Saturday, January 31, 2009
When you're young, you start out with a lot of hopes and dreams as to what you want your life to be in the future. While succeed, others are not so lucky, ending up with a lot of disappointments and what if's in their hearts and minds. For these unlucky ones, they try to make do with what's left and make the most of it, even if time and opportunity has passed them by. Sometimes you wonder if there's anything of you when your dreams and ambitions go down the drain. That's what I feel whenever I hear the song " All I Am" by Dada.
It's really hard because with every dream or a little opportunity lost, I piece of you goes with it. It's even worse when people depend on you, forcing you to be that which you are not. With so many depending on you and nothing to fight with, it really takes it's toll on you. You wind starting at the ceiling at the end of the day wondering where it went wrong and what you could've done. You wonder if there's still a chance out there as times keeps slipping out of hands.
When faced with these kinds of emotional, mental and physical stress, I always remember that I'm still alive and that with life there's hope. I guess we have to find meaning in our lives no matter how has been lost in time. We also have to build with what's left rather mourn for what's lost. Like I said before, if you're still alive, there's still alot of things to do. If you continue to loose thing than all that you are will really be gone.
All I Am
When I take a look back at all the foolish mistakes that I've made, the one good thing it taught me was to straighten out my own life before I make comments about other people. I guess that's the reason why like what Jesus Christ said to the crowd who wanted to stone an adulterous woman that only those who are without sin should make the first throw. Once in a while, people should take a long hard look at themselves because before they mouth off other people about how they should think and I act, they better be sure that they're conscience is clear and even if it is, it's still doesn't give them the right to be some almight S.O.B. Whenever I see people who tend to criticize others but whose lives are in worse state, it makes me sick. That's the idea that I get when I hear the song "Berore You Accuse Me" by Eric Clapton.
I really hate when some people think that they are better than others and continue to critize other people yet they do more stupid things than the people that they are criticizing. Quiet frankly, they're high and mighty lectures do more harm than good and it's not to give good advice, but rather serve their self-rigtheous egos whose size just keeps getting bigger. Alot of them are all talk and no action and when actions is really needed, they hide behind someone's back or worse under someone's skirt. That's the reason why when they're exposed, I just shake my head and laugh. They should have just washed their own dirty laundry.
Whenever I see people like that, I call them a bunch of self-righteous louts who always have something to say. As much as possible, I avoid them because I don't want to get a headache and these guys can sure give one. They think they're titles and achievements give them the right to act the way they do. Well I say F___K You!!! Why don't you fix your own yard and better yet stay there. One day might fix your yard for you and you won't like it.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
There are good days and there are bad days and when it’s the bad days, things really hit you HARD!!! Once things start to unravel, there’s nothing you can do about except wait out the storm and listen to some good 24K songs. One of the reasons why I chose to take martial arts is to blow off some steam because unlike weights, you really get a chance to hit someone during a sparring match to take your anger out. One song that reconciles these two aspects is the song “Beat Of The Heart” by Scandal.
Whenever it’s time for a sparring session, I always play this song in my head as my master give a shout to start the match. I sort imagine myself , my opponent and everyone else in slow motion, as kicks and punches fly and even the shouts come out slowly. Whenever things don’t turn out the way they should, I remember the times when I would listen to this while smoking a cigar and with beer or some whisky to chase the bad mood out of my system. Whether I’m just drinking or sparring, this song helps me chill when bad times start to get to me.
It sure is tough that these days I can’t do any of the two things that help me relax and blow of some steam. Responsibilities at home as well as budget constraints have that on hold, forcing me to find some other ways to cope with stress. I’m glad I still get to exercise but sometimes it’s not enough because there’s a difference between building strength and use pit that strength against someone else. The best I can do at the moment is just stew in peace. I just hope one day I can get back on the saddle because nothing beats a good sparring session where you get to channel out your negative energy in a positive way.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
A couple of days ago, I blogged about remembering what a fine day was all about which I longed for. These days, a fine day is now a rare commodity is an understatement. Waking up to going to bed, you can be sure that something’s bound to happen that will ruin your day. Even when things are going smoothly to the end, something will just hit you from out of the blue, leaving you flat on the floor asking yourself “What was that for?!” The only time you know it’s over is when you close your eyes at night only wake another tense filled day. When Rt plays the song “Synchronicity II” by The Police, I always feel that I have to be on my guard for what the day brings.
It never fails that something’s going to happen that will just ruin your day. Reasons range from money, tantrums, health, sudden appointments or all of the above and no matter what the reasons are your orderly routine gets thrown into the shredder. What pisses me off is when people finally get things resolved is that they fail to realize what they have put you through just to give in to their sudden demands. It’s like the final scene in the movie “Seven Samurais” where villagers celebrate their harvest, leaving the surviving swordsmen who continue to mourn their fallen comrades making me wondering if these people realize what these guys went through for them.
Nowadays, it’s just one crazy day after another and a good day is where nothing happens where everybody eats early and you get to clean up faster. I’ll be lucky if I don’t hear any complaints when I get home or while I’m at work. With January on it’s last week, I’m starting to wonder if there’ll be any changes that will happen this year. Despite all this tension, I’m still grateful for a lot of things which I never take for granted. May God grant me strength and meet me half way to find a solution to this never-ending routine which is really starting to get on my nerves.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Alot of times, I've had a lot of stalls in my life which I deeply regret. If I was given the chance to go back, yes I would have done things differently, given what I know now. Right now, I feel I'm back at square one after trying so hard to improve things around me. Oh well, atleast I'm still in the race and that's a good thing. Right now, I feel like I'm running and I want to keep on running in the hopes that I reach my goal. That's what I feel everytime I listen to the song "It Keeps You Running" by The Doobie Brothers.
Despite all the headaches, I get in my current situation, I don't want to give up anymore. During those times when things fell apart and I was left stranded, my only thought was to get back in the game. Despite a lot of mistakes such as being stubborn and making alot of bad choices, I was able to get back on my feet and start running again. Sure it sucks to go back to square one, but it's better than nothing. I just hope I get thing right this time around and that is what drives me.
Apart from getting me going, this is also a good jogging song( for obvious reasons). I've recently added running to my exercises though I still have to build my stamina ( one round around the block and I'm already panting). Still, I hope I hope buid on that and go further. Just like everything else, I hope I go further than where I currently am. Improving my health and improving my life for myself and those around me is what keeps me running.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
If my brother's see this entry, they'll probably ask me if I'm going crazy because I really don't listen to this kind of music, but nevertheless, it's part of my generation and it's on 24K. Ever get the feeling that there's too much bad and too little good that's been happening lately. You try to let it go when things go bad and just wait for the next chance to come by only to have lightning strike twice. Pretty soon, it's one bad thing after another and it's starting to take it's toll on your sanity. Once things go too far, you really have to stop and take a look around if someone's doing this on purpose. Whenever it gets to that point, I remember the song "Do You Really Want To Hurt MeA" by Culture Club.
Too be honest, I don't really listen to this band but I really can't think of another song that clearly describes what I feel when things get too much. I try to be level-headed and objected when bad things happen but when they pop up one after another, you're really starting to wonder what's going on. The hard part about it is that you try as hard as you can and follow the rules and you still wind up getting screwed. I try not to be like other people who explode over the smallest development but even my patience have their limit to crappy incidents. I try to work through the pressure and in the middle of it all, I fight the urge to point fingers and play the blame game which solves nothing.
I really hope things look up this year because last year really sucks big time. It' really break my heart if this year becomes repeat of the previous year because it makes you think that you're condemed to this situation. I just hope that everything that I'm working on bears fruit because time's gold and I'm not getting any younger. Of course I need to move and I just hope that this time around, I make the right moves. Life isn't fair, but doesn't mean it should be more unfair than it already is.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
As each year comes and goes, changes also occur with every passing. It can be the fads, physical appearances and the political mood of a society that undergo these changes. Yet despite all that, there are some things that are constant no matter what changes take place. The worst part is the things that give you a headache are the ones that never change. That's what I think when I hear the song "Backwater" by the band The Meat Puppets.
Every year, you hope, try and pray that the new year is going to be better than the last year. You plan your strategy, see all those who know and do all the neccessary moves in the hopes that something good would bear fruit. Despite all that, things fall apart and you're left back where you started, wondering what went wrong. It's also the same with people who are a pain-in-the butt year in and year out. Situations like that really take the fun out of waking up because you know what's in store for you for the rest of the day.
With everything so predictable, you'd wonder if anything good will come out after putting so much effort into it. When it happens all the time, you start to think you're the character in a sick comedy show and the audience want you to remain that way because it's funny but to you it' not. Man, I do so hope that I turn things around because this kind of monotony I can't stand. Be that as it may, I hope that things will turn around this time and I double my efforts if I want that to come true. Atleast, I still have hope and that will never change.
Friday, January 23, 2009
I never thought I'd say this but for once, I'm glad to go back to work. After a bad year and an even worse holiday, going to the daily grind doesn't feel so bad. This is true when everything that you'd hope would happen did not. Sure it's back to waking up early, long walks and smoke emissions, but atleast you get your mind focused on other things. One sad thing though, you wonder if things are ever going to go back to the way they were before. Those are my thoughts when I hear The Pretenders'song "Back On The Chain Gang".
Some of the good things I like about going to work is that you leave what happened at home behind and focus on the task at hand. Despite the headaches caused by the occassional deadline, you feel your doing something productive which give you a good emotional boost. You also feel things normalizing as you ease yourself back to your usual routine which was disrupted by all the holiday ho-hos. The only thing that I can't shut out of my mind are all the things that happened and did not happened which is the source of all my disappointments. Given the results, I couldn't wait to get back to work where I belong.
Sometimes a thought would suddenly shoot of the blue when I,m in full gear on the job. A lot of times, it would be about how things used to be which sometimes stops me in my tracks. As the thought plays itself out, I hope one day we'll be able to get it all back, especially the "bond" that has been badly damaged lately. When it's over, I breathe a deep sigh and go back to work. Holiday's over and everything back to normal so that means I'm back on the chain gang.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
No matter how many times you experience it, witnessing an argurment is never a pleasant experience. Every time it happens, it really leaves you physically and emotionally shaken. Though things will eventually simmer down, there's no telling when that will happen. In times like that, a little reaching out, helps soothes the pain. That's what I think when I hear the song "Human Touch" by Rick Springfield.
It's just January and all ready tempers are flaring and if it's not one person, it's another. One is obvious: there's a lot of hurting going on and you feel it in the air. Whenever that happens, it's best to try to calm things down for both sides. Try not to be bias, but rather help mend broken bridges. It'll help speed up the healing process. I guess Buddha was right when it was better lift up rather than knock down.
From what I've experienced, we all could use some sympathy from time to time. Whether it's an ear that will listen or a shoulder to lean on, it does wonders for a wounded soul. A lot of times, people were there for me, when things were tough and now I try to do the same for others. I'm no angel but I try to do what I can to calm things down. My only request is that people learn from what happened so that it won't happen again. Just because something has been fixed, doesn't you can break it again, especially when it's about relationships.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
One of the reasons why I was glad that the holidays were over was because deep inside I felt a lot of anxiety which later turned to disappointment as the year 2008ended. The fact that we had that shoufest last weekend, only comforts that awful thought. Right now, I see signs that past problems are here again, raising my anxiety levels to a new high. In a middle of all this, I begining to wonder: Are our bonds still strong? When I hear the song "The Long Run" by The Eagles, I hope that it is.
Although I never talked about it, during the last two years I felt something was wrong going around us. I won't give the reasons why but I was hoping and praying that things would eventually be resolved. Hopes of that started to decline certain events transpired that made what I thought was a resolved situation blow over which lasted to the end of the year and if you ask me, it seriously affected the bonds that kept us together over the years. That's the reason I was drunk senseless during Christmas dinner which led to me leaving early and fainting in car.
After the death of my Nanny and my Grandfather, I came to realize just how important family ties are and because of that I feel that everyone in my family is important to me which why anyone who tries TO HURT ANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS WILL HAVE TO GO THROUGH ME FIRST!!! The last few years have greatly damaged the bonds that have kept us close and if there was one wish I have for the new year is to see to those bonds restored if not strengthened. That bond was the one thing that I can we were proud of and I want that back again. I just hope that time would fix what has been damaged because it gives me no rest both day and night. Through the years, those bonds have carried us through good times and bad; I just hope they still will in the long run.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Right now we're still smarting from last weekends shoutfest and tempers are still high. Everytime I remember what happened, it reminds of a nuclear explosion where victims are still reeling from the after-effects. The worst part about this is it always starts from nothing and erupts into a full scale shouting match. In the end, both side insist they are right and the other guy is wrong. It reminds me of the song "You May Be Right" by Billy Joel.
Although this isn't the first time this happened, you never get used to it. It's bad enough that the family has a lot of problems and now I have to deal with this really sucks. I have to admit I had my moments of friction with other members in this family, but things never got this nasty. The only consolation that I get is that I get to go to bed early. Be that as it, may things are still going to get tense for a while.
Another difficult thing about this situation is that nobody will step up and apologize. As I've said earlier, each insist that they are right which means this will take a while. I guess I just have to wait till this blows over and it will eventually. The question is if each will learn from this feud. If not, I wouldn't be surprise to hear another one in the future which is just a matter of time, short tempers and reckless actions.
Monday, January 19, 2009
I was feeling so pissed yesterday that I think I may have made a mistake at the chronological order of my entries since yesterday was Monday. It's bad enough that last weekend went up in flames due to a sudden outburst of tantrums that the following day was the first day at work. Waking up to shattered nerves is a never a good way to start the week. Which is why I agree with the title of the song " I Don't Like Mondays" by Bob Geldof And The Boomtown Rats.
I'm not sure if this song is about some nut who goes on a shooting spree on the first day of the week. All I know is that I agree that that Mondays is the worst day of the week where all the work load starts pouring in. Even if you don't like it, you have to face it on the day before, you try to recharge yourself and get enough rest so you can start the day fresh. Unfortunately, there have been frequent developments that occur during the weekend which prevent me from doing just that. I don't mind that but when somebody starts throwing a fit and spreads, it around, it really gets me into killing mode for the simple reason that it ruins my day and affects my mood for the next day.
Being in a bad mood is not the best way to start off a grueling week and I know I'm not alone here. As much as possible I do what I can to make sure everyone is satisfied even if it is at my expense. All I ask is a little down time or a good day without the sudden eruption because I have not the time or the income to do anything else at the moment. Starting the day right is now becoming rare commodity for me. This is especially true during the weekends when I can no longer recharge my batteries to prepare for Mondays.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
It never fails: Every time I watch a UFC match, something happens with wrecks my day. It was bad enough that it that the matches were really lousy and then out of the blue the whole house explodes, leaving me pissed as hell. Man, no matter how hard you keep the peace, when things start spinning out of control, there's no stopping it. Why this happens, I'll probably never know, but I am getting sick and tired of it. When people cause or spread misery around, I remember the song "Misery" by Soul Assylum.
Whoever said that misery loves company was a very mean person. People who do that are the ones I'd like to beat the living crap out of. Whether they're bullies, drama-queens, terrorist or just plain jerks who had a bad day, they have a way of spreading their bad moods faster than a zombie in Jorge Romero film. They are selfish people who are so caught up in themselves, they think that they are the only ones who matter and treat everyone (including those who care about them) like crap just because they' pissed. They think just because they're anger is righteous, they have a right to spread they're hate around and just get away with it. For showing such bad behavior, I've got news for them: All they'll gonna get from me is a punch is the jaw because they got a really lousy way of asking for attention, let alone sympathy.
I'm not a perfect person, but one thing that I will never do is make other people miserable when I'm in a bad mood. The worst that I'll probably do is just keep quiet, although sometimes, I might be alittle rude (I can't help it cause I'm pissed). Spreading misery is the same as spreading the plague and it doesn't do any good. I'm not taking away any person's right to get mad because there are times when people have a valid reason for doing so. Just don't mistake it as right to hurt others because not everybody will understand your anger. So if you're pissed, please keep it to yourself because you might wake up a sleeping demon who might just show you the consequences of your foolish impulse.
Last Halloween, I was surfing through the list of scarriest films ever made in the internet and after reading it, I made it a point to go to bed early. One of the films that really scared me was the Japanese horror film "Audition" where a would-be fiancee tortured her suitor. For me, what made the film so scary wasn't just the groutesque way she tormented her victim but also the unmasking of her true personality. It really makes you want to think about the secrets people keep inside of them. When the truth comes out, it can be cruel, just like the song "Found Out About You" by The Gin Blossoms.
Even if you think that you know a person, inside-out, you could be wrong. What makes it so creepy is the fact that once you find out the truth, it leaves you devastated. I guess that's what all the clients of the reality show "Cheaters" feel when host shows them the tape where they're spouses were caught in the act. In other circumstances, people can be two-faced: they'll be your friend infront of you and when you're back is turned, they destroy your reputation. I guess there's always more to it than meets the eye.
I'm not saying that we should stop trusting people, but sometimes we have to be careful. I hate to admit it but that's one lesson that learn from gangs and mob bosses. The worst part about it all is when trust is broken, especially when a strong bod has been developed between people over a period of time. In closing, I remember a scene in the televsion show "Boston Public" when Micheal Rappaport's character decides to break up with his cheating girlfriend and she pleads to him not to. He replied that he doesn't trust her and trust was a big part about what they had which is why I try to be careful who I associate with.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Whether it was a good day or a bad day, once it's check-out, I take a deep sigh and make my way back home. Whether I commute, drive or jus plain walk, thoughts of home helps take the pressure off my already tired body and helps me to relax. The days can be boring, exciting, routine or can cause panic depending on what can come out of the blue. No matter what happens, it's always nice to know that there's always a place to go home to. These are my thoughts when I listen to the song, "Home Sweet Home" by Motley Crue.
I guess that's one of the reasons why people tell me that I have the facial expression of a person who thinks to much. This is especially true when I try to relax as I make my journey back from a long day at work. No matter what gets thrown at me, I can leave all of that at the door and let myself loose once I arrive. In the middle of it all, I just reflect on what developed during the day and find the good in it, even if sometimes things went bad. This song's sounds best when you're driving down the long winding road where there's no traffic and all thoughts go right past your head as you speed on the highway.
I must confess that my home isn't exactly perfect and a lot of times there are some tensions that occur here as well. Nevertheless, I've grown used to it and it's still home. Other things I like about this song are the parts about being a dreamer and how one's life can be an open book which is why some people read me so easily. All in all, no matter how hard the journey may get, it's alway nice to make it back. Just like the old saying: "There's no place like home".
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Like I have been blogging frequently, the last few years have taken a toll on peoples' savings. Just as you thought some resources start to lower their prices, others go up. In between, people try hard to make ends meet, even going to any kind of money-making scheme just to earn a little extra cash. Thankfully, we're still able to get by these hard times. Whenever I think about how lucky we are, I feel like playing Bon Jovi's song "Living On A Prayer".
Just like the song, we've really got to hold on to what we've got, especially when times can be so unpredictable. Despite all the difficulties, I've learned to be thankful for what we have. A lot of people either hardly make ends meet or just find themselves out on the streets. It hasn't been easy, especially if things happen and it adds pressure to the situation. During those times, really have to take the pain and fight on.
I know I've got to move if I want to really change the way things are because no one will do it for you. I see this as a test to find out how serious I am about what I want to transpire this year as well as for the future. I'm no angel but I always pray and despite some temptation or impulsive loss of temper, I still do my best to stay focus. I just I accomplish what I set out to do. "Tough times don't last, but tough people do".
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Since my brothers got married, it's now my duty to watch over my parents. Sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's easy, but despite the lack of rest, I'm okay with it. When people grow older, sometimes they the feeling that they've been passed over and though we don't intend it, for them it hurts. I also realized that back then when I was a child, they were always there and they always stood by us when we were good and even when we were a pain in the butt. So now, it's my turn to do the same for them. When I hear the song "Trouble Me" by the band 10,000 Maniacs, I get reminded of that.
Like I said, it isn't easy because sometimes I get drained from work and I have to attend to their needs when I get home. Be that as it may, I don't regret looking after them, even if sometimes they're hard to get along with. All I want right now is to make sure nothing bad happens to them, especially now that they are getting older. One good I can say about taking care of them is that I have begun to understand them more and thanks to that, we are able to get along better. Sometimes you got to spend more time with people if you want to know them better.
True, there are times when we get on each others' nerves when things get rough, but it's all part of any family relationship. Hopefully this year, things get better and it won't be too hard on my part. One for thing today is my mother's birthday and I wish her more good years to spend QUALITY TIME with us all. For all her virtues and her flaws, she has has always been there for us and now I'll try to be there for her as well as for my dad. Happy Birthday Ma !!!!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Even though the new year has begun, I still feel the hurt of the past years. Ask anybody and they'll tell you they've had there share of hard times where things looked like they had no end. Man, everytime the thought enters my head, I had to breathe a deep, deep sigh to convince myself that it's over. When I think about all those troubled times, I'm just glad I'm still here and I weathered out the storm. When I listen to the song "The Boxer" by Paul Simon And Art Garfunkel, it reminds me of the tough times I went through and by some miracle, I'm still standing.
I can really relate to this song and I know I'm not alone. With tough times getting tougher every year, I wouldn't be surprise if everyone has this song playing at the back of their heads. Alot of miss opportunities and a lot failed attempts hang heavy on my head when the thinking starts to run in my head. At turn I tried my best to turn things around and wound up with my face on the floor. But each time, I was able to get up no matter how painful those blows were.
Well, the year has just started and I don't what it will bring this time around. I hope which I have always done every year that things will get better. I sometimes try to remember what I did or did not do which cause things to crumble so as not to repeat the same mistake again. Whatever the year brings, I'm going to start bracing myself for whatever happens. I just hope I get things right this time around cause it hurts to drop to the floor again.
Monday, January 12, 2009
You even if it is a new year, you'll never when something will go wrong. Even as you try to psyche yourself up and think positive, something just comes out of the blue and ruins your day. Whether it's morning, noon or night once it hits, everything goes down the drain. One such incident happened last night as I arrived from work, the bomb was dropped and the evening ruined. A lot of times, I just wish that the day would just pass by without anything bad happening and when I heard Tony Carey's "A Fine Fine Day', it echoes my sentiments whenever the day starts.
Whenever I wake up, the one thing I pray that won't happen is that I get a phone that something bad has happened. I guess that's the reason why when they tell me the call was for me, I always get the jitters as to what the call is all about. When the bad news is announced, that's it the day is sealed, leaving me slumped in my chair. Just when you think that things can't get any worse, they do and whether it's from work or at home, you're left with a big hole in your spirit asking yourself:"Is this going to be a daily occurance?"
No one can tell what the day will bring, but we have to rise to face it nevertheless. We try hard to make sure things go smoothly, but sadly there just some things that are beyond our control no matter how hard we try. In the end, we just have to make the most of what's been dealt to us and try again. Last night stole what could have been a good day. I just hope the nex day will be better than yesterday.
A Fine Fine Day - Tony Carey - Tony Carey
Sunday, January 11, 2009
There's an old saying that you can't fool people all the time and that can be very true when you go too far. At first, people won't notice, but when the suspects starts to go too far, people will then start to notice. Pretty soon the cat's out of the bag and suspect is busted. When the payback starts calling, that's when the suspects toast. That's what I think when I listen to the song "I Know" by Dionne Farris.
For a song about seeing thru the lies, it's very upbeat. I consider this one of my favorite 90's song and a rare find from that decade. For me, trust is very important because when people put their trust in you, it's that you're some they can depend on. I may not be perfect, but I know the consequences when you deceive someone and it's obvious to all of us what these consequences have long and painful effects among which are broken bonds, isolation and always being ostracized for that one bad deed. These days I do my utmost not to hurt other people because that's the worst thing one person could do to another.
Just folks are kind doesn't mean we should exploit them for all they're worth. Don't even think that nice guys are always nice because they can be very scary when angered, especially when deceit is involved. For those who think they can fool, people all the time, think again cause when the jig is up, there's nowhere to run. No one likes being lied to especially when they give all that they can for others. Always treat people right and in the end, they'll do the same for you.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
As 2009 begins, I look back to the previous year had a lot more bad times than good times, many of which I will not mention in this entry. Everytime I think about it, the only thing I can do is shake my head because it's now water under the bridge and what's done is done. There was however, one good thing that happened that year and that was the ressurection of 99.5 RT and it's 24K program. At a time when today's music sucks, this was the best thing that ever happened last year. When it comes to good music's immortality, the best song to describe it 's Neil Young And Crazy Horse's song "Hey, Hey, My, My".
Man, at a time when I getting one bad news after another this was the best news that I ever received last year. Once again I had a reason to load up my cellphone and text my favorite songs from the past, many of whom can only be heard on 24K. I found a reason to buy an MP3player so that I can listen to it on the road where I need not worry about missing my request if something came up. Most of all it just goes to show how great 24K really is and how precious all those songs are. Just like the opening tune from this song, I can compare the return of RT to that of a phoenix rising from the ashes and using sound rather than light to fill the air with the best and rare music that it's loyal fans have always longed for every week.
Man, what makes it even more sweet is the fact that it's now on the weekend (Saturdays and Sundays), meaning that fans have two days to request and listen to their favorite classics. To me, this is heaven and free therapy all rolled in one. I say therapy because after a stressful weekend, there's like listening to good music to chase the blues away. I wish to express my deepest gratitude to all those who brought RT back to the airwaves where it belongs. Long live RT and may it never die!!!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Mix Martial Arts or "MMA" is now rising in popularity these days. With organizations led by the Ultimate Fighting Championship (UFC) and other organizations, fighters of this discipline are now recognizable figures along with athletes from other sports. One thing I notice about these matches is that apart from the entourage, training and mindset, these guys also have their own entrance songs with gives a big impact to the audience and their opponents befor the match starts. Even professional boxers are now doing the same thing in big fights. I have to admit, one of the songs that I would choose as an entrance would probably be "The Warrior" by Patty Smyth And Scandal.
I use to remember how this song gave me an adrenalin rush during sparring sessions back in high school. I use to have these vivid imaginations of ancient warriors in battle whenever I hear this song. Even when I work out in the mornings, this song always helps me through the last rep. It may not be as heavy as the metal and rock songs that I listen to but it's right up there when it comes to a natural adrenalin rush which fighter needs when he goes off to battle. I still consider it a kick-ass song and I would use it if I were a mix martial artist going in for a match.
These days, I'm not as strong as I was 30 years ago. Although I still work out, I don't do that much strenuous exercise anymore. Right now I'm trying to work my way back to my old style of working out which I really miss. But thanks to this song and other 24K classics, I still find the motivation to keep exercising to this day. I have admit when I hear this song, it makes me feel like a "warrior" entering the arena to fight the good fight.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Man, what a way to start the year: One bad headache after another. Problems just keep on coming and just like parts from an assembly line at double speed. Even though I steeled myself up for work, the year is just not starting out right. At the end of the day, I find solace in listening to my collection of 24K songs. One song that helps put me at ease after a hellish day is "Sweet Baby James" by James Taylor which I prefer to valium when I find it hard to sleep when the day is just plain awful.
Whenever I hear this song, I begin to realize the effect that David had on King Saul when he played for him whenever he was of ill temper. Sometimes when things don't go as planned and chaos erupts, it really sapps the energy from your entire being and this song really sedates me what that happens. Next to a cold shower, this really cools me off after the day's heart attack. After hearing this song, I regain my calm and put myself at ease. I'd prefer this to any old sedative anytime of the year.
Well another day is at hand and I don't what it will it bring. Lately, it's been one bad thing after another. Whatever the day brings, I'll probably be drained physicall, mentally and emotionally, but then again, other people will be too. When that happens, I just listen to this song and others like it compose myself and think of things that could have been or could still be. In the meantime, I'll rock myself to sleep to the music of 24K. Now that's my kind of lullaby.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Ever had those times in your life when a certain situation is becoming unbearable? The worst part about it is that people around either deny what's happening or add fuel to the fire even as try your best to make the best of it. There comes a point where you just won't stand for it and voice your frustrations about what's happening because quite simply enough is enough. If they don't like what you told them well "Screw You"! Lisa Loeb has a very upbeat of saying this in her song " I Do".
This is one of my favorite songs from this singer cause encourages us to express ourselves to call it as it is. Even the nicest person has his or her limits when others start to cross the line. Sometimes we remain silent either not to cause a commotion or to give the jerks a chance to change habits. The problem is most of the time, they don't and even go on to do more things that drive us up the wall. When that happens, it's time to say "That's It" and dish out the law on these guys because what they're doing isn't funny anymore.
Although this song is about voicing out frustration, it has a very positive way of doing it. For some reason it makes me feel good especially when too many people get on my nerves with their antics. A lot of times people say I'm too nice to the point of being a push-over. Well, lately I've learned that you can just take so much that you have to stand up to all these jerks and their antics just to make them stop. When they say that nothing's, that's when we give them a piece of our mind and make it clear that the buck stops here so either change or get out.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I have to admit one of the reasons why I'm in the mess I'm in is because of the mistakes that I have made in the past. This is the reason why I try very hard to be careful of the things I do and the choices that I make. Everytime I make a mistake, it really costs me dearly and when the punishment is meted out, I really regret making it. It really takes me a long time to get over what happened and it really leaves a mark on me. Whenever I hear the song "Walk On Water" by Eddie Money, I get reminded of that feeling of fear about making mistakes because the consequences are always catastrophical.
Just like I the song, I'm no angel and every mistake that I made, I really regret making them. These days, everytime something bad happens, I feel my heart stop as the feeling of dread fills me being. This is especially true since the bag of responsibility is in my hands. Whenever something happens, I need to plug the hole fast or the screaming and ranting will start. I guess I'm doing this just to keep the peace for everyone, especially myself. I don't want people to think that I can't clean up my own mess or that I can't handle bad situations because like it or not it's a measure of a person's capabilities and I want to ensure everything here goes smoothly, especially with the situation that we're in now.
I know that I've got alot to do to prove that I can stand on my own two feet and erase the stigma of my past mistakes. Right now, I'm trying to do just that because I don't want to be remembered for the mistakes that I've done and people always remind me of that. It really sucks that people remember you for your mistakes, but it's human nature toremember your faults than your short comings, especially when you messed up big time. Well I hope I do straighten out all this things in my life and thing improve this time around. I don't want to resort to walking on water just to make ammends for my past mistakes because with the emotional baggage that I have, I don't think it's possible.
I remember when the film American Gigolo came out where men's fashion really took a complete overhaul. Pastel colors, square ties, 30's style shoes and other fashion trends came about. Pretty soon my brother came out with issues of GQ and we all pointed out to the styles we like best. Pretty soon (with my brother in the lead)whatever was in those magazines we'd wear it and whatever trends were on, we'd follow it. Whenever I think of that movie and the fashion trend at the time, I remember the song, "Call Me" by Blondie.
When I look back at those years. I felt I was running with the joneses. I remember my favorite scene in the movie was when Richard Gere opened his closet and laid out all his wardrobe. Man, the suits, shirts, ties were the trend of the day and at that time, they probably cost a king's ransom. The hard part about wearing those kinds of clothing is that they're not exactly suitable for casual occassions and you always have to be careful not to get them messed up because they were expensive and difficult to clean. More importantly, I didn't feel comfortable wearing them because I wasn't myself when I did.
I'm glad that I was able to shake off that phase of my life. I feel better wearing simple clothes although my brothers think I look like a dirt farmer in the choice of clothes that I wear. Well I gon't mind because I feel good in them than I did in those fashion style clothes. It doesn't mean that I'm cheap; it just that I want to be me in the clothes that I'm. When I'm in that mode, nothing else matters.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Well the holidays are over and miraculously, I was able to concentrate well enough to get some work done. Be that as it may, I still have a sense of nostalgia which is always brought about by the passing of a year. At times like this, I think back to the good old days when life wasn't so hard and there were always good times and good people to share them with. This feeling grows stronger as the day ends and the night begins. Thinking of all those times makes me want to listen to "Night Moves" by Bob Seger.
Man, I fell in love with this song the first time I heard it and it's still one of my all time favorites. It really takes me back to the times when you were young, there was always something to do and best of all it was set in the summertime where there was always something happening. Meeting girls who made a deep impression on me and sharing a brew and smokes with your friends and living life to the fullest. No matter what was going on, we never walked away empty handed. Even now I still think that all happened just yesterday and I can't believe how long it's been since those days have passed.
True those days are gone, but I'll always keep the feeling of those memories deep inside me. Most of the time, I listen to this song when the day ends and I let my mind drift back to those great times. Yes, sometimes when I wake up, I take few minutes to remember a bit before I start getting for work. Who knows, maybe one day I will be able to go back and meet these people again and let the good times roll. Until then the memories will do for me. I'll never forget them, especially when I'm restless during the long hours of the night.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Well the holidays are officially over but unfortunately, my batteries are still low and as I write this entry, I hope I be able to charge up for the week's assignments. Since Friday, I've been trying to put myself back to work mode but there's still little effect. Right now I'm mentally psyching myself up because I want to catch up on a few things and make sure that I do it right. Hopefully I get the drive running by the time I wake up at 5:00am. Just a shot of inspiration is what I need to get the juice flowing and whenever I hear the song "Thunderstruck" by AC/DC, it just what I need to get out of the holiday funk.
When it comes to getting your game mode on, any song from this band does the trick and this is one of my favorites. It revs me up when I get into a slump which is exactly what I need at the moment. I remember what General Patton said about things getting a little scary at first but when you make the first move, everything else is now easy. First thing I'll when I get to work is to start what I have been researching and find out what's new so that I can get things rolling. Just make sure the job is finished and that everything is accurate to ensure a success.
I'm still a little drowsy and I have to admit I wish I had one more day of rest but enough is enough. All I need is just that jolt of adrenalin to get me moving for the day. Write now I'm thinking of finishing that assignment that I started as well as gather whatever good developments that I can for some stories and photos. Well right now the day has ended and the night has come so I have to rest up for the week ahead. Whatever happens tomorrow, I'll just go full blast and do all that has to be done to start the year right.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
One of the things that I envy about the young is the energy that they have and when they channel that energy into a goal which they stay focus on, it's incredible what they can achieve. Whether it's money, ambition, or win a certain title, when a person is driven towards a goal, you can bet that he'll stick with to the end. As for the people around that person, they should give all their support and counsel so that he will reach his goals. They should do all that they can for him because that flame that inspired him will carry him through his entire life. This is what I believe in when I hear the song "Change" by John Waite.
I have to admit this song and music video were some of the reasons why I still stick to working out. I actually drank less and ate less this holiday and didn't miss a work out. No matter what we wish for, if we don't have that drive and focus, nothing is going to happen and lately, I'm learning that the hard way. I'm begining to remember the old lesson that I once learned from this song: You've got to give all that you got if you reall want to get. With the start of 2009, I do so hope that I get it right this time around.
I have to admit when I hear this song, I get the drive to lift a few weights and do other exercises to get the blood pumping. Hopefully, I get to more than just that this year. I really want something to change for the better and it's not just for me, but for all those who are dear to me. I know that I wasted a lot of time and lost a lot of opportunities and I do so hope that whatever it is I plan this year will come to fuitition. One thing I know will never change the love and devotion that I have for my parents, all my brothers and their families because they are all apart of me and will remain so till the end of my life.
Friday, January 2, 2009
I wouldn't surprised if before all the horn-blowing and fire crackers exploding, people were already listing their resolutions for the new year. I for one, don't practice that anymore because I don't want to start something I can't finish or fulfill. I'm not a perfect person but I do believe that when you start something, you finish it with your own hands. You may get some help here and there, but majority of the job must come from you. That what the song "Finish What You Started" by Van Halen teaches me.
I'm not saying I'm the best, but lately, I take pride in the things that I do and more importantly, the vows and principles I keep. There are times when life gives you a bum trip and as much as you don't want to do it, it has to be done, especially if it has your name written all over it. I get that a lot of times yet I feel that I can't run away from it because it's my job and as much as it sucks, I intend to accomplish, even if it kills me. The good things about it is that I get to learn something new even when I don't like the job. I was also able to prove that I can do it no matter how difficult it was.
Well, in a matter of days, it's back to work so right now, I'm trying to get as much relaxation as I can so that I'm charged up for the days ahead. I'm also trying to psych myself out of the holiday hangover and get myself back to work mode. I just hope I get a bum deal this year because I had a lot of those last year. I don't know what this year will bring, but one thing I do know, I'll always finish what I started or atleast until someone tells me that you don't have to.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Well right now my head still reeling from all the noise during New Year's Eve celebration. After polishing off a couple of bottles of wine while watching the fireworks, I still can't believe that another year has passsed. All through the night, firecrackers exploded, fire works lit up the air and horns and rattles can be heard all around as we chase off the old and welcome the new. All the while I wonder what the new year will bring after all the revelry cools down. With mixture of anticipation and melancholy, I think about all that's come and gone while listening to U2's song "New Year's Day".
After a modest dinner I spent the whole night looking at the revelry of my neighbors and though there was a light downpour, it failed to stop the fireworks and firecrackers from breaking the night's silence and illuminating the sky. As I watched, I poured myself a drink and listened to my favorite 24K songs (courtesy of my brother Ding) and simply sat back and enjoyed the show. I have to admit that as I watched the spectacle, I remember all the great times we had during the holidays and there wasn't a care in the world. My mind drifted to the good times and bad times of the past and pondered on what future would bring. Before I turned in for the night, I really hope that I find a way to make things happen for the better this time around.
Well the morning after, you can tell that everyone had a long night by the silence when you step out the door. The remnants of last night's revelry lies scattered all around and the smell of gunpowder fills the morning air. Some who have woken up are setting off the last of their fire crackers while others slowly sweep up the debris from their homes. All the while I still wonder if anything good will happen this year. There's been too much bad and too little good and I do so hope something good happens this time around.