for it.
Cindy Lauper - She Bop
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Whenever 24K tunes start to fill the airwaves, I can't help but sit down and listen. Apart from the great music, my mind becomes a flat screen and the memories start to unfold before my eyes. Once it starts, I begin to see the good times and the bad times start to play out on the screen and as much as I want to only remember the good times, I have to accept the bad times that have happened as well. You can't have one without the other because they are a part of you whether you like it or not. Keeping that in mind, it reminds me of the song "Good Times" by Eddie Brickell.
This is one of those good chill-out songs one would listen to at the end of the day. When both good and bad memories flood your mind, you really need to take some time to take things in perspective. You need to take a deep breath and accept that it happened and there's no going back to change it. Still, if one listens to good song like this while remembering the best and the worst of times makes it a lot more easier. You can say it's a good substitute for a brew or a herb.
Whether it was good or bad, it will always be apart of you. Knowing that you just have to accept it and move on. When you do accept it, it makes things a lot more easier like eating a pizza with meat and pepperoni as well as the anchovies. I guess that's what you call bittersweet when the good and the bad go hand in hand when it comes to memories. Just accept and chill out with the tune.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Right about now, kids are now hitting the books for their last quarter finals. After that, it's time to break out the sun bloc and party all day and all night long. When I look at the youth having fun, I really get sentimental because their at that point in life where they can do anything that they want. It is only right that they live their youth to the fullest by doing all that they can do and be all that they can be. They're only young once so they better live it up while they can. Getting the most out of your life especially during your youth reminds me of the song "I Don't Want To Wait" by Paula Cole.
It's only natural for you to want to see and experience everything when you're young. At that point in your life, the world is so big and you want to break out of your shell and know what's going on out there. You make the most of what you got and plunge on in with no hesititation. Whether it's going out to a favorite hangout or learning a craft or a skill, meeting new people, it's not just about enjoying because what kids experience in their time will determine who they will fare in the real world when the time comes. If they are fulfilled in their youth, they can do anything when the time comes.
There will come a time when the world will shrink and responsibility comes crawling. That's when the time comes for the youth to become an adult. Time to stand on your own two feet and know what comes first. I guess that's why that passage from Ecclesiastes that Oliver Stone used for the opening of the movie "Platoon" really stuck to my head. Do all that you can while you're young because it gets difficult when you're older and I'm definitely feeling it now.
Paula Cole - I Don't Want To Wait
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Sunday, March 21, 2010
Whenever I feel lethargic, a really hard banging song is the best remedy. Something that will light a fire in you soul and get your adrenaline pumping. This comes in handy when your energy levels are low and there's much to be done for the day.Something that makes you feel that you can do anything on short notice would really do the trick. One song that makes me do that is "Fire Woman" by The Cult.
I really don't know if there is such a thing as a fire woman but if there is, she could burn me anytime. Especially if she can burn away of all badness that keeps us from doing what needs to be done. A flame of inspiration is what she should be. As you feel her heat, you get fired up as well. That kind of flame we can all use.
Whenever I feel tired, I play songs like these to get me through the day. They also help take away whatever deep blue funk that I'm feeling. I guess you can say that it's cleansing of fire of sorts. Anything to get the adrenaline pumping is good for me and this song is one of them. This is one way to blaze a trail.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Apart from being Women's Month, March also means that summer is fast approaching. With that in mind, both men and women are now planning on how they intend to enjoy it. Some plan to go to the beach while others prefer cooler places to beat the heat. One thing's for sure, everybody's getting restless and want to break from the monotonous cycle in the office. Thinking of that move reminds me of the song "Walking In Your Street" by The Bangles.
Right now, I think my clock's a little slow because I still have a hangover from last year's holiday. The fact that everyone's talking about summer really caught me by surprise. All I hear from people are the places, they want to go, clothes that they want to wear and people they want to meet or be with. I guess the heat makes everybody restless and I don't blame them. After all the pressure that we've been going through, a break could sure do us fine.
Right now, there's a lot of thing going on and we're all in energizer bunny mode. Even as we finish one task, another falls right into our laps so it's busy, busy, busy! Well work first before vacation is the norm. That way when its over, we can all really break out. Summer's fast approaching so we better finish up so we can enjoy it.
Friday, March 19, 2010
For those of you who have been reading my blog now know that majority of my entries are all about the past and how I use the songs of 24K to reflect that. Although once in a while, I would write about how I feel about something or what's in season, majority of it concerns memories from the past. I can't help being sentimental, especially now that I feel that I'm at the crossroads. One song that really brings all the memories out of me is "Caroline" by Concrete Blonde.
Every time I drive at night and hear this song play, memories of the past seem to flood my brain. Good thing the speed and the wind help clear the cob webs that those memories start to spin. Although you keep your hands on the wheel and eyes on the road, when the memories start to awaken, you start seeing them unfold in front of you like some movie that you can't keep your eyes off. Only the roar of the engine and the wind in your face keeps you on course and alert as you speed on by.
If there was a song that would make me hop on to a car and drive away, this would be it. The only thing I hate about all those memories is the fact that it awakens some of the pain that I felt from the past and when that happens, it's time to shut it off. Because of this I find it ironic that when you drive to forget, the stronger they comeback to you. It just goes to show that you can't run away from the past. That's because it's always inside you.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Whenever, the priest or the pastor say "For Better or For Worse", it usually means staying together through the good times and the bad. When people start going out togetherm things are bright and they are always at their best. When the honeymoon is over you can bet that your union is going to go through a lot of trials and demands from everyday life which will start to take their toll on you physically, mentally and emotionally. Yet even when things go crazy, never forget what you feel towards each other and how that will carry you through the tough times. That's the lesson I learned from Lisa Stanfield's song "All Woman".
Whether they also work or stay at home, women really give it their all and a lot of times, it wears them out to a point that they look ragged and fatigued. For guys who are tired at work, they sometimes take for granted that these women look like that because they do their best to do their part. Cooking and cleaning all day is not an easy thing to do but they do it for their men and all they want is a little appreciation for it.
Any woman who is willing go work that hard at the expense of her appearance shouldn't be taken for granted. The fact that they are willing to go through all that shows that they not only got substance but class as well. Keep in mind that if it's hard for you, it's also hard for them yet they still do and they do it for you. A lot of us forget about that and take it for granted. When we realize our mistake, it's too late.
Lisa Stansfield - All Woman
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010
The very first entry that I made from this blog was about a girl I met in college and boy did she turn my life upside down. It's no lie that as I wrote that entry, she still haunts my me to this day. When someone grabs hold of you like that and disappears so suddenly, it's really hard to accept. The slightest though of her, really floods me with bewildered emotions. Richard Marx's song "Angelia" really describes she still affects me.
Whenever I remember graduating from college, I can't help but think about her because that's the last glimpse that I had of her. You can say that she is one of the factors that left a hole in my heart. Every time I think of her, I always need to sit down take it in perspective. That feeling of flying when I first met her followed by that feeling of falling which is why I try not to think about her. That's just goes to show just how big an influence she was in my life.
Despite being left wanting, I couldn't bring myself to be angry with her. I guess that goes to show how much she meant to me. A tleast, I still have some good times that I spent with her and that is enough. Like I said before, I still think highly of her even if things didn't work out. It's just she evokes a very melancholic memory whenever she enters my thoughts.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Ever since I was accused of thinking only of myself. Ever since then, I always considered how my actions would affect other people. On the other hand, there are still people out there who just do things without thinking how it would affect others. Sometimes you have to think about the results of your actions before you do them. Aretha Franklin's song "Think" reminds me of that lesson.
A lot of times people just take off without even telling others what they are doing. It's all good if everything set and everyone knows. On the hand, a lot of people are often left wondering and holding the bag, especially when times are hard. It's worse when people just do things which sucks other people in and these poor souls suffer at the jerk's selfish actions. To say that it adds insult to injury is an understatement.
There's nothing wrong with doing what you want. We all are entitled to do want we want in life. Just remember not to leave people hanging in the process. It's not fair to them and you know it. That's why think before you do something cause it might hurt someone in the process.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Whether you watch movies or read books, one of the favorites themes of romance addicts is the rich girl-poor girl scenario. Girl from the upclass neighborhood falls for the kid in the street. Against all odds, they make it through and live happily ever after in the end. In reality, is it still possible? That's what I wonder when I hear Billy Joel's song "Uptown Girl".
Whether you listen to the song or watch the music video, the message is what every down-on-his-luck guys would want to come true: to land the girl. Winning a girl like that is just the start because how she's going to adjust to your level remains to be seen. I've seen many that kind of arrangements goe down in flames in the real world. Reason being that both don't want to make changes that can make the relationship work. If you're going to win someone like that, you better be prepared to go all-out because whether you are rich or poor, it depends on what your capabilities to make it work.
These days, women go for men with the big bucks. It doesn't matter if the guy is 100 years old or that he's ugly as hell because these days money talks. I got this after reading an article about women are more inclined to be with those who have the cash. Still, it'd be nice if something like that was still possible. Cause it would still prove that people would accept you for who you are and not for the cash in your wallet.
Uptown Girl (Billy Joel)
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Sunday, March 14, 2010
I have to admit I missed 80's style rock. The Big hair, the demonic jewelry, spandex and of course the leather jackets. A lot of rockers looked like they were characters from a Mad Max film. Still the music was something you can always warm up to. It was nice to know that apart from men, women also took up the beat at the time. One such band was Vixen and the song that I remembered them for was "Edge Of A Broken Heart".
This was one of those bands that always got featured in Video Hit Parade. I always thought that these girls were hot. Not only that, they played their own instruments and they played Rock And Roll. I can relate with this song. I've been there so many times, it can get so hard whenever your heart breaks.
It's sad that along with other bands of the time, they too just disappeared. I was hoping that they lasted a little bit longer. I remember one special that MTV did on the 80's band and of the members became a professional golfer. If anyone has any news about them, please let me know. For me, these girls rocked then and they always will.
VIXEN - "Edge of a Broken Heart" - 1988
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Saturday, March 13, 2010
You know you've found the right girl when she's always there for you. No matter how hard things are or busy she is, it's good to know that she'll be there with you. She's the type who can do anything still find time for you. Any guy who has a woman like that should feel blessed indeed. When I think of a woman with that reminds me of the song "My Sweet Louise" by Iron Horse".
This song reminds me of those "gym" days when Chris "The Bliss" would drop by and we partied all night. Anyway, when I hear this song, it reminds me of some of the qualities that I like to have in a girl. No matter how much she runs around, what's important is that she's there for me. Sure she can be unpredictable but what's important is that she's with me at the end of the day. That's what matters to me.
Of course it shouldn't be a one-way deal. If she is there for me, then I should be there for her. It's the least that I can do for the support that she gives no mater how hard a time she has. It's only fitting that we do what we can for them. And their name doesn't have be Louise.
Friday, March 12, 2010
almost forgot that March is Women's Month. Keeping that in mind, don't be surprised if a lot of my entries would be about women or songs about women. As much as we should respect and take care of women, there are times when they drive us up the wall. This is especially true, when they get into that mood where we guys duck for cover. The song "Mean Woman Blues" by Roy Orbison comes to mind during these predicaments.
Whether it's your mother, sister, daughter, girlfriend or wife, when they get into that mood, your life becomes a real pain. Sometimes they're ice-cold or fly into a real temper tantrum. It can happen out of nowhere and when it does, there's no place to run. The worst part is when you do all that you can to appease and they mock you even more for your efforts. No that's really mean.
Why do we put up with all this torment we ask? Simply because beyond all that bad mood, we still love them. It's just a matter of weathering the storm I guess. If there's one thing I've learned is that you have to accept them whether they're at their best or even at their worse. No matter how mean they get, we just can't live without them.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
No matter how hard the day becomes, I still find time to reflect a bit before I turn in for the night. Lately, however, the reflection part is really getting too deep for me. I guess the reason for this is the fact that I'm getting older and still trying to get it together. As much as I want to avoid the issues that are brought upon by these thoughts, I am trying to find ways to deal with them. Hoping and trying so that things will get better reminds me of the song "Time Of Your Life" by Green Day.
Whenever I get a chance to catch my breath, thoughts of how things are pops out of the blue. As I have said time and time again, my life has been through some ups and downs (more downs than ups). Though I am thankful, things have stabilized a bit, sadly it's not enough. The fact that I feel weight of age and time bearing down on me, brings me no comfort. Right now, I am just trying to make the most of what's left for me while it's still there and hopefully something good will come about.
Lately, I'm exploring all the options that I still have to see what will work. I'm trying not to be choosy because right now, there are very little choices left. Still, while there are chances, I'm willing to do what it takes. These days, I think I better do a little more cause I feel like its there and all I need is a little push. One thing's for sure and that once these things start to yield the results that I want, then I can that I'm having the time of my life.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I know I keep repeating myself but whether it's hearing a rare good song or remembering the good old days, a 24K song always lifts me up no matter who tired I am. I'd rather listen to a couple of good classic tunes than popped some pill into my mouth. You can say that it gives me a natural high and I get my inspiration from the airwaves. One feel good that I like is the "Ooh-Ooh Song" by Pat Benatar.
What better place to set the video of this song than in an amusement park where everyone's having a good time. It gets better when the band starts to play and Pat starts to sing. It doesn't matter that for the most part of the song, she just sings "ooh-ooh". The fact is the people are drawn to the song and they feel good about it. What more can you ask?
Like Elias said in Platoon that "Feeling Good Is Good Enough" can be said for this song as well. You can tell from the faces of the bystanders in the video. Heck even if you just listen to this song on the radio, it's enough to make you feel good. I wish there were more songs like this today because we could sure use them. You can "ooh-ooh" all the way home.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
You know I still find incredible that some people have that ability to get others under their control. The really good one's need only to say the right words and everything starts to get going. Before we know it, we're already under their spell and everything that they say is sacred and to contradict it is sacrilege. When it gets to the point that we endanger ourselves and others in the process, that's when we have to stop and ask ourselves where these people are leading us to? That's what my thoughts are when I hear the song "Magic" by The Cars.
The problem with people where I come from is that they are really living in hard times. As a result, they are desperate to find that so-called "King Arthur" who would establish Camelot and wish all the bad things away. The sweet promises and the identification that this guy was one of us and managed to crawl out of the abyss, makes a lot of people ready to support and follow that guy because of all the yarn that he weaves which is music their desperate ears. A lot of times, however, when that guy gets what he wants, those promises disappear like a mirage in the desert. So once again, people are left with nothing and are in a worse state than they were in before that guy came along.
Be very careful about people like this. Sometimes even if you do a background check, there's always something that they hide from everyone else. Also, don't let your desperation blind you to other choices. It's easy to come with grand promises. Keeping those promises is something different so don't get easily swayed.
Monday, March 8, 2010
When you look at kids today, you often shake your head as the simplest way to keep your blood pressure down. You wonder why these kids are clueless about what's happening around them. Then again, when you look back at the days of your youth, things were not much different. There may be a lot more distractions but everyone was so care-free. Songs like Don Henley's "Johnny Can't Read" reminds me of those times.
Back then, most of us were pretty restless. We didn't listen to our teachers and even if red marks abound our report cards, it didn't matter. All that mattered was what was going down on the weekend, the new style or gadget or if there was anything going with our classmates. Pretty much trivial stuff and with the summer drawing near, we were even more clueless than ever. Still, what do you expect from kids at that stage in life.
These days, it's a different story. We are so caught with life's daily struggles that we forget that we were once that way. One thing that worries me though, is that if there was too many distractions then and more so now, what kind of distractions can we expect in the future? Well we outgrew it and they will too. That's part of life I guess.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Although I am not perfect, getting into trouble or making a mistakes are some of the things that I really hate the most. It gets even worse when some else does it and you're left holding the bag. And when the crap hits the fan, you're at a lost for words when the book gets thrown at you. As much as it hurts, I don't believe in running away rather, I would face up to what happened whether I like it or not. That's the idea I get from the song "No Excuses" by Alice In Chains.
Some people say either I'm naive or a fool for being so but it's one of the things that I believe in. For some people, once they think they can get away with it, they'll keep on doing it because it can be addictive. When they're finally caught, they try to weasel their way out of it by citing several reasons why things turned out that way. I can't do that because if I did, it would give me no rest and quite frankly it is wrong. Some even drag me into such situations which is why I no longer associate myself with them.
If you don't have the stones for trouble, then stay out of it. If you do get into trouble, be ready to pay the time. When I see people trying to make excuses for their misdeeds, it makes me mad. You do something bad but afraid to face up to it is really pathetic.
Just take your medicine and learn from it. A t least your conscience is clear once the tirade is over. It may serve you well in the future.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
fter celebrating my birthday last year, I've realized just how old I am and that my time has now passed. The fact that I've haven't found my place in this world really weighs heavy on my thoughts these days. Still, I don't want to waste whatever time I have left which is why I'm doing what I can to make something good come about. Just because I started out late, doesn't it's too late. One song that keeps me going is "Lonely People" by America.
I know I put myself out on a limb when I mention those times about lost opportunities that would have made my life better. As much as it hurts, it's now water under the bridge and you can't take it back. I don't want to believe that because of that, it's over. I'm still here and I still believe that despite the odds, I can still make something with the little resources that I have left. That's why I'm still struggling because I believe that something good is still out there.
I know that finding it is not going to be easy. Yet I've seen others who have fallen into the abyss and made a great comeback. I've been trying to find new avenues and trying to learn new skills which I hope will help me attain my goals. It's not going to be easy and though there are times when I want to give up, I try to find the strength to keep on going. Like the song, you'll never what happens until you try.
Friday, March 5, 2010
As I have mentioned before, I have seen a lot of opportunities go down the drain. As much as I am willing to let it go, there comes a point where you have to ask yourself if you want this to continue? In my case, I surely don't want to add another notch to the list of broken dreams that I have compiled over the years. Having a dream is one thing but being able to make become a reality is something else. Wanting to live and not just dream about reminds me of the song "Dreamer" by Supertramp.
These days, I got a lot of anxiety mainly because I've been working on something that I hope would be the step in improving my life. Unfortunately, I ran to a snag and I've been researching on ways to fix this remedy. What pressures me even more is that there so many things that need to be attended to that I find myself exhausted. Apart from that, I feel that I'm either going around in circles or bouncing off the wall, accomplishing nothing. Still, after seeing so many things go down the drain, I don't want to give up on this one.
I guess I'm being confronted with the choice of either living in my head or making my dream a reality. I choose the latter. Though I did receive some advice and done research, I still have a long way to go. It's going to be tough but I won't give up. If things get really drastic, then I have to make an important decision to get this dream off the ground and into reality.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
I wasn't really much of a fan when it came to jazz music. When the disco trend started to die down, however, I found myself listening to more jazz music with my brothers. Jazz music started to really take a new meaning for me, back in 1981 when Spyro Gyra came into town. It was special because that night, we took our bonding as brothers to a whole new level which made it stronger. One song that I remember from that night was "Morning Dance".
When we were kids, we played a lot together and did things together. As we moved into our early teens, we didn't spend that much time together because each of us were trying to find our own interest. One night two of my brothers started to go on that concert. A third had money for a ticket so he joined in and I decided to stay. Out of the blue, all them decided to take me with them and was we rode to the concert we were all laughing and cheering in the fact we were doing something new TOGETHER. As a happy ending to the story, we all had a good time and a good night strengthening our bond to the next level.
Whenever I think of that night, I realize just how important that bond really is to me. Even today, I think of that night as one of the best moments of my life. It's really cool when siblings do things together because that's what blood is all about and when comes to blood, I won't hesitate to say that ours was the thickest. The bond has been through a lot of trials over the past couple of years, but thank God, it was restored. All I wish for in life is that bond remains solid for that is the best legacy we can give to our next generation.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Well as the month of hearts makes its final, the summer heat is starting to make its presence known. One thing that the Valentines and Summer season have in common is that it's the best time to spend with that special someone. Just pick a right place and the right person to spend it with. Also, make sure you have the right choice of music (preferably a 24K song). One such song that I would pick would be " My Cheri Amour" by Stevie Wonder.
As I've said before, I'm not a sun person and it's been a while since I've done anything concerning matters of the heart. Still, I consider this a very good song for these occasions. Relaxing in the hot summer sun with a drink in your hand while listening to this song is pretty cool. It gets better when you're with that special someone. That's a combination that can't be beat.
Well I wouldn't if everybody's starting to make plans right now for the summer. Unfortunately for us, it's going to be very busy time and a crucial time at that. That's why we are working our butts right now to ensure that things still go smoothly. Still once, it's over, I wouldn't be surprised that my officemates would break out like horses from stable. The summer's now upon us so let's get it on.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
With thing's heating up early this year, everybody's thoughts are focused on what they plan to do this summer. A lot of people are probably thinking beach or mountains. For some, however, they probably plan to do some soul-searching. With all the hectic schedules and the monotonous routines, one will begin to feel that something's missing and this is the best time to find it. A good song that I think fits this mood is "Walking In Memphis" by Marc Cohn.
This song was written as a tribute to the "King" Elvis Presley as well as describes the Memphis, Tennessee and the sights it has to offer. At the same time, I think the singer was searching for something as he traveled across the state. As he goes from place to place, I wouldn't be surprised if somewhere along the way, he discovers something about himself through the Memphis' sights and sound. At the end of the song, you can tell that he got something valuable from the journey. If I was to go on a journey, that's what I want to get out of it as well.
Lately, I've been thinking that when things settle down and what I've been working on starts to yield results, I would like to go on a trip as well. I guess I've been feeling the rut from the monotony of my life. Ironically, in trying to catch up with myself, I've lost a lot of things that would have filled the holes in my life. I just hope that when I'm granted this opportunity, I get the same satisfaction that Marc Cohn's character did in this song. May that day come soon.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Whenever I mention the fact that I'm still trying to get things together, I also mentioned that I've been working on something in the hopes of getting additional income. It's a fact that money these easily goes up in smoke and with the high cost of living, everybody's trying figure out ways to make ends meet. For a while, I've been trying to my best to make this project work on my own because the more you do things by yourself, the more you learn. Unfortunately, due to demands at work and at home as well are taking its toll on me as I began to assess the situation that I'm in, I think I need a hand. Right now the song "Help" by the Beatles is playing on my head because of that.
You can say its a matter of pride that I tried to go to it alone. I didn't want to be too dependent on other people because as I've earlier mentioned, I want to figure it out on my own. For obvious reasons, if you want to survive, you have to stand on your own. Unfortunately, I am running out of ideas and when I think of the time that was spent, I need to go back to the drawing board. I need to ask some more advice and research just a bit more. Add to the fact that something happened along the way and some bad approaches have led me to the conclusion that I need a hand.
Right now, I don't want to loose this thing that I'm working on. As I've mentioned before, I've seen good opportunities go down the drain time and time again. I'm tired of seeing that happen and I want to do something about it. Whether I figure this out on my own or get extra help, what's important is that I be able to do this. The sooner I get this off the ground, the lighter the weight off my shoulders will be lifted and I hope I get it right this time.