Wednesday, September 30, 2009

A Comfort Song: South City Midnight Lady By The Doobie Brothers

When the day ends, I'm sure a lot of us are tired as hell. First thing I do when I get home is breathe a deep sigh to expel all the crap that the day bought me. Unfortunately, that isn't enough to ease my thoughts. I guess that's why I turn on the music and listen to the songs that always soothes my soul. One good song that gives me comfort is the song "South City Midnight Lady" by The Doobie Brothers. This is one of those songs that that helps you unwind after a long, hard day. A lot of times, things don't turn out the way we want them. At times like that good song can do the soul wonders and this is one of them. Like of 24K songs, once the music plays, I just loosen up and let my thoughts drift to happier times. If only I had a glass or whiskey and a cigar, that would be super! Even if I say it an infinite number of times, nothing beats a good song from the past. I'd take that than a pill any old time of day. When things go bad and there's no one around, good song does the trick and this is one of them. I don't care if people look at me funny when I get carried away by the tune because they can't be beat. Just as there are comfort foods, there are comfort songs and this is as good as it gets far as good songs go.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Feeling Too Much Pain That I'm Getting Numb: Feel The Pain By Dinosaur Jr.

With all that's happened in the last five years, I feel that it's taking it's toll on me. These days I don't go to sleep without worrying about what's going to happen next. Although I've taken some good advice about crossing the bridge when I get there and rolling with the changes, there are times when things get too much and it can get overwhelming. A lot of times, I feel really burned out as a result. When problems strike out from all over the place and you absorb it all, I remember the song "Feel The Pain" by Dinosaur Jr. 12 years ago, I was trying to build myself up after going through one of those "dark periods". As I was doing so, some people accused me of being oblivious to what was going around here. After that, I decided to help out a little bit more though I started noticing that I felt a little bit of myself started to ebb away. It get worse when I went through another "dark period". One bad thing happened after another and I thought it was just a matter of time before I bought it. Although I now am able to get back on track after that storm passed, I still have a lot on my hands and my mind as well. These days I'm just trying to make ends meet and steel myself for whatever problem that will jump out of the blue. I just hope that what I'm working on bears fruit or should I say steady fruit. That would solve my problems or at the very least, ease some of it. I hope it pays off because there's just too much pain that I'm feeling from everything and everyone.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Be Careful About What You Say: Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid

There are times when people want to express something inside them that they can't hold back. Maybe it's because they want to fix a problem, give their opinion, stress their priorities or just let their emotions get the better of them. The problem is that the words maybe right but not the timing. When people open their mouths, it turns out to be one big mess in the end. The intention or privilege gets lost in the process. That's what I think when I hear the song "Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid" by Hall And Oates. This song reminds me of the saying "Loose Lips, Sink Ships". A lot of times, people tend to say or do things that they will regret later on. Whether it's Republican Joe Wilson or Kanye West, when you say or do something stupid, you really show how much of a jerk you are. In the old days, political correctness didn't exist to protect self-righteous idiots such as these, giving the offending party the right to punch him in the mouth. These days, they hide behind the right to free speech, thereby tarnishing that right with their pathetic pronouncements. Unfortunately today, there are a lot of people who go about mouthing off as if they know everything. Heck, they'e even proud of the garbage that stinks in their own territory. Despite all the publicity that they get, atleast there intelligent people who see these guys for what they are: Dogs whose bark is worst than their bite. The best to do these days is to close your ears to these morons because all that comes out of their mouths are nothing but a load of garbage. Be careful of what you are going to say because it might do more harm than good.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

The Downside Of Remembering: Yesterday By Guns 'N Roses

Once in a while, reminiscing would awaken feelings of regret inside of me. These were due to things I didn't get to or not being able to be with someone I wanted to be with. Those feelings get stronger when I remember things that fell apart, despite trying hard to salvage them. I guess that's the downside of remembering. The song "Yesterday" by Guns 'N Roses best describes the downside of remembering the past. When you're young, people will tell you to live your life to the fullest and they are absolutely right. As much as I don't want to mention regrets, I have my fair share of them. The worst part of of those things you didn't try or do sometimes eats at you when you start becoming nostalgic. It's like having a clear vision of the past only to have a rock fly out of nowhere and destroy that image. Times like that when I wish didn't remember because could'ves or would'ves always up, making me feel bad and incomplete. I guess that's why you have to admire those who still don't want to give up on their dreams. Well I guess all I can do is give the same advice to the next generation. Live life to the fullest by being all that you can be and doing all that you can do. Don't be like us of whose memories of regret still hurt deep inside. When yesterday's gone, it's gone and you can't get it back.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

There Was Just Too Much Going On: To Live And Die In L.A. By Wang Chung

I remember when I was a kid, when Miami Vice burst into the scene, television shows and movies were all about smooth criminals and determined cops out to bust them. What made the 80's different was that the lavish lifestyles that the people led in those films. Stylish clothing, fast cars and a lot of cash was the trend of the time. The problem for me is that a lot of these films were mostly about image and doesn't do justice to what's really going on. One such film was "To Live And Die In L.A." and I remember the movie soundtrack of the same name by Wang Chung. If I remember right, this was about two secret service men who were out to bust a counterfeiter who killed one of the two agent's former partner. Then things go on a roller coaster ride from going under cover; getting other agents and criminals involved in the mayhem that ensues while trying to stay focus on the case. In the end, both lead protagonist and antagonist get killed and the supporting actors are the only one left. Though there was a lot of gunfights and hand-to-hand combat scenes, I really felt there was something missing. It was like too much was going on. The problem with such movies is that they do too much too soon. The ending really left me scratching my head. If this is this is how law enforcement operates, then Internal Affairs will have their hands full. Maybe if they just didn't put too many elements in the movie, it would be more enjoyable. In the end, there was just too much going on to figure it out.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Self Hate Song: Sick Of Myself By Mathew Sweet

Though I dearly loved the songs of the 60's, 70's and 80's hits that were played on 24K, when the 90's rolled in, there were a lot of cool songs and great bands that burst into the music scene. Most the songs were of anguish, insecurity, frustration and all the pent-up emotions that we keep inside. Unlike the past three decades were songs were cheerful or tripping, these songs spoke straight from the heart of about all the anger and insecurities that one felt. It made me feel that I was born in the wrong generation. One such song that I really like was "Sick Of Myself" by Mathew Sweet. This was a stark contrast to all the cheery-pop songs that I heard from my time. For me, it was about a guy who really was messed up and when he saw a special someone, it really made him take a good look at himself. A lot of times, we all feel that way when things loose their meaning and we just waste away. Then out of the blue, someone comes along and makes us realize what it is that we are doing to ourselves which inspires us to change. The question is if that person is aware of the effect that he or she has on this messed up dude. I'm not surprise if at some point in our lives someone comes along and forces us to change. Especially when we're at the end of our rope, we suddenly ask ourselves what have we been doing lately. Then we realize how messed up we are and we start to take action towards change. Whether we catch that attention of that person or not what's important is that we have become better people as a result. I call this the selfhate song because when you realize what you have become, you really hate it and really there are better things out there for you, hence the time to change.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

When To Differentiate Between Good Advice And A Load Of Crap And Be Yourself: Shake Your Head By The Eraserheads

Like I blogged in my last entry, the sellouts are usually the ones who brainwash people with dreams of grandeur but when things fall apart, they're the ones who suddenly turn tail and run. I guess this is the reason why I'm very careful as to what ideas I take in as well as associate with people who suddenly change their spots with the season. As a result I have become very set in my ways because living life by what's "in" is not my thing. So when I think and feel that it's all a load of crap, it's time to leave. The song "Shake Your Head" offers good advice when it comes to people trying to brainwash you and trying to make you something that you're not. There's a difference between good advice and a load of crap. The crap is when people say something about you out of malice. Even if there was some truth in what they said, the purpose was more to hurt rather than to teach. This doesn't help anyone at all and it only makes people and turn away from legitimate advice. Whether it's television or the radio, people try to get into your head and make you try stuff that do you more bad than good. The thing I hate about it the most is when they're trying to make you into something that you aren't or worse, something you don't want to be. Although I still take advice from people, these days I try to figure things out for myself and live life as I want to live it. My life maybe plain and boring, but so far, so good. I'm tired of being forced into a certain lifestyle or belief only to find out it was pack of lies and the perpetrators suddenly sing a new tune. I'd rather go my own merry way. So when someone tries to sell you load of crap, shake your head and walk away.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Keep On Believing Even When Things Don't Seem Fair: Something To Believe In By Poison

One of the hardest things that I've learned about life is that you have to stick to your principles. Whenever you believe in something or someone and when things don't go well, that's when your beliefs get tested. A lot of times, there'll be some spin doctor out there who starts to fill your mind with ideas that this is cool, but when things fall apart and you're in deep trouble, he changes his tune and makes a quick exit and a quit change in ideas. It leaves you demanding the question why is life so unfair, but have to remember what you really believe in to get a grip on things. When it comes to principles in an unfair world, I remember the song "Something To Believe In" by Poison. Things song talks about false prophets, suicidal war vets, dead friends and the unfairness of life while wanting to believe there's something worth believing. A lot of times there are people out there who try to fill my head with ideas that do me or harm than good and ironically, these so-called "preachers" are the first to throw away what they believe in and do something else after leaving all those they poisoned in the middle of the road, stewed on this false ideas. A lot of times, we laugh and redicule at the small dreams of simple folks and when they fall into hard times, we laugh at them even more for believing. These days, believing in something, according to some people is a joke. These days, that way of thinking is very fashionable and those who believe are looked upon as superstitious fanatics who live in the Dark Ages. Despite this trend of thinking, I have learned that there are some beliefs that are worth keeping. Even when life is so unfair, that's when you have to believe even more. No one wants to be tested but it's only during the worst of times that when one can see if one's beliefs are true, let alone strong. No matter how many times things change, there are some things that remain the same and no spin doctor can change that. You can't teach an old dog new tricks, but atleast that dog won't change his spots. Poison - Something to Believe In
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

To My Nanny (Yaya): One Day In Your Life By Micheal Jackson

Today is my nanny's birthday and she passed away nine years ago at time when things went from bad to worse for me. She was fine woman who raised all five of us and looked after us for so many years. A lot of times she was always there when we needed help or comfort and she did so freely. When I heard that she died suddenly, I was devastated because I wanted to see her again and not goes by that I don't think about all that she did for us. One of the songs that she would to when I was younger was the song "On Day In Your Life" by Micheal Jackson. She use to play this song on those old radio she use bring with her after vacationing in her province and it made an impression on me. When I think about all that she did for me, I wish I could have done more when she was still here. One thing I did for her was to take her out to a movie during her birthday and I remember we had a great time at that. If only things worked differently for me, maybe, just maybe she'd still be here. These days I try my best to look after my parents because since I wasn't able to look after her, I feel looking after them is my way giving back for the care she gave me. I remember having a dream and she was happy and there was a party. Somebody told that means she's in a good place and I do hope that's true. i really miss you and may God keep you up there in heaven.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Favorite Television Soundtrack/Where I AM Right Now WKRP In Cincinnati Theme By Steve Carlisle

One of my favorite comedy shows when I was young was WKRP In Cincinnati. It was all about a struggling radio station and the Djs and staff personnel working there. A lot of times, they find themselves in many funny situations. No matter how much school work I had, I never failed to miss an episode which was always worth it cause I wind up laughing at all the jokes there. The theme song from the series by Steve Carlisle was also one of the reasons why I watched the show. The opening theme of the song alone was a good reason to watch the show. When I first heard it's whole version on the radio, I liked it even more. There were a lot of great characters there but the one that stood was Dr. Johnny Fever who was rock Dj who lost his job because he uttered some vulgar words on air which caused him to move to Cincinnati where he was stuck playing "Elevator Music" . Thankfully, the new program director named Andy Travis changed the station's format and he was back playing rock songs again. Apart from being the funniest character there, another thing that I remember about him was his mug which had all his DJ names on it and he was the reason why I always watched that show. Apart from show, I guess the reason why I liked this song is because restless people can relate to that. People who move around from place to place and job to job and having difficulty settling down. Always trying to make a fresh start as well couping with all the pressures around me. Well moving from job to job and hoping that this will be it is something that I hope I never have to go through again.I have to admit I think a lot about them and as I try to get things together I wish them well.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Depends On What I What's On My Mind: Dedication By Thin Lizzy

Although my blog is dedicated to 99.5 Rt's 24K Program, I admit my blog is more personal than music oriented.  Ever since I started blogging, I felt that the day is incomplete unless I put an entry on my blog.  I guess it's like a form of therapy as well as an opportunity to express what I think and feel.  Whether I write about the past, my buddies, about martialarts or comment on what's happening out there, I just blog about it.  Thin Lizzy's song "Dedication" sums up what I write about on my blog.

Apart from preserving these gold hits, I also use them to reflect my thoughts on my blog entries.  It's much like a scene in a movie where a song is played during a scene which suites what happening or what the character's are feeling.  Or sometimes I make dedications to people who helped shape my life through the years.  Some who are still here while others have passed on.  A lot of times, I blog about the emotions that I feel both good and bad as well as how I deal with it.  No matter what I always dedicate it to something.

I have to admit that there are times when I am not consistent.  Sometimes my entries are good and sometimes they are crap.  Nevertheless, I feel the need to blog before the day is over unless something really demanding comes up or some idiot uses the computer and downloads a virus which leads to a breakdown and I won't be able to blog.  Despite these setbacks, I always make it a point to put an entry in because if I don't then something is missing.  You what you want about what I put in my blog which is why I put comment section there and I welcome criticism if it will improve my entries as well as my blogs.  Nevertheless, this is my blog and what I put write about is my business and that's the bottom line.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Don't You Have Anything Better To Do?: Come Out And Play By The Offspring

I remember what Brad Pitt's character Tyler said about fighting in the movie "Fight Club" when he said you never know who you are until you get into a fight.  I have to admit when a person is put in a hostile situation, it really reveals what he's made off.  It's when you face up to adversity, you better be ready to put em up and defend what's your's.  Unfortunately there are jerks out there who go looking for trouble and start a ruckus just cause they feel like which causes a lot of grief for those who didn't want it in the first place.  When people fight just to cause trouble and make a mess of things, the song "Come Out And Play" by The Offspring comes to mind.

I guess I came to this conclusion after watching "Gangland".  It 's always the same old story:  a gang is born; grows in numbers; gets involved in crime; disagreements and infighting ensues; mass arrest of gang members and then members leave the gang.  A lot of the perpetrators usually take over leadership and take the gang to dizzying heights, leaving a trail of murder and mayhem and then it all comes crashing down.  Some hardcore guys realize that what they were doing was wrong and make amends but it's really hard to break the cycle that they had started and are often called traitors for betraying the group, making them targets, though some are given a pass to leave without harm.  I guess we should be careful about what we get into, preach and who we drag into this kind of environment.

Friday, September 18, 2009

I Can't Believe I Don't Hear This Song Anymore: You Don't Have To Go Home Tonight By The Triplets

My reasons for being glued to 24K during the weekends are always the same. It is only during this time that I get to hear the music of my youth because not do I enjoy those great songs, only 24K has them and I'll never tire of requesting them every weekend. Like a treasure chest that opens for only two days, songs that will be never be played anywhere yet still strike a chord can come from this program. Still there are a lot of good songs that have yet to be played on 24K and deserve to be on the playlists. One such song that deserve to be on 24K is the song "You Don't Have To Go Home Tonight" by The Triplets. Whether it's the regular or acousitc version, whenever I hear this song, I freeze in my tracks and just want to listen. I guess it's because it's one of those feel good songs and these three sisters were more talented than people gave them credit for. I was saddened that they didn't get the acclaim that they deserved. I agree with one member of Youtube who commented that if this song was played during the 80's rather than the 90's, it would have been a great hit. I just get energized listening to it and it saddens me that I don't hear this song in any station anymore. Once again I give the call to all 24K fans out there to take stock of the great hits that are no longer being played on the radio. There are still a lot of good songs that have been forgotten and discarded as trends come and go. These songs need to be listened not only by the people of that period but also the younger generation as well to give a glimpse of what life was back then. I'll say it again, take stock of all those good songs while you can. Before you know it, these songs will just disappear so don't let that happen.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It Means That Everythings Will Be All Right: When I See You Smile By Bad English

It's a fact that life just gets harder everyday. A lot of times, you really get drained both physically and mentally. When things go bad, it can take its toll on you emotionally. Yet when see people smiling and laughing, somehow all of that stress, fatigue and ill disappears like it never happen. When I hear the song "When I See You Smile" by Bad English, I feel some sort reassurance that everything will be all right. Whenever we people we care for happy and safe, it makes everything worth it. A lot of times we are weary and our will slowly crumbles due to the pressure that day demands of us. It drives to the point of giving up and call it quits. Yet when we see that benevolent smile and the healing energy it bring, we suddenly remember why we do what we do. Keeping that in mind, we soldier on until we finish what we started. It's incredible what a smile give other people. When we see people, we know that their happy. When that smile and happiness is genuine, its energy just spreads all over the place. Even life gets to much, that smile works miracles at times when it is really needed. Even though crap happens, when people are happy, that's all I can ask for. When I say the people I care about smile, then I know everything will be all right.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Hoping To Make It Out Of The Rain: Flood By Jars Of Clay

For those who follow my blog, I bet you notice that alot of my entries deal with the many trials that come in and out of my life.  A lot of times when bad times start crashing down, you're so bewilderred, you don't know what hit you.  Despite the stunning blow that life has dealt you either have two choices:  Either sink to the bottom of the sea or do you're  best to stay alive until the storm passes.  I guess I should count myself lucky that despite the numerous storms, I managed to survive.  When I think about riding these stormy trials, I think about the song "Flood" by Jars Of Clay.

From what I heard, this song was supposed to be about Noah and the Ark that survived the Great Flood.  When I think about that, my mind goes back to those tough times when I felt like I was tossed to the deep blue sea and had to keep from drowning.  Everyti me I go back to those bleak periods, I thought I would go crazy as I felt so alone and no one was there.  The best that I can do is ride out the storm  and hope that there was some sort of reprieve at the end of it all.  I guess I was lucky because despite all those bad times, I'm still here.  Maybe that's a sign that's someone has not given up on me.

Just because the storm has past doesn't mean there's not going to be another one.  As I have blogged repeatedly, these days I want to learn more to be better prepared for it the next time it arrives.  Life is a cycle of good and bad times, I really want to be prepared or atleast have something to cope with when the bad times come.  I hope one of these days my efforts pay off and something would come and lifts me out of all this.  Until then, I'll be ready to cope with the rain and the flood that it brings.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Good Riddence To A Former "Co-Worker": Little Miss Can't Be Wrong By The Spin Doctors

Not so long ago, I had a co-worker who had the same responsibilities as me.  At first, the workload was equally divided between us and the output was pretty good.  As time passed, however, I noticed that I was doing more and more of the work while she was doing less and to add insult to injury she was frequently absent, leaving me with all chores in the office.  It had gotten to the point where I came to blows with my boss over this person.  The story ends on a good note with her getting transferred out of the office and eventually getting cut from the institution.  Whenever I think about that b@%!!, I remember the song "Little Mis Can't Be Wrong" by The Spin Doctors.

I never thought such people existed as she didn't care about the job and started watching television and reading lotto results while the rest of us toiled throughout the day.  It's workers like that that give a department a bad name.  At that time, we were hanging by a thread and this person didn't care at all.  When work was given to her, she was a kid being' forced cod liver oil.  The worst part was taking the heat when you're hands were already full and this bimbo didn't move her butt.  It had gotten so bad at the office that we could feel a sword on top of our heads which was ready to drop at any time.

Like I though, the story had a happy ending with the bimbo getting kicked out of the office and a revamp that was good for everyone there.  The moral of the story is that if you're going to be part of a team, act like it.  Nothing is free and if you want to get paid, you do your share of the work.  Abandoning your responsibilities and letting others suffer for is a cruel thing to do to your office mates which will have consequences so don't be smug.  If you don't like your job, then leave rather than be a burden to everyone else.  As for that bimbo:  Goodye and good riddence!!!!!!!

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Monday, September 14, 2009

I Guess It Was Just A Dream: Only In My Dreams By Debbie Gibson

Whenever sleep really takes over me, there are times when dreams get really vivid.  I don't why I go along with the situation but as it unfolds, you really get into.  Just when the truth is about to revealed, all of a sudden you wake up in a messed up bed and realize that's time to go to work.  Jump into the shower and rush out to the house, hoping that you'd make it on time.  Yet even when you get you get it together and start the day's chores, in the back of your mind, dream still nags you.  That's the feeling that I get when I hear the song "Only In My Dreams" by Debbie Gibson.

Whenever I get caught up in these kinds of deep dreams, it really feels so real.  So much so that there are some dreams that I still remember from way back when.  One of the most annoying kind of dreams that I often experience is when I find myself in school again and wearing a school uniform.  It annoys me because I worked so hard to finish my studies and repeating or going back were greatest fears when I was a student.  The more vivid dreams are the ones that worry me the most because I feel like something bad will happen and I don't what that is.

Whether it was recalling a bad experience, a coded message or simply being in a cool place, even when you wake up you feel that it happen.  When a dream was that vivid, you really can't forget about it.  Well in the meantime, I better concentrate on what needs to be done now.  Whether it will happen somewhere in the future or not, only time will tell.  If it was just a dream,.then that's all that it was.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

When You See The Light: Blinded By The Light By Manfred Mann's Earth Band

I remember a scene from the movie "The Blues Brothers" where they went to church and then suddenly a ray of light hits Joliet Jake and then he suddenly knew how to solve the orphanage's financial woes and inspired his brother Elwood to join him and all of a sudden they started dancing as way of celebrating the solution to the problem. Whenever things look bad and the solution suddenly appears out of nowhere, it's like a bright shining light that chases the darkness away. When the light comes shining, it's reason enough to dance for joy as salvation is at hand. Whenever I remember that scene or when the answer has been found, I remember Manfred Mann's Earth band song "Blinded By The Light".

For me, this one of the song that's best suited for that "Eureka" moment when all has been made clear to you. Just when you think the problem seems unsolvable, a little more focuse brings out the answer to the nagging question that keeps bugging you. A lot of times problems like these are the type where there's a lot at stake. It even gets to the point where drives you're very being to brink of despair. When the answer suddenly comes to view, it's a that scene in the movie where the reinforcements swoop in to save the beleaugered fort from marauders.

Right now I'm still grappling with my own nagging problem. Just as I have described in the last paragraph, this thing is really bugging me. I've talked to a lot of people and read a lot of material on the subject. I'm still a little hesitant about what to do but I want to do this on my own because it is my concern and I want to solve it with my own capabilities and skills. I know I'm close to finding the solution and when I do solve it, I'll welcome that blinding light. It's really makes you jump for joy!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

When Things Were Still Cool: In My Dreams By Dokken

Sigh! The problem at this point in life is that you should already get it together and everything is settled. Unfortunately for me, that is definitely NOT the case. A lot of problems and a lot of failed plans that keeps me going back to the drawing board. In between breaks, I sometimes reminisce about the past where things were simple and everything was cool. When those memories creep into my head, the song "In My Dreams" by Dokken suddenly starts playing.

I know this is a song about a break-up and the guy wanting turn back time to the past when they were together. For me, I want to go back to the time when bonds were strong and all the good were all here. There wasn't a care in the world and you know that things were solid. I guess that's what being young was all about. No problems and the gang was always there and the parties never stop.

These days, it's a different story. It's every man for himself and if you're weak, you're gone. I guess why I'd rather figure things out for yourself cause no one will do it for you. Even if you get a ton of help and material, you have to figure things out on your own. While I'm trying to get things in order,I wonder if it's still out there. If it isn't, at least it still the same in my dreams.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Another Song About Empty Promises Leading To Doubts: Pale Shelter By Tears For Fears

In one of my earlier entries, I recounted an experience where people promised me a lot of things if I worked hard. I did my part but in the end, those promises turned out to be nothing but empty words. It first time I really felt let down by these people after all I have done and went through, I got nothing from the ordeal. Since then, I've been very wary of people making great promises only to leave me in the middle of the road. That feeling of disappointment and doubt reminds me of the song "Pale Shelter" by Tears For Fears.

It was only after going such a painful experience that I started to understand what this song was trying to say. It hurts when people promise you things where you have to break your back to do your part only to find out that it was all a lie. The words Used, Had and swindled start fill your mind and anger starts to boil inside you. I was so mad I woundn't talk to people for a year after that. It took a long for my anger to subside because that promise meant so much to me to use a person and leave in the dust is mean, man, really mean.

These days, I really make sure that things are clear before I go through with it. After what I've been through, it was hard for me to trust people. This time I really check things out to see if it's the real deal. I don't want to be used again. For me, a pale shelter is like a mirage whee look so good but when you reach out for it, it melts away.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

When Things Start Getting Out Of Control And It Gets Too Much To Handle: Stop The World By Extreme

I just got back from work and boy am I beat. I hate it when too many things happen at once and it starts overwhelming you. Your mental and physical faculties start draining at very high levels as too many responsibilities collide. The worst part about it is that there is so much to do and nothing is getting done. Times like these I wish everything would just stop like that song "Stop The World" by Extreme.

Right now I feel that I'm mentally, physically and emotionally drained. After all that's happened in the past and what has happened in the present has really made me numb. A part of me just wants to walk away from it all and simply go into hibernation for a while. I know it happens but it still pisses me off when I feel so exhausted because I feel that I've let myself and others around me down. Another thing that rankles me is the fear that people might think that I'm slacking off which could live a bad impression which I definitely don't want to happen.

Despite this weary feeling, the world doesn't stop for anybody. I don't anyone to accuse me of slacking off. I may not be perfect but I work hard to get things done and that's one trait I don't want to lose. Just a little time off is all I need to rest up and go to it again. I don't want to complain because I'm not the only one who is tired at the office. I have to keep on going because the bottom line is that the world doesn't stop for anyone.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Cool James Bond Song: The Spy Who Loved Me By Carly Simon

One of my favorite James Bond movies when I was growing up was "The Spy Who Loved Me". It was one of Rodger Moore's better Bond films. It also introduced a lot of hi-tech gadgets and my favorite was the car whose design was one of the coolest that I have seen when I was young. That's what's to be expected from the man. Whether it's his gadgets, his skills or his moves, he does it in such a way that everyone else who tries would look like a fool. Carly Simon sums it up best in the soundtrack of the movie with the same title.

This song bests sums up what James Bond is all about. Who else could save the world, beat the bad guys, gets the girl while looking so cool but 007. Even in the tighest fix, he always manages to come through and thwart the bad guys. This movie also has one of my favorite bond villains: Jaws. He was the only bond villain that got to be featured in two films: This one and Moonraker. I also like the part when the navy breaks out starts blasting away at the guards and make their escape from the oil tanker which was really cool.

Although I'm not that much of a Bond fan as I was when I was younger, I have to admit he's still one of the coolest action characters out there. Even in this age of political correctness, his charm never fails mesmerize the women which is why we guys are so envious. A person that cool is very hard to bring to real life and we could only bring be like him to a certain degree. Anyone of us who tries would look like a fool in the end. The reason for this is that no one can do it the way Bond does.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Don't Take The Loyalty Of Friends and Subordinates For Granted: Treat Me Right By Pat Benatar

You know one of the things that really gripes me is the fact that some people are quick to forgive troublemakers for their misdeeds, but are tyranical to those who who work their butts off and stay faithful despite such treatment. A lot of times, the people who get screwed are the ones who follow the rules and do their jobs. When such treatment continues don't be surprised if one day, these loyal people get fed up and start to leave you. When that happens and you're left with the troublemakers, that's when you're going to regret how you treated these guys. Pat Benatar's song "Treat Me Right" always reminded me of that rule.

I guess that's one of the things that I seldom watch movies or tv shows because most of the characters are jerks who always get off the hook easily while some hard working extra gets left holding the bag. It maybe entertaining on the tube, but in real life it can piss people off. People who work hard and don't get any rewards are often the ones who get more crap poured on them. They're the ones who take the fall and to see them spiral down without any safety nets is some thing that I really don't find amusing. People like these are hard to find which is why we should do our best to take good care of them.

People like these should be taken care because they are the one who keeps the machine running. I'm not saying that we make a big show of every little thing that they do, but don't make them feel like everything that they have sweated was for nothing. A lot of times these people are the ones who clean up the mess caused by others and are abused during the process. They do it not only because it's their job but also because they take pride in what they do and care for the people they do it for. So, remmeber: for those who do good job, always treat them right.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Looking For A Place Where I Belong: Any World That I'm Welcomed To By Steely Dan

Whenever the day is at an end, I often take a deep sigh as I make my way home. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for what I have but sometimes I wish there was more to it than that. As I have so often blogged, a lot of things that I wanted to achieve never came to be. Because of that, I've always had this feeling of yearning for something better. Somewhere out there is a place where I know I belong and there will be be people who would accept me for who I am. Yearning for something like that reminds me of the song "Any World That I'm Welcome To" by Steely Dan.

This is probably my favorite SD song of all times. They beat Linkin Park about writing a song of this nature. I would like to go a place where I feel that I could be myself and do all that I want to do without fear of redicule. A place where everything is perfect and all troubles are banished. Hanging out with cool people who respect for you are and being in a place where you can forget about all the crap that life has dealt is every man's dream. It's better than this really dismal situation I often find myself in.

One day I hope that I find that place aone day. Maybe when things settle down and everything is in order, that's when I'll start looking. I'm not surprised if I'm not alone when it comes to looking for such a place. But when the day comes when that place is found, I'll go there without hesitation and they'll have me, then I need not ask for anything else. Any world like that is better than this hands down.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Making An Impression: Iron Man By Black Sabbath

Whether you watch a movie when marauders ride into town or an MMA match were a fighter enters the stadium, you can bet they put up a heavy front as they make their appearance. When they walk in, don't be surprised if onlookers and bystanders start to turn and gaze at awe. Why wouldn't they, when they can feel that something powerful and mean is coming this way. When a scene like this starts to unfold, you can bet the music is something very direct and very intimidating which can really have a psychological effect on the audience and enemies alike. One such song can make such a statement is Black Sabbath's "Iron Man".

From the first time I heard this song, you feel like something terrifying is on its way. The first thing that the target would want to do is summon all his resolve to face this terror or fly from the scene. If you are the one marching to this tune, it's obvious that you're not in a nice mood and you can be sure where you are headed for will involve pure mayhem. You want to get all psyched up and not be distracted for the coming storm. With destruction on your mind, this song is the perfect choice.

It's amazing what emotions songs can stir inside a person. Its even more amazing when the right tune is played at the right place at the right time. You really want to make an impression on the other guy that you made a mistake messing with me. When you achieve that, you've already won the first part of the battle. When it comes to telling people to back off this song fits the bill.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Appreciate Your Work As Well As Make Your Mark In The World: Nine To Five By Dolly Parton

A lot of times, we struggle out of bed early in the morning when Monday starts to dawn. We eat what's left in frige; rush to the shower; get dressed and catch the first ride to work. When we reach the office, we try to get our act together and figure the schedule of the day. Although we know how the day goes, there are some surprises that come out of the blue which we struggle to put under control and pack at the end of the day. Even though the day was tough and we're worn out, we smile for a job well done as we strive to do better to reach our goals. The song "Nine To Five" by Dolly Parton bests sums up every working individual's daily struggle to make it in the world.

Though I'm really a fan of her, I have to admit now that I'm working I appreciate the massage of this song. It isn't easy trying to earn enough income especially with the current economic situation that we have. Still we get up like clockwork as we report for duty and get the job done. It isn't just about money or making a living but also it's about being alive. Despite the struggles and bad conditions, there are still people out there who do what they do because they like and still believe that the world will turn if we keep on going. Attitude like that is what we need to turn things around.

Just like everyone else, I'm striving for the same thing. I've learned my lesson and appreciate my work more than ever. I want to learn more skills to improve myself and despite my age, I still believe that's possible. I'm also working on other things that would help make my plans become a reality. Nobody said it was easy but I'm willing to keep working on it till it does come true. Till then, I'll keep on going to the daily grind that actually starts at 8 am and ends at 5pm.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

You'll Know It When You Feel It: And I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues By Elton John

Time and time again, a lot of my entries were about hard times and the loneliness that went with it. Sure there times when I had some fun, but the lousy sure were more frequent. People who had it lucky never had times when things were so bleak that it bring you to your knees. Even if it is only for a moment, it still hits you hard and that's when you know you the case of the blues. When I hear the song "And I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues" by Elton John, all those bad experiences really hits me hard.

Why it's called the blues is simple: When something happens that steals away all that made your life meaningful disappears or worst is taken from you, that's when you call it the blues. A lot of times when I fell short, I could feel a dark hand starting to take all that I cherish away from me. You feel like everything's frozen, while the rest of the world goes on. Emptiness, disappointment and anger are your constant companions and put in a place where you don't want to be and made to do things you don't want to do. If that isn't the blues, I don't what is.

As much as it hurts, you have to keep it together and ride out the tough times. Lord knows how many times I've done that. Nevertheless, even if I have experienced it a lot of times, that doesn't mean I want to go through it again. The feeling hurts every time it happens and there's no getting use to it, unless your cold as ice. So when the blues hits you, you'll know it when you feel it.

Fear Of Losing Control: Wicked Game By Chris Isaak

I was saving this song for February but I decided otherwise and use for a different interpretation. A lot of times in the past, I've been a very naive person and because of that, I often get easily persuaded. As a result, I get that feeling that I'm being used. During such times, I get the feeling that I'm losing control which is something that I don't find amusing. When I hear the song "Wicked Game" by Chris Isaak, fear of losing control.

At the moment, there are a lot of things that I want to accomplish and those are my main priorities. The last thing that I want to feel is losing control. Call me Woodrow Call, but I often associate that feeling with addiction not love. I wouldn't call this love when you feel your losing yourself and everything and everyone becomes oblivious. you know it isn't love when you're on the losing end of the stick and all that you is slowly disappearing piece by piece.

Call me a coward for having this view, but if I feel that I have no control over what's happening then something's wrong this picture. Sure, your feel high, but then it won't be long until you take a nose dive and splat on the floor. The next thing you know, you're left for dead and looking like a mess with your heart splattered all over the place. That, I definitely don't like. I'd rather stay focus on what's really important and keep my head on shoulders rather than indulge in such foolishness.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Overlooked Song/Southern Pride: Rebel By Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers

As I have said time and time again, what draws me to Rt's 24K program is that they play the hits that I grew up listening to. Many of these songs were never played anywhere else which makes them all the more valuable to my view. When RT and 24Kir was back on air, I was overjoyed and even more so that the program was now on the weekend and playing for two straight days instead of one. Still, there are lot of songs that I wish the program would play on air. One such song was by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers called "Rebels".

I remember listening to this song every morning while going to school and I never tire of listening to it. My idea of what this song is all about is his being proud of his Southern Heritage. Although these days, political correct activists would accuse him of racists because every time I see them play this song, they always have the Confederate flag on hand. I don't think that's the case and like it or not, that flag is part of where he came from and he's not shy to show it. Either way this song is really cool and it helped wake me up for school better than a cup of coffee.

I plan to request this song from RT this coming weekend. It's been a while since I heard it on the air and the last time was when I was in High School. Songs like this should always be preserved and I guess I'm gonna give the DJs of 24K another challenge by asking for this song. Also, I wish they'd play some of the great and rare hits from the 60's and 70's, many of which were found only on RT. These songs should be heard by everyone for they are truly worth their weight in 24K gold.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Can't Tell If It's Gonna Rain Or Shine: Just Like The Weather By 10,000 Maniacs

These days, I go to work with my coat and umbrella and although there are times when I don't I need to, I bring it just in case. The reason for this is because the weather has been very unpredictable. One minute, it's all hot and sunny only to see the sky turn grey and then rain starts pouring, leaving you soaking wet in the process. There's no telling what the day would bring once you step outside. The song "Just Like The Weather" by The 10,000 Maniacs sure reminds me of the strange weather we're happening.

Quite frankly, I don't like having to carry anything when I go out of the house. On the other hand, I don't relish the thought of going to and coming back to work soaked from head to toe. The worst part is when your shoes are so wet, bubbles start foam out as you walk. That's the hard part when summer ends and the rainy season begins. You don't know when the heavens start to pour.

So for the rest of this year, I guess I'll be carrying my coat and umbrella to work. Well, I guess I'll just have to cope with this crazy weather for as long as it takes. I'm not a kid anymore and at point of my life, you just have to accept the sad fact that crap like this happens. At least the rain stops once I check out from work. As for the coat and umbrella, Woodrow Call would say in the book "Lonesome Dove": Better have it and not need it than need it and not have it.