Tuesday, May 31, 2011
I know that lately my posts have been very depressing. I guess I've been focusing too much on the problems or sometimes the problems overwhelm me. It gets frustrating when you try your best but just makes things worse like building a sand castle only to have someone kick it. Still though you get battered emotionally and mentally, you still hope that one day all your efforts will pay off and things start getting better. Barry Manillow's song "One Of These Days" reminds me that things will work out in the end.
Some get luck and some don't and those who don't are the often the ones who hope for better days. They don't express their frustrations or their loneliness but it's there and it's pretty intense. It gets worse when you get more problems rather solutions which a bitter reminder of how hard life gets. Still, the world waits for nobody and if you want to survive you have to keep on going. You call on every ounce of your strength and to go out there no matter how weary you feel and you do it for the people around you cause you love them.
I know that one day, things will work out. This isn't going to be easy but if it's out there, then you have to fight to get it. Despite all my negative post, I am hopeful that things will be all right. Nothing is easy but they the harder you work, more benefits you reap. So I keep going on in pursuit of that better tomorrow. One of these days, I know it will be there that's I am still hopeful even if I'm weary.
Monday, May 30, 2011
The only time that I listen to the radio is when 24K Weekend is on the air. It's on that program where I can hear the music my generation as well as other great and rare tunes of the past. I just can't relate with the music that's on the airwaves so when the weekend, rolls by, I get my mp3s ready and listen who the weekend. It's like going to the liquor cabinet and breaking out the fine wine. The difficulty of finding good tunes reminds me of the song "Kids Wanna Rock" by Bryan Adams.
I relate with the part about turning the knob for a while before getting to listen to good songs on the air. These days, the songs are really hard to understand, let alone appreciate. Gone were the days when songs had substance and you can really listen to them all day long. Most of the songs I hear today are either re-hash or about whinning kids who won't face up to their mistakes. If there are any good songs out there nowadays, you once again had to dig deep to find them cause they'll never be played on the airwaves!
Now even 24K is in danger again! People are playing less and less of the rare classics that make 24K different from other classic programs. What's worse is that they're edging out the older generation for new 24K songs that suck! What kind of classic programing is that if you're taking out the true classic?! It's sad to say but real good music is now becoming hard to find or were on the verge of extinction.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Recently, I heard in the news that traffic enforcers are now using speed measuring devices in a road where people tend to drive fast. The reason for this is because there have been many accidents that have been happening there lately. A lot of these accidents have caused a lot of injuries and worse, a lot of fatalities as well. I guess some motorists never learn to be careful while on the road. These reckless accidents remind of the song "I Can't Drive 55" by Sammy Hagar.
I have to admit there are times when I like to go faster when there's no traffic on the road. Be that as it may, it doesn't mean I want to break the sound which break every bone in my body as well. Unfortunately there are some reckless drivers out there who think the road is a race track, thereby putting the pedal to metal. Unfortunately, some of them lose control and before you know, people are being sent to the hospital or the morgue. When caught and asked why, they can't give pertinent explanation for their fool actions which caused a lot of lives.
Sometimes I wonder why these people are given their driver's license? Even if you're in a hurry, it doesn't mean you throw caution to the wind and other people's lives along with it. It gets worse if it's some teenage delinquent driving a car that's not his and when it gets wreck, it's the parents who pay. Man, if you're gonna drive fast, drive in a race track cause if not take your time for other people's sake. Remember, it's at the end of the road when you'll regret it.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Another Song That Helps Me Clear My Thoughts When I Feel Unfulfilled: Seven Turns By The Allman Brothers
What I miss about the good old days was the free time I use to have to relieve mylself from the week's stress. These days, I feel that there's no escaping it now and it doesn't help that the things that I lost keep coming in and out of my mind as reminder of unsatisfied I am. Times like that, it seems that the radio is my only refuge since all you have to do is turn it on and trip with the music. It helps put my mind at ease with the hope that one day I will be able to accomplish everything that's been sidelined in my life. One such song that does that is "Seven Turns" by The Allman Brothers.
This is one of the songs that I really loved during my las years in college. It gets better when I drive down the road and this song is playing. Not only is it one of the best driving songs that I've heard but also relaxes me physically and mentally, especially when there's no traffic and I get to go faster. It's also cool to listen to at night when you're alone and the moon is full. Gives you a chance to reflect on the day's events and take stock of what you'll do tomorrow.
I guess that's the reason why I'm so restless as well tense lately. With all the demands and problems that I've been facing, I feel so frustrated that the things that I've been working on haven't come through when I needed it most. Still, I will remain focus and one day, I swear I'll get it done no matter how many things get in my way. With songs like this to soothe my unfulfilled ambitions, I know I'll get by. It reminds me that there are things I need to do and once it's done then I'll be at peace.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Because of the many hurdles that now stand before me, I often dreaded falling into another one of those dark cycles. That bad phase in my life when everything just fell apart and everyone was just so far away. It's like you find yourself locked up in glass cage and while everybody roams freely, you find yourself on the outside, helpless. It's as if you find yourself in the middle of nowhere and helpless to boot. The dread of falling into that bad cycle reminds me of Heart's song "Sranded".
A lot of people have gone through bad times and made it through. Still, I wouldn't be surprised that even though they made it out of the abyss, doesn't mean they want to fall into it again. That feeling of desperation and helplessness with no one to turn to is a painful experience that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It really leaves a deep emotional scar that haunts you even during the best of times. You just come to terms with it.
As much as possible, I try to learn from my mistakes so as not to repeat what happened in the past. At my age, I can't afford another bad cycle as I have barely recovered from the ones that I went through in the past. I don't want to live my life that way anymore and wouldn't want anyone in my family to experience that cause it shows you just how cruel the world can be. I just want to keep moving forward till I reach my goals which have been sidelined for so long. Here's hoping that I don't get stranded anymore as I keep on trying.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
As I grow older, the questions run deeper if I will ever get it together. The death of my father and problems that have plagued this family have really hasten my desperations in more ways than I can imagine. Trying to keep up with the world is hard enough as it is. As much as I want to remain focused on my goals, sometimes the problems intensify and I wind up either getting stalled and wondering if it will be worth it. This is the reason why the song "Will I Ever Know" by Identity Crisis really got a hold of me when I first heard it.
This is one of those songs you listen to when just had a long walk in the rain, coming home drenched with problems weighing down you. I have to admit it's ideal to listen to when you're spirits are low and you're full of doubts. You get that faraway look as if you hope that somewhere in the horizon you'll find some kind of salvation. The fact that I am blogging with this song makes it obvious that doubt and feeling is what best describes me now due to the constant pressure of problems and false solutions that keep sidetracking me.
Despite the bad mojo that has been set upon me, I try hard to stick the course. A lot of times, I want to give up but there's just to much at stake. I really that things pay off at the end for I really am working my butt off. So when will I know if I had finally done it? I guess it's when I finally am at peace.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
As you get older, people would expect you to be mature and ready for real world. These days, that's not the case with me. As Iv'e said before, there are a lot of things that I missed out in life which left me feeling unsatisfied and that bothers me especially now that I'm getting older. It gets worse when you meet people from your past and ask you how you've been but can't answer because even you're wondering why things turned out the way they did. Billy Joel's song "Don't Ask Me Why" reminds me of the many questions in my life that I can't even answer.
It's not just about your past that's hard to answer. With the way things are, you're wondering why the present is the way it is. You try hard to change things but wind up repeating the same things really hurts. You reach deep inside your head and try to find the answers but for some reason you can't. It's either crap happened or you didn't learn from your past actions.
In the end, I guess you have figure it out for yourself. You'll be lucky if some kind soul out there lends you a hand, but in the end you'll be the one who has to take action. It's hard that the answers are so elusive at the times you need them the most. But that's life and I guess I'll keep on trying till I get right. As to how I feel, don't ask me why cause even I don't want to answer that question even if I could cause I can't face the answer yet.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I remember a few ago, when my family were talking about the future, my brother asked if there was anything I wanted to do. I simply told him that I just wanted to live peacefully. The last 10 years were a bummer for me as a lot of things that I wanted to do and wanted to be didn't come true. To add insult to injury, things that I dreaded came true. As I look back at my life, I feel like rubber ball bouncing around the wall and going nowhere which really saddens me. As I've said before, with all that's come and gone, the last thing that I want is to have more problems in my already weary existence. Wishing for some inner-peace reminds me of the song "Don't Rock My Boat" by Bob Marley And The Wailers.
With all the failures in my life, ultimately I have only myself to blame. As I've blogged before, it was my decision or indecision that got me to this situation. Still, I can't live my dreams at the very least I just want to live quietly and peacefully. After all the hassles I've been through, I'll be lucky if a get stressed-free weekend which I haven't had in a long time. Too many problems and responsibilities keeping rocking me left and right for so long that I miss the good old days when the weekends were great and I just chilled quietly.
I fear that the sweet days are over and my boat has thrown to crashing waves. I bail as hard as I can and to make matters worse,leaks are starting to show which is the last thing I need right now. Still, I keep remembering Bergson's "Ship Wreck" theory that all this crap will end one day. I really hope that when that happens, my boat will still intact. It's taken a lot of hits but it's still there and I do hope they stop rocking my boat!
Monday, May 23, 2011
It was another stressed-out weekend which left me rather tense today. It didn't help that today is Monday and being worn-out and tense at the same time is not the way to start the week. When you're only solace from stress is the workplace, I don't know if you can call it ironic or tragic. In my case, it's just another sad reminder of how trouble is like an endless downpour of rain that keeps me drenched with no relief in sight. Times like that I feel so alone and sinking in. That's the reason why I liked the song "Rain King" by Counting Crows the first time I heard it.
This song bests describes my situation where problems are like rain drops that never stops pelting me to the point that it's like adding insult to injury. You already got a ton of problems to worry about and instead of getting relief, more crap gets thrown in your way. It gets worse when you hear the whining and as much as you want to remedy the situation, you can't because you don't have the means. A lot of times, you're left wondering or imagining of ideal places as your only means of escape. It's not much but at least I still have my imagination to get me through this muck.
Like the character in the song, I guess I too would want the same as anyone else. Still, achieving that is easier said than done with the way things are right now. Every time I work on something, something happens that leaves me face flat on the floor. Still, I try to focus on the goal and try not to let the problems get the better of my attention. I guess I just have to learn how to carry it that's all.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
I try not to think about it but every time things wrong and times are hard,it reminds of little I have accomplished and how bleak the situation that I find myself in. You try hard to focus on achieving the goal but sometimes bad developments occur and it's like someone throwing a wrench in the machines and before you know it, things breakdown. It's bad enough that life is hard but to have something or someone make it harder by destroying your chances can piss a guy off. This is especially true when all you're dreams are gone and last chance that you have is snatched away from you, leaving you with nothing. With that in mind, it reminds me of the song, "King Nothing" by Metallica.
I know that nothing in life is easy and it's either you fight to survive or you wind and wasted on the streets. Every time I see those vagrants on the streets two things come into mind: pity because they lost it all and now have nothing and a grim reminder of what happens if you give up the fight. Things just get taken away from you until even sanity is gone. You just wander and get wasted till Mother Earth opens and claims you. Before you know it you're gone without anyone noticing, truly making you King Nothing.
I've lost a lot of things that could have made my life complete so I know what it's like to lose things that are precious. I'm tired of that and what I want to make do with I left so I can say I did something good with my life. Still, the fact that so many things happened that almost derailed my course is a painful reminder that it's not going to be easy. Still, I'll working till I achieve my goal and x##%@! all those who'll try to take it away. To be crowned King Nothing is a title that I or nobody would want and never will.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Time after time, I've always mention in my post, the effects of missing out on things that could have made one's life complete. In my case. you can say I both too sheltered as well as had lousy luck,hence the reasons why the past haunts me day by day. As a result, I often have that faraway look as if I'm searching for the things I've lost in the hopes that I'll be whole again. The years haven't been kind but that I still believe that I'll be able to pick up the pieces and finally get it whole again. Keeping that wish alive reminds me of the song "I'm Finding You" by Eric Johnson.
The is one of those that hooked me the moment I heard when I was watching Austin City Limits. This is also a cool song to listen to on a long drive or when you wind down at the end of the day as the cold winds of the night starts to blow. Unresolve issues pop into your head and you can't help but wonder if things would be different had you done it back then. As a result, you get a lingering feeling of that you need to find that which you have lost. Only then, will get some peace of mind.
These days when a blast from the past suddenly hits me, I can't help but get reminded of what I've lost and what I need to find. True the past is past and you can never get it back. Still, maybe I should look to the present and better yet the future. Maybe there I'll be able to gather what I've lost. When that I happens, maybe I'll at least some of the peace that I was looking for.
Friday, May 20, 2011
A lot of times, I blog self-examination as well as Confucian Rule. It's to remind myself not be too judgemental. Apart from that, it also reminds how to treat and not to treat people. Sometimes people come off as high and mighty that they forget that they too have their own faults. When they start mouthing off, that's where their own skeletons start coming out of the closet. I guess that's why The Eurythmics' song "Missionary Man", reminds me that we're not perfect.
As much as we don't want to, there will be times when we make mistakes or our badsides come out. It can really humbling and even enlightening when we realize our faults. Sadly, there are some jerks out there who are oblivious to their mistakes and continue to grandstand as if they're some know-it-alls. Still when they slip, I won't join the chorus of self-righteous louts because I've done the same things before and have no right to judge. The most that I'll do is probably sigh and shake my head in sorrow as another guy falls into the same trap.
I always make it a point to remember and learn from my mistakes. I do it not as a way of absolving myself but help make myself as a better person. I have to admit there are times when I get angry at some people who do stupid things yet think highly of themselves but I try not to be judgemental. I guess it's because if judge others, I also judge myself. Still, with time some people will get it right. Just remember we're not perfect.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Whenever a new animated movie comes to the big screen, it no longer interests me. It's either another one of those insane musicals where the dance numbers drive you nuts or some politically correct film where the hero is so emasculated, you wonder why he's the hero in the first place. It re-affirms the belief that cartoons are for kids. The only cartoon film that I did like was Batman: Mask Of The Phantasm cause for once it the closest thing to a kick-butt animation film that I have seen in a long time. The soundtrack for that movie was Tia Carrere's "Tears In The Rain" by Tia Carrere.
It traces Batman's origins as well as his involvement with the one girl who could've turned his life around. It turns out that the girl's father ran afoul of the mob and as a result, was killed which prompted the girl to don the Phantasm identity. Like a lot of Batman stories, the ending is sad as he once again loses the girl and left heart-broken. My only critique of the film is that they should have put more fight scenes. Still I liked it because Batman was my favorite character and it was refreshing change from all those animal singing-diabetes inducing cartoons that drive me crazy on cable.
These days the stories on cartoons are too politically correct. That's the reason why I prefer anime to american cartoons but even that is now becoming politically correct. It'll be a long time before I see a cool animation film like that again. These days the strong chiseled no-nonsense hero is too offensive for the P.C. crowd. No wonder there are no more heroes anymore.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
One of the funniest films that I ever watched was "Animal House." It tells the story of two fratenity groups, the prestigious Omega Theta Phi whose members are made up of snobby, rich and popular kids and the notorious Delta Tau Kai made up of campus misfits whose escapades form the brunt of the film. There was never a dull moment in this film and still cracks me up when I watch it. It is only fitting that I use Stephen Bishop's soundtrack from the movie for this post.
As I've said there are nearly few dull moments in this movie. From the two freshmen joining Delta house to the cafeteria scene to their expulsion to their revenge was hilarious. It is ironic that the misfits at Delta were the ones who did well later did well in life. The icing on the cake is when Bluto married the Mandy and was elected senator. The fact that he earned a 0.0 average made it even more funny. I guess life is full of surprises.
The film launched out the so-called gross out genre, meaning comedy that makes use of digusting situations. It later spawned an array of imitation films that tried to capitalize on this kind of humor. Sadly, those who tried were poor imitations of this film. It is said to be one of the best comedy films of all time and I agree with that. I paid a large amount of money to buy a DVD of this film because it was worth it. It was funny then and it's still funny now.
Monday, May 16, 2011
As much as I cheered Lyoto Machida's win in UFC 129, I was also saddened by the fact that of all the fighters he defeated, it had to be Randy "The Natural" Couture. It gets worse since it was his farewell match and he got KOed by kick to the jaw. I was a fan of both fighters and to see two of my favorite mma idols fight was stressful and painful for me to watch. Still, I've got to give to the man because he THE pillar that made MMA what it is today. I'll be using Red Rider's "Lunatic Fringe" for this post because he used it for his entrance to the octagon.
I know this song is more associated with Dan Henderson but I am not surprised that Randy also used it because it was taken from wrestling movie "Vision Quest". Though he was a wrestler first and foremost, Randy was able to face a multitude of fighters and was able to match them standing up or on the ground. He was a three time UFC Heavyweight champion and a two time UFC Light Heavyweight championm but more than that he always fought with a lot of heart and even if his opponents were bigger and stronger or had more training, he always comes through with a win. Even though he lost his last fight, Randy had nothing to be ashamed of and as he walked out of the octagon the crowd gave him a standing ovation and chanted his name for all that he has done for the sport.
As of now, Randy has a successful business running his Xtreme Couture gym where many great fighters train. He's also been doing some movie work most notably "The Expendables". Still, I hope to see him still involve in MMA in terms of promotions or being a spokesman for the sports. I also hope Dana White does something for him for he along with Chuck Liddell made the UFC what it is today. Captain America has left the building.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I miss the good old days when my brother and I worked out really hardcore. We would push each other when we were at our limits and after the workout, we'd smile knowing that we really pushed ourselves just when we thought we couldn't go any further. If there is any thing I learned from those hardcore sessions is that it is the same with life because you will get pushed and there will be times when things get so hard that you knocked off your butt. Still you get up and fight on because you won't let them get the best of you. Keeping that in mind, makes me listen to Y & T's song "Don't Stop Running".
This is a darn good song when you want to push yourself when you're fatigued. Full of adrenaline which you will need when things start to be overwhelming. The last year was just that and this year is just as brutal as I try to make ends meet and find some security for myself and my family. Every time I try to work on something that could ease the situation, crap gets thrown my way in an attempt to derail. I'm not giving up and bust through all of this because there's too much at stake and I am tired of having the things I worked just fall apart.
A lot of times, I am tired and stressed out from trying to keep things together and the problems keep coming. Still, I am also tired of always having some development hinder my goals. I try to keep my wits about me and stand my ground and anything that gets in my way, I smash through. Whenever this song, explodes in my head, it gives me a boost that no energy drink can. I'm not giving up and I'll keep on fighting to make my dreams come true one way or another and I remind myself of that everyday.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Ever had that experience when you've through a terrible period in your life. Everything was falling apart, there was no one to turn to and you're on the edge of your sanity. Despite all the terrible odds, you stand your ground and you keep your wits about you. Rather than succumb to the madness, you resist with all your might. Though it seems like an eternity, you survive the storm and when it's over, you're finally home and safely tucked in bed. That's the feeling that I get when I hear the song "Raise A Voice" by Crosby, Stills And Nash.
Getting in a bad situation really sucks but that's you see just how strong or weak you really are. Times are tough and just when you thinks are bad, they just get worse. I'm not Superman but I don't to let all this overwhelm so I struggle to overcome it as best as I can. It hurts so much that sometimes, you just go numb but you soldier on because there are people who depend on you and believe in you. It gets easier when you start figuring what to do and in doing so get things done or find a solution to the problem. Despite being battered, physically, mentality and emotionally, you feel good that you made through and now it's time go home.
I still have a lot of problems that I have to deal and I know my brothers and their have their fair share as well but that doesn't mean we'll crawl under a rock. True, these past few years have really been hard on us but we're still here and that means we're still fighting. I guess that alone makes us winners. Still, there's a lot to do and we're in the thick of it, we do know we are not helpless. One I will do when I pull through my struggles is to listen to this song while I'm recuperating, it reminds me that no matter how bad things get, we can make it out if we want to.
Friday, May 13, 2011
here and so's my family. This millennium sure has been hard on us.
With all the bad things happening, I thought I would go crazy as one
bad thing happened after another. Still, we're still standing and
that's because we want to live our lives as best as we can. The
desire to live one's life as one wants to reminds me of John Denver's
song "I Wanna Live".
Sure I've made a lot of bad decisions that caused this mess that I'm
in but I still want to live my life which is what we are here for.
Sure, I fell into a lot of stumbling blocks but that I've picked
myself up after every fall. These days I try to take stock of what I
can do and try my best to do it. I know there are no free lunches in
life but if you make full use of what you've got, I may finally break
this bad funk that I find myself in. Though a lot of my dreams are
now gone, I want to do all that I can do and be all that I can be
because that's what being alive is all about.
It's not going to be easy but I'm still trying, Everyday I see people
struggling but making their dreams a reality. If they can do it so
can I and though I'm a little nervous, I'll still move on. If I
accomplish this then that's good enough for me. If wanting to do this
is a crime then I guess we're all guilty. That's because we all want
to live which is what life is all about.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Most of the time, I prefer a song in its original format and sung by
the original band/artist. Very seldom do I listen to a re-make of a
song because nothing beats the original (Although I did like Rough
Cut's version of Janis Joplin's "Lately"). If a band or a singer does
cover of a classic song, he/she better do justice to it because if it
comes out lousy then it really affects the original. It's surprising
that the original band would come out with a new version of a hit
song that they made. The Police did this when they released an
updated version of their hit "Don't Stand So Close To Me'.
The original song was already cool on its own. I was surprised that
they came out with this and not a new song. It was an updated version
with a lot of keyboards and synthesizers and was very 80's. There was
a lot of discussions about among my friends and many were divided on
it. A lot liked the new version because it sounds very much like
sounds of their generation while I preferred the original version for
the simple reason that it was the first.
It took me awhile to get accustomed to this new version. I guess I
thought that it was too commercialized back then. When this song gets
requested on 24K, you to specify what version you want to hear. I
guess different strokes for different folks. That's what happens when
you have two versions of the same song.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
disco or dance guy. True, I've mellowed down a bit and though I sometimes admit to get urge, I still wouldn't go to a dance party. I have my reasons and I guest a others have theirs as well. There has to be a very good reason in order to get me on the floor. With that in mind, Re-Flex's song "Politics Of Dancing" sure fits this entry.
I was never a dancing guy and most of time; I'd be at the bar, guzzling myself senseless. Still, for one to go out there and move one's legs and arms requires a strong motivation to do so. The music has to be right; I guess I have to guzzed up to the point of having no inhibitions. More importantly, I have to be with some special which means someone who I'm willing to do anything with. A female who brightens up my day because of a special connection that would inspire me to act of character would give me a reason to do it.
Other than that, I'd rather hit the bar. That's one of the reason's why I never fit in any of my batch's gimicks, I'm the rebel who'd rather light something in the dark and pass it on. Add a few brews and few laughs with good a circle of friends is enough for me. It has to be with someone special, other than that forget it. For those who are strutting their stuff, enjoy cause I'd rather be doing something else.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I'm a firm believer that beauty is only skin deep and that true comes from within. Despite, standing firm on that, there times when first impressions really leave a mark on you and it's hard to sugar-coat a response when you're so shocked by someone's facial appearance. Still, I admire those who mate up with someone who isn't exactly an Adonis or a Venus. I guess it all depends on the person. Being that said, it reminds me of the song "When I Turn Off The Living Room Light" by The Kinks.
I have to admit, the first time I heard this song, I burst out laughing. Later on, I also used this song to tease that obnoxious batchmate of mine and as always, it drove him up the wall. You have to admire the person in this song to love someone like that, but then again he may seen something that others didn't. Still, the fact that he had to turn off the lights casts some doubts about his sincerity. I wonder how he copes when the morning comes?
These days, I doubt that you'll be hearing this kind of song. People are so "politically correct" that they wouldn't dare. Still, humor is best when it's no holds bard. It was a pleasant surprise to see this finally posted on Youtube. It takes me back to the day when my classmate would chase all around the school for using this song to tease him. It was funny then and it's still funny now.
Monday, May 9, 2011
A lot of the songs I post in my entries are mostly about trying to cope with all the crazy things that the world throws at you and these days that's no understatement. As a redundant as my entries are, I try my best to change my outlook also just when I am about to make a break-through, something always happens that destroys the momentum and I'm back where I started, hence that accursed, unending cycle. Still, there's got to be a way of this crap and I know that if I really want to make it happen, I have to work harder. I just have to a little more faith and effort as well as bear it a little while longer. I guess that's the reason why I chose the song "Hold On" for this entry.
Since I got my blog back in order, I've been going over my entries and it's becoming redundant. Like the song's lyrics, I have no one but myself to blame because ultimately it was my action or inaction that led me to this situation. After what's been happening in the last 10 years, I really need to figure out where I'm going and how to get there. I need to focus on what needs to be done if I really want to break this rut. Thing can't go on like this and it's getting on my nerves.
I am still thankful for a lot of things like my family and my job and I'm not taking that for granted. I do want to have little more and though it sounds selfish, I want thing's to go the way I want to for once. I'm still trying because I believe that it's out there and you want to, take it. Just hold on a little more and all the bad will come to pass.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I remember the days when mainstream media would often label heavy metal rock was labeled as demonic music. That's one of the reasons why I didn't fit in very in my school cause everybody was in pop or new wave music. While everyone preferred to strut their stuff on the dance floor or go to in-crowd hangouts, a lot of us were lucky if we get to hear the heavy stuff on the air. The worst part about it was that there were virtually no bars or places to listen to metal music back in the day, leaving a lot of rockers out in the cold. When I remembers those days, I feel listening to the late great Ronnie James Dio's "Rock And Roll Children".
I remember during those days, I spent most of my money buying tapes of my favorite rock band. The music at the time was driving me nuts. Every time I played a metal song, it earned me a lot of stares like I was the devil's servant. It was only during my college days when I grew my my hair and beard and didn't cut my hair and I got my first black leather jacket, that I finally got to meet others who listen to the same music as I did. The sad part was that some bars that played this kind of music during the last few semesters of my college years. With our long hair, black leather jackets, cowboy boots, bandanas, with some wearing gothic jewelry, we were a sight to see.
These days, I can't to the music just as much as I couldn't relate to the trends of youth. Everything's so blended in that there's no you'll be set apart despite your interests. I guess that makes those days even more memorable because we tried to be different even if it meant being on the outside. I guess today are lucky because there are lot of places for them to hang out now. Unlike when rock and roll children were always on the outside looking in.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Lately, I'm a bit pissed at 99.5 rt's 24K Program. The reason is because they've very stingy with the classic songs of the 80's and 70's, particularly some of the rare songs that only they made famous. Ever since they implemented this one song/one month crap rule where they can only play the song once a month and that's a long wait! Quiet frankly that really upsets me because these are thongs that separates 24K from other oldies programs and what saddens me is that these songs may fade away in time. My fear that these great tunes would be a faded memory reminds me of Paul Pascal's song "Your Memory".
This song ranks up there as one of 24K's rarest of the rare, one songs that can only be heard on 24K. Many of these songs from that program are so hard to find that some of them aren't on the internet and some don't even have any music videos. The fact that you can hear them once makes them all the more desirable. Now with stupid "playlist" rules, a lot of people are going to have a difficult time requesting them. It's bad enough that some DJ's out will say they play but won't which means you've lost some of your cellphone's load on jerk playing god on the airways, dictating what will be played despite claim's that you can request your classic song and now they're edging out some of the classic in favor of the new 24K songs which is garbage from the early 2000's.
That really irks me and now the Pillar DJs are also doing the same thing and I felt insulted that instead of a month, I now have to wait a month and a half for that which stinks. There are some stations that play classics from the 50's and even the 40's because it's a CLASSIC PROGRAM. I don't mind that new songs are now being added because time flies but to remove the old songs, especially the classic that built is THAT BUILT THIS STATION is not only an insult but SACRILEGE to what this program stands for! What really made me angry is the fact that they're stingy with true pillar classic but play the new 24K songs not twice but some 3X a day and I THOUGHT THAT THEY FOLLOW A PLAYLIST! The rules should apply to all songs and they are not doing that which is flat out wrong!
This is the reason why for a time, I stopped listening to 24K because of these ludicrous rules that run contrary to what a classic program is all about. What's worse is there are no DJs from 2pm up so can't request when the first are over which is another move of stupidity! What are these people thinking?! Do realize who valuable these songs are?! All of this is a bunch of !@#!#@!
When I started this blog, it wasn't about writing about my memories as well as my thoughts but also about letting people share these tunes during my generation which now fast becoming extinct! Instead of preserving, RT is discarding them like a rich man throwing his money to the garbage dump! These are the rarest of the rare and now RT is making extinct! It is sad that these song will soon become memory which RT is doing. They keep this up and will lead to 24K's ruin!
Friday, May 6, 2011
I decided to write my entry on Mother's Day early since a lot of things might be happening on the day itself. On that day, we honor our mothers who have devoted their time to see to it that we have a good life. At times, they could be over-bearing to the point that you're being smothered. In the end, they do it because they love you. Every time I hear Junior's song "Mama Use To Say", it reminds of the lessons my mother imparted to me.
I can really say that my mother truly loved us because she went all out in making sure that we were fed, clothed and had a roof over our heads. More than that, she was always concerned about how we are doing. Sometimes, I have to admit that she can go overboard to the point of superstitious stubbornness and this often leads to arguments. Yet at the end of the day, we always make up because deep a mother always has her children's best interest at heart. All that because of her unwavering devotion.
Despite the difference in generations, we will always love our mothers because they always love us and accept us for all our virtues and flaws. I keep that in mind now that our father is no longer with us and I want to make sure that she is okay. She went the extra mile for us which is why we can do no less. The sooner you realize what she has done for you, the more you will understand, appreciate and most important of all love her! Happy Mother's Day to all mothers!!!!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
I remember when Mr. Big first hit the music scene which was during my
last year in college. They had a formidable line-up with Eric Martin,
Paul Gilbert, Billy Sheehan and Pat Torpey. Sheehan alone was the
reason I was interested in the group because the rave reviews that I
read about him several guitar and rock magazines. When I heard the
first single from their break through album "Lean On It" I was
impressed. The song was "Green Tinted Sixties Mind".
It was a catchy song and starting riffs were pretty cool. According
Wikipedia, it was about a girl who living as if it were still the
1960s. Anyway it was great song and I always liked hearing it when it
played on the airwaves. With the song that good, I thought that they
would go far. Unfortunately, they never replicated their success
though they were big in Japan for a while.
Recently, I heard that they have regrouped and are scheduled to play
here in the Philippines. Apart from that, they are now planning to
release a new album called "What If" and are presently promoting it.
I hope they do well this time around. They were too talented to
suddenly limit themselves to Japan and Europe. There are still a lot
of people who remember and enjoy their music so I wish them all the
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
One of the things that I miss about my old job was taking a walk among the city's bright lights during the evening. Times like that, I really wanted to stay a while and soak up the sounds as well as the sights. More importantly, it gives me time to reflect on what the things that happened during day. Bad or good, this ritual, helps me end the day before making my way back home. Thinking about that ritual reminds me of the song "The Long Way Home" by Rupert Holmes.
What can I say? I'm sucker for songs that soothe the troubled mind and I tend to think too much which is what people often say to me when they look at me. When things don't work out well often, you really need to take some time and shake it off. Those long walks amidst the bright lights can help escpecially when times are tough. That's when taking a walk can do some good. A brew and stoogie with this song in the background can top it off when you through walking.
These days, I don't have that luxury anymore. I have to hurry home to make sure things are okay there. Apart from that, you try taking a long walk in the streets, you might find yourself getting robbed as there are few decent, let alone safe places to take a stroll. Oh well, I guess listening to this song before going to bed is the next best thing. What important is that at the end of the day, you get some peace of mind. This song helps and that's enough.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Whether it's making my way through crowded streets or taking a stroll on my way home, there's always something on my mind. A lot of times, it's always on things that never came through in my life. Like a lot of people, there were so many things that I wanted to see and fulfill. Alas, things happen and sadly, it never came true. Despite all the mistakes, action or inaction that led to them, what's done is done and there's no turning back now. When I hear the song "Regret" by New Order, it reminds me of those things that didn't come true.
I often hear people say that whatever you do, think carefully before going forward. Sometimes the wrong choices can screw up dream and in the end, your left with a big mess. It hurts even more when you put your heart and soul into it but it wasn't enough to make through. I guess that's what they meant when they said you'd regret it in the end. Still, in the end, you made the decision and even if you want to, you can't take it back.
So what do we do with what's left? No choice but learn and move forward and hope that things will be better when the next time comes around. Even if you regret it, those are cards that you were dealt with. Well, better luck next time they say. I do hope that it's true cause things are hard enough as it is.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Last year I was rather depressed at what happened to Lyoto Machida. After lackluster first defense against Shogun Rua, he lost the belt after being knocked out in the rematch. Worse, he lost a close decision to Quinton "Rampage" Jackson which nearly put his MMA career on jeopardy due to his poor performance. That all change last April 30 when he scored a 2nd round knock out of Randy Couture at UFC 129. Being a karate practitioner, I was thrilled at his victory for he has vindicated himself at long last. My joy at seeing the "Dragon" roar once more made me want to listen to the soundtrack of the movie "Enter The Dragon".
I was worried when I heard Machida and Couture will fight against each other and that worry heightened when the match started as Machida started to use the same slow routine that he's known. That worried me because Randy is a determined fighter and he's the best when it comes to octagon control. Out of the blue, Machida launced a flying front kick that knock the Natural out cold earning Machida the win. I found myself jumping up and down and shouting for joy. Not only did the Dragon win, he now redeemed himself from his past losses.
What makes it better was that he was humble in victory and praised Couture after the match. I was sad to see Couture loose his last match but nevertheless, the crowd gave him a standing ovation as he made his way out of the stadium. Couture is also one of my favorites for he is one of the fighters who laid the foundation for making MMA what it is today. I hope Dana White does something for him like he did with Lidell. Long live the Dragon and may he fly high once more!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
It sure feels good to be blogging again. It's a great way to take the stress out of your system as well as help you organize your thoughts about what's been going around and inside you. It's also about sharing your thoughts with others and finding what makes other people tick. It's like rising out of the abyss and being to shine again. It's first good news that I've had in such a long time. The joy of being able to blog again and have my blog intact is best summed up in the song "Back In Business" by AC/DC.
When I started blogging, I was a little shy at the time and I didn't know how to interact with others on the net. It took a long time before I was able to generate traffic as well as some income. Just when things started to move, some jerked hacked into my computer and the next thing I knew my computer was infected with malware and my blog has been labeled an attack site. After a long time, some good people helped and now my blog has been cleared cause when I search for it on any search engine, there now attack status or warnings on my blog post. Man, now I know what means to finally see the light at the end of a dark tunnel.
I've already started posting entries on my blog but there's a lot to do. A lot of social communities that help me in the past is now gone. Apart from that, I still have to find a way to connect with others especially those who followed me in the past. Still, right now what matters is that I can blog again and for that I am happy. It's good to be back to blogging again.