Missing My Friends: Awit Ng Barkada By The Apo Hiking Society

With all the chaos that was wrought this week, I sure feel really down from what happened. The fact that I'm alone facing this burden everyday is really wearing me down. It's bad enough that the crap keeps coming and it's really burying up to my neck. Right now, I am really missing my friends and the times that we shared when things were cool. When 24K played, the song "Awit Ng Barkada" by The Apo Hiking Society, it only made miss them more.

When you're young, you're friends are always there and when you had fun stories to tell or want to take a heavy load off your shoulders, they're laughter and counsel always saved the day. As I have said before, most of my friends were drifters and loners like me. They went against the flow and shared a lot of my interest. Lately, however, they fell they fell by the wayside and I lost contact with all of them as time went by. Now, that problems are piling and age is starting to catch with me, I find myself missing them more and more. Not a day goes by when I don't think about them and wish to see them.

I guess this is the price one pays for being a loner at heart. Even those who rather be alone longs to be with others, especially those who one has a lot in common with. When the day is over, I often reflect about the good times that we spent together and that is enough to cheer me up. Whenever I see an old batchmate, I smile cause the past comes alive again. Wherever they miss them and I hope one day, we see each other again.

When They Make Evil Look Good: Sympathy For The Devil

In one of my October entries, I blogged about how the roles are now reversed when it comes to the horror genre. These days it's the vampires and all the ghouls who are the "good guys" and the humans are all religious fundamental "fanatics" who are narrow-minded and hypocritical throwbacks of the dark ages. Even though it's obvious that majority of these creatures prey upon us, these days, they are made to look like some misunderstood and persecuted minority class who we should understand even though they throw their weight around the hapless human population. We are now portrayed as either victims or narrow-minded bigots for these so-called "misunderstood" creatures. These days that kind of portrayal doesn't sit well with me. When I hear the song "Sympathy For The Devil" by The Rolling Stones, I think too many villains are getting away with it both in movies and real life.

Is it because of the power, the air of mystery or simply being part of a secret club that people these dd days fawn upon such monsters? When will they realize that evil is evil and that given its nature, will kill when the thirst beckons? It's not just with movies; we see robbers, rapist and even killers are made to sympathetic while shifting the blame on society or even the victims for failing to understand what drives them. Even if they came from a broken home or had a bad break, it doesn't excuse them for committing such heinous acts on people who did not even know them. We scrutinized too much that in the end, what's wrong is wrong. It may be a black and white conclusion for some, but in the end, you can't sugar-coat the damaged done by these idiots.

I still believe that forgiveness and sympathy are great quality traits that people are capable of expressing. However, it is something that is EARNED not DEMANDED! I may sound puritanical but nowadays we have become too soft and too forgiving that we are letting evil get its way. Before anyone accuses me of being a "brown shirt" Nazi, look around you and tell me I'm wrong. Too many criminals are running wild while the cinema continues to glorify evil. That's the reason why I really believe that there's too much sympathy for the devil.

Ahh, The Good Old Days: Better Days By Bruce Springsteen

Right now, I'm glad the week's coming to a close. After all that crap that happened, I just want to forget it all after all stress that turn everything upside down. Seems to me, it's the bad times again and the thought of it makes me pin for the good old days. That's what I think when I hear Bruce Springsteen's song "Better Days".

I remember the time when I had money in my pocket and I just left the house and go wherever I want to. After having my fill of the sights, I'd go home and feeling very refreshed. These days, it's a whole different story now that responsibility finally got a hold me. I'd be lucky if I can sneak a few winks just to ease my weary heart. The worst part of all this when s@#@t, happens, it really happens and there's escaping it.

Lately, there's been too little of the good days and too much of the bad. Just when you think happy days are here again, some fools do something stupid and the dream becomes a nightmare. Well, there are days like this and no matter what we do they will happen. I'm not going to let this break me. I'll toughen it out till betters come back again.

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A Little Shelter From The Storm: My Sanctuary By Identity Crisis

Though the week is almost over, the commotion that happened a few days ago still cuts deep inside me. It's a grim reminder that good times can suddenly come to a very abrupt end. Right now. it's back to the grind after the grind, meaning you're tired from work and will be even more tired after looking after things at home again. Add to that all the other crap that's been happening around here really gets me down. The song "My Sanctuary" by Identity Crisis finds me wishing for shelter from this crazy storm.

A lot of times, crap happens and when it does, it sure takes everyone by surprise. I know that we have to face things like this. Still, it doesn't take the feeling of hurt, betrayal and anger away. A lot of times, you wonder what went wrong even though the answer is plain to see. Well when that happens, it sure is a real downer, especially if you trusted those who caused and thus, sealed their fate.

So here we go again; back to getting bone tired every evening. Well, these are bad times, I can take comfort knowing that they don't last long. Just like Bergson's "Shipwrecked Theory" which I mentioned in my earlier entries, this will come around eventually. Until then, we have to rough it up a bit. The question is will I ever know peace of mind especially after all this repetitive cycles?

Need To Get Away: Gotta Get Away By The Offspring

can't believe that this happened again. Once again we find ourselves back to that wretched situation again. It's all because somebody dropped the ball. The worst part about it is that I'm the one who's going to bear the brunt of it. Just when things were starting to run smoothly, it all comes crashing down. I've got Offspring's "Gotta Get Away" on my mind right now because right now I am dreading this situation.

Man, just when things were starting to run smoothly, this had to happen. It's been a long time since I had some relief but thanks to those two idiots who lied, it all fell apart. It's bad enough that the year is about to end which means that getting a replacement is next to impossible. Right now, I am trying to relax and not let the anxiety get the best of me. If it does, I really might just bolt out even though I don't want to leave people hanging.

They say that good times don't last forever, well they were right. I've been here before and I guess we have to rough it out again. I hope we get some relief soon because this situation stinks. Man, this can't go on. I hope we break this mould soon cause it sure is taking it's toll on me.

Feeling Dead Ended: The Pretender By Jackson Browne

Forgive if a lot of my entries seems like I'm beating a dead horse. As I have mentioned in the past, like a lot of people, I have seen my share of hopes and dreams go down the drain. When that happens, you make due with what you can get and when you get older, that's there isn't much. Still, when there are people who depend on us, it's still better than nothing which can still be made into something. Jackson Browne's song "The Pretender", reminds me of that lesson.
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There's nothing worse than leading a life that you don't like. While some get lucky and make their dreams come true, there are others out there who settle for what they can get. Worse still, there are who just quit it all, when they just can't accept what life has dealt them. For those who don't make it have to fight feeling that they're stuck in a dead after failing to achieve their goals.

I guess I better say a prayer for all pretenders because they have to be strong to accept such a bitter fate. Still the fact that they are still here and are still struggling means there's still hope. It's just a matter of time and hard work. So those who feel, dead ended, don't give up fight cause the fact that we're still out shows that we're not out of it yet.

When Things Are Resolved: I'll Feel A Whole Lot Better By The Byrds

Lately, there are things that are happening here that really stab me in the heart. The "bond" that we were so proud of is really starting to unravel. Nobody talks about it cause bringing up the issue might do more harm than good. I never thought that I would see the day that this would happen. What's worse is what I thought and hoped would be a year where old wounds would heal only opened up new ones and do further damage to the "bond". Hoping that one day what was lost would be restored is what I hope for when I hear the song "I'll Feel A Whole Lot Better" by The Byrds.

Like I've said before, this "rift" always makes me feel bad since the day it started. It makes me feel bad because I always thought that what we had was unique and everybody saw that in us. I know that as we grow older, it's time to move on and make your place in the world. I support that and I wish the best for those that do so. The only thing that I wish is that no matter where any of us would go is that the "bond" is still there. These days outsiders have severlly damaged it with their whining. That really makes me made and right now there are a lot of people on my @#$# list.

With the year slowly coming to a close, its going to be another melancholic end. Last year was bad enough and now here we go again. I do so hope something happens that would turn things around. Two years in a row was bad enough and now this. When things that start to look up, that when I'll start feeling better.