Just Want To Stop Repeating This Cycle: Repetition By Information Society

I often blog about breaking an invisible cycle that I feel I've been going through again and again.  This is because I feel that what happened in the past seems to be happening again in the present.  It makes me feel like I didn't learn anything from what happened before.  It only makes me more determined not to repeat it again.  Right now I'm listening to Information Society's song 'Repetition" as I write this post to remind myself not to do so.

I know this song is about going back to relationships but it always reminds me to learn from what I have been through.  Hard to admit, I  still haven't.  If I did,  I wouldn't be going on and on about this sick cycle.  Just when I thought I learned my lesson, something happens and I find myself doing the same thing over again.  Once again fate played me for a fool.

Right now another cycle has once again repeated itself.  I'm not going to say what it is but it is making heart pound with worry.  Whenever events repeat itself, it sure takes the smile out of my face.  Well, if there is any consolation, this song is helping me calm down.  It's temporary relief till I find a way to break this cycle for good

So People Would Know You Better: Tell Me What's On Your Mind By Information Society

As I have mentioned several times on this blog, I am a very private person. I never give away too much of myself when I am with other people. I guess it stems from my loner nature and the fact that I can only connect with those who are now part of that circle of friends who we consider brethren when we do our weekend gigs. Still I also know that if I want people to understand me better, I have to open up a little more. With in mind, it reminds me of the song "Tell Me What's On Your Mind" by Information Society.

Whenever I hear this song, I feel like the nuts and bolts of a heavy machine is falling apart. Well going back to being very introverted, I've always went against the flow whenever I'm around people who are outside the circle. I feel that they just don't understand what makes me tick and even if they did, it's not their thing. I guess that's why I feel so awkward when it comes to going out with people outside the circle because I know everything that they like is what I don't like. It's not that I'm a grouch but I'm a very brooding type of person who needs to be with his kind.

Still no one is an island. As much as possible, I try to find some activity where we can get something in common. That I try to at least make an effort so that people would know that I am an okay guy. It'll take some time though but I hope I able to open and be accepted for who I am. I guest I'll just take it one step at a time.