Saturday, April 30, 2011
When I see all this kids having as I make my way home, I have to admit I feel a little jealous because right now it's summer and they're having the time of their lives. Some are soaking at the beach whiles are cruising the night and looking for an adventure. I, on the other hand have to worry about making ends meet; making payments on the deadline as well as a lot of other stressful issues. Still, one good thing about seeing the kids having fun takes me back to the summers I enjoyed with my brothers and my friends where everyday was an adventure and the gang was all there. Remembering good times and cool summers reminds of the song "Summer Of Love" by Jefferson Airplane.
This song really brings me back to the great summers when the brew was cold and the company was warm. We'd party all day like it would never end and the best part about it was the fact that we met a lot of great people along the way. There was not a care in the world and the fun never seemed to stop. Then the awful reality dawns upon me that it's now just a memory and when that happens, I feel so old. Not a day goes by when I don't wish that I could back and relive those good times and see those great people again.
Whenever I hear this song, it goes up there with Eddie Money's "I Wanna Go Back" as the next best thing to a time machine for reliving the good times. Those were the days and as I listen to this song when the night comes, it really fill me with emotion as I miss those times and those guys. At least I was able to experience those times and the memories are still with me which is good enough. Sometimes I hear the laughter in the summer breeze when I feel sentimental. Great times and great summers; it still lives in me.
Friday, April 29, 2011
It's been a week since Holy Week ended and during that period, you take some time to reflect on your life as well renew your faith. It's in those times where you shed the sins of the past and reborn again. I guess for me my prayers were answered when the attack status of my blog was lifted and I can finally blog again. For that to happen during the Holy Week was a miracle as well as way to start over with renewed energy. That feeling of rebirth reminds me of the song "Holy River" by Prince.
For a while there, I really felt hopeless. It had to happen at a time where I needed to blog the most and just when traffic and income was starting to take over, I got hacked. After failing to solve the problem on my own, I tried to find someone who could help me and it also took another long period because he was busy and it took while to get the attack status lifted. When the status was lifted my feeling were liked getting out of the dark cage and finally seeing the light. I finally started blogging again in Easter and boy did feel good. I never felt so happy in a long time.
As I've said before, there are still a lot of things to do. I need to put plug-ins that will protect my blog and I need to be more careful of where I go when I surf the net. Still fact that I can blog again is joyful news for me. I have to go back to the drawing board but it's worth it. I really feels like I was reborn again.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I remember stories my brother told me about his class reunion. He told me how everybody's appearances have changed over the years. Some were some who had gained weight when they were chiseled while others had gone bald when they had the best hairstyle in the batch. Some had struck rich while others are still struggling. Yet when they meet, time stops and the past comes alive again and for one night, they were back to being high school kids again. When comes to remembering how people were back then, Sister Sledge's song "Frankie" comes to mind.
It's not surprising if we all wondered how people we knew are doing today. More when they left a deep impression on us. Sometimes we still think when we meet them after a long time, they'd still be the same. It's big surprise how times changes us physically. Still that bond from the past erases all physical appearances and we still the same person that we met a long, long time ago. It goes when you sit with that person and talk about the good times.
A lot of times when I bump into old acquaintances, one good change about them is that they always greet you with a smile and pull you aside for a nice chat. As you talk, they appear the same and time stands still. Even if it was just for a few minutes, it takes the years away as well as the pressure. No matter who a good pal changes physically, they're the best buds that I knew from the past and when they smile and want to spend time with me, I know they feel the same way. Nice to know that they remember you for who you were in the past.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Day in and day out, things get harder everyday and when happens you sure get stressed out. A lot of times, you feel so alone during those times. Times like these, it would be great if a someone would just come over and help chase the blues away. People like that would really brighten my day. Longing for someone to bring in the sunshine reminds me of Cher's song "Sunny"
I remember this song from an old Dolphy movie that I saw when I was a kid but the lyrics were slightly altered. One thing's for sure; it brightened my day when I first heard it. These days it reminds of the people who cheered me up when things were down. These are the guys who picked you up when you're down and get you back on track when you fall. I value people like that because they keep you going in this fast-paced world.
These days, we all go at it alone. The world is cruel and stops for nobody and survival of the fittest is the name of the game. Despite the pressure, I still do my best to keep with the demands of the day. They might not be there but I take heart at the memories of how they support me. Still I sure wish that they were at my side cause I always felt good when they were here and that was enough.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Do you ever had weird feeling whenever visiting former institutions that you were once apart of? Whether it's a former watering hole, a school, a club or a company that you used to frequent or were apart of, that sentimental feeling just starts to spread itself all over you for some reason. When you go there, it's really hard to enter because of all the times that you experienced in the past. Personally, that's how I feel when I return to the "old haunts". Whenever that feeling creeps up to me in those kinds of situations, the song "Terminal" by Rupert Holmes comes to mind.
The problem with me is that I always seem to burn my bridges once I cross over. Aside from that, when you've outgrown your stay in a place, I feel that it's time to move on. Most important of all, there were some experiences that really cut deep, prompting me to burn the bridge. Sure there were good times but in some cases, the bad outweighed the good, hence the reason why I close the chapter. As much as possible, I'd rather it stays closed.
Still, there are times when one has to go back when situations demand it. Like the character in the song, I too have reservations when I have to do so. Still, some bridges are worth crossing back to, especially when you've learned a lot from that place. Recently, I've been learning to reconcile myself with my past. I guess it's because the past is apart of me and I've got to come to terms with it.I'm not quite there yet but I'm learning.
Monday, April 25, 2011
I'm glad that March has past because of what we went through last
year. When my father died, it really shook our world and my mother
was the most devastated from his sudden passing. Not a day goes by
when I worry about her ever since that sad and tragic day. It hurts
even more when I see her eyes fill and she suddenly starts to sob
which is why I do my best to keep her happy. My desire to see her
smiling even when things are bad reminds me of Nat King Cole's song
Things have been tough since my dad passed away but we managed to cope
so far. As much as possible, we all do our best to see to it that
she's okay. I admire her a lot though because despite all the bad
things that have happened, she's still tough. Though there are times
when we wakes up at night and weeps for my dad are the times when it
hurts me the most. It's reminder for me that I have to do my best to
keep her happy.
With my father gone, I really am concerned with my mother. There's
not a day that goes by that I don't think about her well-being. All I
can do is support as best as I could. There are a lot of things that
I'm still working on and it's going to be an uphill battle. Still,
when she smiles, I feel everything is all right.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Today is Easter Sunday and we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ signifying the victory over death and the promise of eternal life. Today is a double celebration for me for my blog that was labeled an attack site distributing malware has been cleared and I can now resume blogging. For me it was miracle and I'm starting to think that it was more than coincidence that this happened on Easter. Right now I am on my knees thanking the good lord and the people who were patient with me and helped me get this blog back to working order. With that in mind, I feel like listening to the song "Superstar" from the play "Jesus Christ Superstar'.
It happened last October 10, 2010 when I was visiting some of the sites of my followers when my computer was infected with malware and next day, not only was my computer infected but my blog was also affected and labeled an attack site. It was the last thing I needed with so many problems that have been happening to us at that time and I sank into a deep depression as I struggled to find a way to solve a dilemna. Fortunately there were some people who referred me to someone who knew how to take care of this kind of situation. It took some time due to the fact that the holidays were nearing and problems at home were really getting to me. Then after submitting a request for review, I waited for a while and when I viewed my blog on Google Chrome, Internet Explorer and Fire Fox, the warnings were gone. It was the best news that I received in a long time because not only was my blog starting to generate traffic and income, a large part of my life is in each of these entries which I value so much.
Though I am very happy that my blog has been restored, there are still other obstacles that I have to face. I need to reconnect with those who followed with my blog and that's going to difficult now that the primary blog community that made this possible has been shot down. Apart from that, I have to take steps to ensure that this doesn't happen again. Still , right now I am really happy and would to thank the Good Lord, Jhong Medina, Jannette Toral, my contacts and friends who sympathized and took their time to help me. It really is a great Easter Morning! Praise the Lord!