As I have mentioned several times on this blog, I am a very private person. I never give away too much of myself when I am with other people. I guess it stems from my loner nature and the fact that I can only connect with those who are now part of that circle of friends who we consider brethren when we do our weekend gigs. Still I also know that if I want people to understand me better, I have to open up a little more. With in mind, it reminds me of the song "Tell Me What's On Your Mind" by Information Society.
Whenever I hear this song, I feel like the nuts and bolts of a heavy machine is falling apart. Well going back to being very introverted, I've always went against the flow whenever I'm around people who are outside the circle. I feel that they just don't understand what makes me tick and even if they did, it's not their thing. I guess that's why I feel so awkward when it comes to going out with people outside the circle because I know everything that they like is what I don't like. It's not that I'm a grouch but I'm a very brooding type of person who needs to be with his kind.
Still no one is an island. As much as possible, I try to find some activity where we can get something in common. That I try to at least make an effort so that people would know that I am an okay guy. It'll take some time though but I hope I able to open and be accepted for who I am. I guest I'll just take it one step at a time.
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