New Year's Eve Is Upon Us Again: What Are You Doing On New Year's Eve By Nancy Wilkson

Well it's the second half of the holiday festivities.  Everybody is once again going crazy as they make preparations for New Year's Eve.  Some have brought stacks of fireworks and firecrackers while others are stacking up the ham , fruits and all the goodies to welcome 2013.  As for me, I'm not in celebratory mood and all I want is to get this all over with and be done with it.  Unlike Nancy Wilson's song "What Are You doing On New Year's Eve", I just want to mind my own business and can't wait to get back to work.

Can't wait to get back to work.  I don't believe I said that but with all the mounting problems and no solutions in site, I'm not going to hold my breath for a miracle.  It's not that I don't believe in miracles anymore but after debacle on Christmas Day, my mood for the holidays already dissipated.  Nothing good happened and Christmas was not even spared.  Right I feel like those sisters who burned in the song "Tea In The Sahara".  Help didn't come when we need it the most.

Well some vacation this turned out to be.  The miracle bullet and once again I was made to accept the unacceptable.  All I can say  that I am so upset.  I'm going to be a little bit more realistic this year.  At   least that way I won't be let down too hard.  As for New Year's Eve, I just want it over and done with.

Another Stressful Year Is About To Close: Until You Suffer Some( Fire And Ice) By Poison

This year has once again proven that life can be so cruel.  Once again anxiety and worry has tormented me to no end.  Not even the holidays were spared and my Christmas ended in a sour note.  I know that life is not easy and there times when it's gonna hurt but I'm beginning to think that this has been going too much lately.  That's why I am listening to the song "Until You Suffer Some( Fire And Ice)" by Poison.

You just can't win these days.  Just when you finally resolve one problem, another one comes out of the blue. It's like those jokes or gags from Looney Tunes only it's not funny.  Some would argue that  it's a fact of life and you should deal.  I agree with that but sometimes you're given too much to deal with.  The worst part about it is that nothing has changed.  Instead of seeing things get better, they only get worse and it sure is taking it's toll on me.

Well the year is about to close and I'm very happy to say goodbye to such a sorrowful year. I really don't know what the year 2013 will bring but at least the world didn't come to end like that dumb movie.  I won't put my hopes up but I'll keep on trying.  Nothing is easy in life but if you try hard enough then things will change and some people did that so can I.  I'm keeping that in mind as my only form of comfort during these hard times of fire and ice.

That Empty Feeling Brought About By The Storms In Our Lives: Storms By Fleetwood Mac

With the many disappointments that I've been getting, it sure does wear down on me.  You have high expectations that things will get better whenever the year starts.  Then something happens and the next thing you know, the whole year is ruined.  This has been going on for quite some time now and wonder how much more of this will occur.    Right now I am listening to the song "Storm" by Fleetwood Mac as I reflect on the many storms that the years have brought me.

Every year, something always happens that ruins my outlook as well my hopes and dreams.  Instead of hope, I get left with despair.  Instead of joy, I get mixture of sorrow and anger after things fall apart.  As much as I don't want to lay blame on anything or anyone, I can't help but feel that someone or something has been toying with me and my family.  Every time the year comes to an end, I sit forlorn and grieve for what has happened and what has been lost.

Right now I am in my room after calling it a day.  No time for rest and if I open my eyes the next day, the grind begins.  I am just waiting for all these brouhahas to end.  Will the new be better or will it conjure up another storm that will test me to the limit again.  Only time will tell I guess.

Same Old Blues: Same Old Blues By Eric Clapton

Why is it that just when things are starting to look up that something comes crashing down and everything falls apart.  It's like that coin that's within reach but some grabs and runs off.  You then find yourself back where you started only twice as worse as before.  It's just the same crap again and again.  I guess that's why I'm listening to Eric Clapton's song "Same Old Blues" right now.

Every year I say to myself that this is the year where I'm going to make it.  You learn all that you and pour your heart and soul into it.  You take every precaution but sometimes crap happens.  It's the last thing that you want to happen and it happened. You stand there and all your hard work has gone up in smoke.  It's either you're back where you started or like I said earlier, worse off than before.

This year is no different from the last couple of years.  Same old crap as always.  Still I keep trying and trying because I don't want to give up.  Somewhere, somehow, things will change and I'll keep on trying to make it happen.  It's just the same old blues every year.

Christmas Blues: Blues For Christmas By John Lee Hooker

I didn't blog yesterday.  I didn't have the strength for it as the Christmas I spent was ruined  What was supposed the most sacred of days and most joyous turned out to be a very cruel let down.  It left all of us who were present feeling very disappointed.  This is the reason why I'm blogging with the song "Blues For Christmas" by John Lee Hooker.

We spent practically a week to prepare for this occasion and it sure stressed me out.  The only thing that I ask for is that WE are ALL TOGETHER on Christmas Day.  Sadly, that didn't turn out to be as I waited in vain for nothing. It sure put a damper on my mood as the clock struck twelve and we all called it a night.  Instead of feeling thankful, I slept with anger and disappointment and for once in my life, I was glad to go to work the next day.  It was one of the worse Christmas I ever spent.

This is one of the few years where my Christmas fears had come true and boy do I hate it.  It looks like we end year and start the year with one heck of a problem.  Whatever jingle bells I had has been silenced and the merry has now become lousy.  The only place where I can take solace in the afternoon lunch break naps at the office where I finally the rest that I didn't get during my break.  Blues for Christmas sure is a bummer!

My Favorite Christmas Song Of All Time: Santa And His Old Lady By Cheech And Chong

You know it's Christmas the moment you see all those decorations being put in the houses and of course when the Christmas songs start playing non-stop till Christmas Day.  There are many songs about Christmas ranging from Jingle Bells to Silent Night.  Some are covered by well-known singers and bands who want to express their take on the Christmas season.  For me, there is one song that will always be my favorite Christmas song of all time.  That would be "Santa And His Old Lady" by Cheech And Chong".

Whenever it was December, 24K would play this song or I would always request it.  It's about some dude telling another his version about who Santa Clause is and how he lived near his neighborhood in the project.  All elements about the Christmas were still there only funnier with the midgets and reindeer with the Latin names as well as the goodies such the brownies and "magic dust".  The funny part in the end is the other still doesn't get who Santa Clause is and believes that he once played with this dude back in the day.  In the end, the other dude doesn't get it and they keep on talking till the song fades out.

As you guess, this isn't your typical Christmas song.  You have to be in the "zone" to appreciate its humor.  Since me and my brothers and pals always were, we always found it hilarious.  Still every Christmas I always listen to this song.  It was one way to deck the halls.  Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

Beating The Christmas Rush: Run Run Rudolph By Chuck Berry

Well it's the 24th and everybody's making a mad dash to get ready for the big day.  Everybody's making sure that no stone is left unturned.  Presents are accounted for and the food is now cooking and brew is now chilling.  Like every year, we do our best so that we can celebrate Christmas to the max.  Still, that hectic and stressful rush to prepare for Christmas celebration reminds me of the song "Run, Run Rudolph" by Chuck Berry.

What was suppose to be some vacation time to chill for me turned out to be a mad dash to get everything ready for the holidays.  I guess it can't be helped and I too want to make sure that things are in order.  I guess I too want to make sure that we have everything ready for the big day.  This only happens once a year and it's the time where family gathers and thank their blessings.  Still, this mad dash really left me pooped.

Well, we're getting ready as best as we can and there are still a lot of things to do.  I just hope that we are all together. I don't mind eating chips and drinking bottled water so long as I get to be with all the people I love.  That's why we do this every year.  So we run as fast as we can so that we can give the best that we can on Christmas Day.  Happy Holidays to all!!!!

Life Can Be So Mean: Mean Streak By Y &T

Well in two days it will Christmas so everybody is at break-neck speed. Still, as much as I am excited about celebrating Christmas, there's also a part of me that wants this year to be over.  Once again, the year has let me and life has left me feeling disappointed.  Sometimes life can be so mean.  Thinking and feeling that way reminds me of the song "Mean Streak" by Y & T.

Every year, I hope and pray that things will get better.  Instead, I get a ton load of crap and all of a sudden my world gets turned upside down and inside out. Just when you're dealing with a lot of crap from the previous years, more bad news comes pouring in.  I know life won't throw you things that you can't handle but me and a lot of other people already have our hands full as it is.  Life so can throw a mean one when it's the last thing you need.

Oh well, I just hope what I wish for the most would come true on this festive occasion.  Just a good day to forget about the disappointments and bad news.  After that I go back the grind and so much so much for the holidays when that happens.  Man I'm going to have to work harder if I want the coming year to be a better one.  Life for me has been mean with 12 years in the running and I hope to break that streak next year.

Believing In Myself And Others: Keep On Trying By Poco

You know I can't believe that Christmas is just around the corner.  Yet the developments that have  happened this year sure left me feeling down.  It's bad enough that a lot of times, I'm left feeling down but to see others fall on hard times really sinks my spirits to new lows.  Still, I am not going to give up on myself and others and I know that I try hard enough, I will make it.  To keep on believing and keep on trying reminds me of the song "Keep On Trying" by Poco.

When things don't go your way one too many times, it really puts a lot of doubts in your abilities on succeeding.  But if I give up now, I'll just wallow in regret and that will get me nowhere.  It also hurts me when I see people I care about fall on hard times or get into trouble.  I do what I can for them but I always believe in them.  I know how it feels when things fall apart but there were people who believe in me so I can do no less.

I know what the new year will bring but I do know nothing will change if I don't try hard enough.  I  just hope that we all get something better next year if we try hard enough this year.  How that will be done will be up to us I guess.  To see people happy and safe is all that I ask for.  For that I'll keep on believing in myself and others till that comes true.

Don't Let Others Dictate You/Think For Yourself: Grey Matter By Oingo Boingo

Ever those days when people get overbearing?  They tell you you're dumb and impose their own ideas on you as if you're some idiot who can't do anything for yourself? Those jerks tend to forget that you're different from them and when push comes to shove, you have to take a stand.  Think for yourself and assert who you are.  That idea came to me while listening to the song "Grey Mater" by Oingo Boingo.

A lot of times, peer pressure from groups and society in general tend to rob us of our individuality.  They shove all these ideas to us and force to like it.  Still when it doesn't feel right you know it's time to draw the line, especially when you're not happy with the direction that they're taking you to.  You have to find your own way.  A path that you know you can do and want to travel on and more importantly where you can think for and be yourself.

You be yourself and do what you want.  Just so long as you're happy and not under someone else's thumb, that's what's important.  You have a brain and a heart to decide what's best for you.  Don't let anyone else take that way.  Remember that grey matter will be helpful so use it wisely.

No Rest For The Weary: The Show Must Go On By Queen

Don't get me wrong cause I really love what I do. Apart from that, I'm always ready to help.  However, when you do too much or too much gets thrown your way, it's going to take a toll on you whether you like it or not.  The worst part about it is that it has to be done no matter how worn out you already are.  Running on empty while trying to deliver reminds me of the song "The Show Must Go On" by Queen.

Right now I am on vacation cause all the hectic workload and deadline meetings were taking its toll on me.  Unfortunately the same goes on my break and I think this break will break me rather than soothe me.  Just got back from an errand feeling like Eek The Cat after trying to help.  I get the feeling that the stress is just going to build up even more till the end of the holidays.  I'm gonna need a vacation for this vacation feeling tired and stressed as I am right now.

Well that's the story of my life.  No rest for the weary and nobody notices until it blows up.  I'm surprise to be more stressed after the holidays rather than be prepared for work.  Oh well, at least there's always those lunch-break naps.  Well just like the show, life goes on no matter how tired you are.

Oh Those Morning Cartoon Shows: Sugar, Sugar By The Archies

Remember when you were a kid, you'd wake up just a little bit early to catch the morning toons?  There was no cable that time and Japanese anime was banned by the government for being a bad influence on kids.  Back then, most of the toons that we watched were mostly from the late 60's to the 70's.  Still, when you're a kid, toons would always get your attention and you'd spend your time on the boob tube watching till it was over.  One of the toons that we watched was the "Archie's Comedy Hour" based on the comic book and one song that became popular was "Sugar, Sugar" by The Archies.

Since it was based on the comic book, it featured mostly gags about high school life.  Still it had its moments and this song helped make it popular.  Some would just dismiss it cause it was song that came from a toon but still it was catchy song.  The fact that it's still being sung and played in some oldies program is proof that it was good song.  We would watch this and all the other toons till 10:30 am when the toon time was over.

These days it's a different story, especially if you got cable.  There are a lot of cable channels that specialize in animation such as the classic Hanna Barbera, Looney Tunes and even Japanese Anime.  Still what made those cartoons so special was that they were shown during our time and although they didn't push the envelope, they were creative within their boundaries.  Even some of the songs that came out were cool.  This one will always be proof of that.

When The Morning's Still Dark: Captain For Dark Mornings By Laura Nyro

Every week day, I wake up really early in the morning.  It's become a habit of mine for quite sometime because ever since I was in high school.  I just love watching the change from night to day.  At the same time, it gives me a chance to clear some cob webs from my brain and at the same time, One good song to listen to at this time is "Captain For Dark Mornings" by Laura Nyro.

I feel a little drowsy and I know I should sleep a little bit more but sometimes there are too many things that run into my head the moment I wake up.  So I don't go back to bed for it's the only time apart from the evening that I can still enjoy some peace and quiet.  I savor the silence as bests as I can as surf the net or do some exercises.  As much as possible I get everything done before the sun starts to rise.  Yet as I do so, I try to relax so as to stay calm and be ready to face the day.

When the sun is on the rise so am I.  I shut everything off and make my way yo work.  Sadly whatever peace I enjoyed will vanish once I get my first heart attack for the day.  Well I do what I can till the day is over and I make my way home.  I close my eyes and wait for the dark morning to come.

When You Don't Want To Talk About It: I Don't Wanna Talk About It By Rod Stewart

You'll a person's not in mood for talk when he or she emits some kind of dark aura around you.  It comes off like smoke from ice.  Apart from that, there's that expression in their faces that tells you they're not in the mood to be bothered with.  Times like that, the best thing to do is to just give them some space.  That's the feeling I get when I listen to the song "I Don't Wanna Talk About It" by Rod Stewart.

I know this is a song but wanting to be alone after being disappointed can happen in any situation.  You feel your chest is heavy and everything stops as if someone casts a bad spell on you. It gets so bad that  people around you feel it as well.  It doesn't help that there are some nosy jerks who they know what you need but in reality, they don't.  All they do is make you feel worse and you shut yourself up even more.

Well in the end, you just gotta chill a bit.  Get some space and let it all out.  It will take a while but there's no to be stuck there.  Just give yourself some time and it will pass.  When it does breathe the fresh air again and move on.

Still Believe In My Dreams: Little Dreamer By Van Halen

Just celebrated my birthday two days ago but for some reason, I wasn't in a celebrating mood.  This was especially true when I looked at myself in the mirror after a rude awakening this morning.  Very little has been accomplished and more crap has been thrown my way.  That said I still believe that some of my dreams can still come true which is why I still carry on.  Still believing in my dreams reminds me of the song "Little Dreamer" by Van Halen.

It's bad enough that too many people are against the things that you want to do in life.  It gets worse when they don't come true.  Even when you ask the question why it didn't come true, deep inside you know the answers.  It gets harder when you when you get older and you see nothing's changing. You feel alone, desperate and disappointed and that feel gets worse when your time has come and gone.

Still, I go on and keep going on because I"m still here and that means there's still hope. I have to just re-evaluate what I'm doing.  I don't care about the criticisms anymore.  Listening to that is what got me nowhere in the first place.  I still believe and I know one day, I'll get it right.

It's A Bummer To Be Let Down: Don't Let Me Down By The Beatles

You know I've always been a good sport in life. When things don't go so well, I take it as bests as I can.  Still, lately I've accepting things that I can't accept and that's starting to get to me.  It's getting to the point where it's not funny anymore.  Every time I hear the song "Don't Let Me Down" by The Beatles, it reminds me how low one gets when things don't go your way.

I remember this is one of the songs that they sang on that roof that attracted passers-by who stopped and listened to them play.  Anyway, every time the year starts, I always work hard and hope for a good  one no just for me but for my family as well. Just when you think things are looking up, crap suddenly comes crashing in and everything's ruined.  Like I said earlier it's been happening a little too frequently and it gets worse every time it does.  Even though I accept, it still bums me out because just when things were going good, the opposite happens.

Now this year is slowly drawing to a close.  Funny part about it is that some are hanging Christmas Decors or doing shopping for the holidays whiles are stockpiling and digging bunkers for the so-called "End of the World" bit.  Well if the world doesn't end and if another year comes in, I hope it's a good one cause the last six years have left me disappointed and sad.  Getting let down is a hard pill to swallow and I've swallowed enough already.

Pushing To The Breaking Point: Breaking Me By Johnny Lang

Just woke this morning with an awful headache.  Had partied out with my co-workers and things went on to full swing and I just went with the flow.  I guess the reason why I let loose that night was just to forget all the crap that life's been throwing at me this year, a lot of which really hurt me to the brink of breaking. It has given me no rest ever since it started.  When I think about the crap that's driving to the breaking point, it reminds me of the song "Breaking Me" by Johnny Lang.

As this year draws to a close, I feel very depressed again.  I had high hopes when it started and just when things looked good, once again life starts playing cruel jokes.  Before you know it, the dark cloud forms and everything falls apart. It really hits you hard.  What makes it so insulting is when the crap keeps coming and you're hanging by a thread.  I swear life has a way of pushing you to the brink.

Still I go on.  As much it hurts, I'm not going to let this break me.  I still believe that somewhere in this dark tunnel is a way that leads to the light.  Though it's annoying that one problem after another is hurled at you like some stumbling block to keep you from reaching your goals, you shouldn't let that stop you.  Life drives you the breaking point but don't let it get to you so fight on till you reach your goal.  Keep on fighting no matter what.

Hard Just Keeps Getting Harder: Hard Life By Eddie Money

Well the year is winding down again and everybody's in a frantic pace as they preparations for the holidays.  For me, however, the holidays doesn't give me any relief from all the stress that has happened this year.  I hate to say this but for some reason it just exacerbates my stressful state.  Sadly, this year is another reminder of how hard life is.  Eddie Money tells it like it is in his song :Hard Life".

I had a lot of hopes when this year started and were going so well.  Then somewhere along the way, it happened.  When it did, I felt everything go down the drain as the darkness set in.  It's bad enough that there were so many things that are making life difficult but this took us all by surprise and an unpleasant one at that.  Just because people that they wouldn't give you something you can't handle, doesn't mean that they should give it anyway.  Right now this is still an issue and has filled me with worry since I heard it.

Life can be so cruel.  It gives you more problems when it;s the last thing that you need.  I just hope that this be resolved soon for I have had no rest since it happened.  I know life isn't fair but these days, it's been too unfair.  There's been too much bad and too little good.  It's just a grim and sad reminder of how hard life can be.

Still Lamenting The Closure Of My Favorite Radio Program: Come And Get These Memories By Martha And The Vandellas

Slept badly last Sunday when I heard my favorite radio program 24K was again taken off the air.  It sure left such a bad taste in my mouth that I want to punch whoever suggested this idea.  Unlike other nostalgia programs, 24K featured some of the most rare songs that were seldom played by other stations both then and now and more importantly, each song reflected memories of good times long gone.  When memories come alive as the song play on air it reminds of Martha and the Vandellas' song "Come And Get The Memories".

As I've said earlier, every memory that I have is reflected in every 24K song.  The good, the bad and even the ugly are all embodied in every song.  This is especially true for their one-hit songs and rare hits that were played when I was growing up.  The great weekends, the special people and good times are in each tune that 's me back to the past and everything all right.  It's the next best thing to a time machine and darn it, they took it off the air again.

Still, I have hope.  This program is too good to be taken off the air.  These songs are priceless and I will never tire of them.  I hope the management rethinks this because they are making a big mistake.  Right now I will bide my time and what for its return. When it does, the memories will come alive again with every song.

It Sucks That it's Off The Air: Goodbye By The Sundays

a  taken off the air.  They told me that the station was again making some changes.  My heart really sank when I heard the news. It was one of the few things that brightened things up for me during these tough times and now they're taking that away from me.  Hearing go off the air once again reminds me of the song "Goodbye" by The Sundays.

Man, even though my brothers tell to just download and save the songs that I like, it's different when you hear it on air.  You get to share it with everyone and they realize how good those song are, they too would also want to hear it again and again.  The fact that that shows has largest collection of old and rare hits is another reason why I listen to it every weekend.  Most of important of all, they reflect the memories of good times that I had when I was growing up.  I never tire of listening to them for they take me back in time and the past comes alive.

Well I guess I won't be charging my MP4 player for a while and my cellphone's battery need not be drained during Saturdays as the program that I love goes off the air yet again.  Still a program that good won't stay off the air for long.  I am crossing my fingers and will patiently wait for its return.  For now I again say goodbye to an old friend that has made me feel good all these years.

I Guess The Radio Will Remain Off Again: Bedside Radio By Krokus

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This morning I tuned in to my favorite radio program "24K Weekend" to listen to those rare and gold hits that were part of my youth.  As I sipped my coffee, I almost spat it out when I heard the dj say that this was the final edition of the said program.  I spent most of the day listening to the good old songs til my MP4's batteries wore out.  The worst part of it was the fact that I couldn't get a request in as fans kept the phone lines busy asking for their favorite 24k tunes.  When I hear the song "Bedside Radio" by Krokus, I feel kinda sad that once my favorite program has been axed.


I have often mentioned in my posts that before all these musical gadgets came out, all I had was the radio at my bedside where I would turn it and good music would start my day. I seldom bought tapes (there were no disc or internet to download from) because good was everywhere.  As I grew,  I noticed that all the good tunes were starting to disappear.  When it came to the point where I could no longer relate with the crap they play on air nowadays, 24K was my refuge for all the good tunes.


Well this isn't the first time, that 24K went off the air.  I don't what those blockheads are thinking when they came up with this idea.  Still, a program so good won't be down for long.  I believe one day 24K will again fill the airwaves with music that's got a lot of soul.  Till then, I'll listen to my collection or maybe stream a video at youtube till 24K returns and I know it will.

Best Describes How Tired I Am: I'm Tired By Savoy Brown

Just got home from work and again I feel pooped.  It's bad enough that you're tired to the bone and when you get home, you get more crap thrown right at you.  Right now, I'm slumped in my room and I find thinking about the could'ves and would'ves again.  I guess it's because I'm so tired of this endless cycle where nothing good comes true and bad things keep on coming.  Savoy Brown's song "I'm Tired" really sums up how tired I feel.

As I lie in my bed and listen to this song, it really lists down all the things that I'm tired about.  Things like dreams and ambitions that never came to be. Doing that you never like rather hated doing as well as all the lectures of what went wrong along the way.  Opportunities lost and the actions or inactions that caused it.  Most of all that feeling of being stranded and confined and feeling hopeless that you're trap there forever.  The worst part is that the list goes on and on.

The only good thing that I feel right now is the fact that I'm getting sleepy and hopefully when I wake up things will be better.  Please don't be alarmed.  I'm just venting out my frustrations the best way I know how.  I don't blame anybody but when things aren't going well, these thoughts really enter my head.  It really bears down on you when you're tired.

Stuck Up Snobs: Bourgeouis Blues By Taj Mahal

It should be clear that by now we live in society that respects everybody regardless of race, social status,etc.  We should judge people by what they do with their lives and how they treat others. Sadly there are some stuck-up snobs out there who think otherwise.  They see themselves as better than other people and often get a kick out of degrading of others or making fun of their plight.  What I think of jerks like these, the song "Bourgeouis Blues" by Taj Mahal comes to mind.

There are times when I hear stories from friends who experienced this kind of maltreatment.  They find themselves in a place where they don't feel accepted cause their not with the "in-crowd".  They think that because of their high status, they can just look down on people.  Sometimes when you meet people like that, you'd wonder what century they came from.  People like that are the reasons why revolutions happen.

I don't judge people rather I look for the good in them rather than put them.  As for snobs like these, enjoy standing on that pedestal for as long as you can.  One day somebody might knock you off your butt.  That's when you realize that simple folks aren't push-overs.  So change your attitude before something like that happens.

Again I'm Glad The Day Is Over: Here Comes The Night By Nick Gilder

Whew, just got home again after a very long day that was made longer by that (yuck) ritual that I wouldn't wish on others.  I eat my dinner then do dishes and make sure eveything's secure.  Then I take a shower and relax a bit.  It seems that when the night comes only then can I breathe easily.  As I relax, I listen to Nick Gilder's song "Here Comes The Night."

I guess life has become a little to monotonous lately.  I would've accepted that if everything was cool.  Unfortunately, there are some  things that hang heavily on my mind.  It gives no rest whether I'm awake or asleep.  Until it's resolve, I don't think I'll be getting any peace.  The only time when I do get some is when the day is over and I'm listening to my 24k tunes.

I know that this is more of an "invite" song but then again we can all use some when times are low.  Well I'm afraid I got no time for that.  My room and tunes are my only solace.  Well the day is over again and the night is here.  I'll just chill out a bit then call it a night.

That Long Hard Glare: Angry Eyes By Kenny Loggins And jim Messina

I've done a lot of blog post regarding eyes.  This is because no part of the human body convey so much emotion or reveal an individual's personality than his eyes.  This is especially true when a person starts to glare at you when he or she is in a bad mood.  You'd know right away that you better keep your distance.  I get that idea when I hear the song "Angry Eyes" by Kenny Loggins and Jim Messina.

Nothings stops a person in his or her tracks than seeing someone glare at him or her.  At the very least, it makes you feel uneasy or you realize you did something wrong.  I guess that's why Hollywood tough guys really work on their glares cause a really good glare would make an impression that you shouldn't mess with this guy or else.  The worst kinds of glares that you can get is when it comes from your love one or your boss.  You know you're toast when they look at you that way.

  It's best to give that person some space to just to chill a bit.  There are times when we don't feel happy and when people are too nosy, that's the best way to make them back off.  Still, you can't stay that way forever.  When you feel better loosen the glare and try to reach out.  That way people will know thatWell if a person has such a look in hiis or her face, then it's obvious that something's bothering that person you're okay.

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Caged Souls: Soul Cages By Sting

A remember in the movie "Scent Of A Woman" Colonel Frank Slade said that there is nothing worse than an amputated spirit because there is no prosthetic for that.  Whenever that line, I remember seeing people with disabilities do great things and at the same time there are people who look perfect yet fail at every turn.  I guess it goes deeper than just an injury m but something deep in the mind or the soul that causes their inability to do something.  When I think of people who are imprisoned by their own fears or experiences, the song "The Soul Cages" by Sting comes to mind.

For me, this song is about the intangible things that hold us back and keep us prisoners or they could be a prison of our own making because we chose to give up and hide somewhere deep where no one can reach us.  When that happens we feel that everything is out reach and we are out of touch with everyone else.  People wonder why despite the fact that it's all out there, we still don;t take action and when it's gone we wallow in self-pity. It's like can't has become an invisible shackle that keeps us from going for what we want.  When that happens we destroy ourselves from the inside-out.

I know what it's like to walk around in an invisible cage which is why I'm writing this post and I can tell you it's a lousy feeling to be held prisoner from within.  It took me a while to shake off and that's why I'm finding my way.  For those of you who feel hemmed in or shackled, break loose while you still can.  Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed.  To be caged soul is the same as being dead even if you are still alive.  So break free from it and breathe the free air.

  

People Do The Craziest Things: The Way You Do The Things That You Do By The TemptationsHow

Sometimes I wonder how I get into certain situations that I wish I was never part of.  As much as possible  I make it a point to mind my own business.  Sadly, there are times when something comes out of the blue and before I know it I'm in too deep.  Well when happens I have no to choice but to go with the flow.  When it comes to the sudden crazy things that people do, the song "The Way You Do The Things That You Do" by The Temptations comes to mind.

Just when you think it's going to be nice and peaceful, something or someone suddenly rocks your world.  You can't even argue because it's a worthy cause.  Well, like it or not I'm going to help cause I'm already in it.  The worst part is that I'm the one who winds up stressed out in a situation that I shouldn't have been in.  While everyone is cheering that the job gets done, I'm slump tired somewhere like an deflated tire.

I know this song is about people who wondrous things with the way that they do them.  I know it's a feel-good song but in my case, I'm the one who's still seeing stars from getting my world rocked.  How I wish for once someone would come and do something that would more like what the song is telling us.  Instead, I get my world turned upside down. When I think about all the crazy things that people do, I breathe a deep sigh.

Tired Of Being The Fool: Does A Fool Ever Learn By Helix

Right now I am still dwelling on those two tough time where I found myself down in the dumps.  Though things are a bit better now, those times have left me feeling somewhat too cautious.  The fact that I've been there twice doesn't mean I want to make the same mistake again.  I want to learn from them to avoid doing them again cause I don't want to be called a fool again.  Not wanting to fumble again reminds me of the song "Does A Fool Ever Learn" by Helix.

As much as I agree with the saying "The worst mistake a person can make is to be afraid to make to make a mistake" or something to that effect. Still when you find yourself doing the same mistake, you will be called a fool.  That's the reason why I try to be careful about everything I do these days.  I'm not getting any older and I can't afford any more mistakes especially now that times are tough.  Most of all, I don't to be a fool again for my pride and dignity was lost twice and each time I didn't like it.

Nobody likes being a fool for losing it all due to some mistake or slip but it happens.  The questions is if you're gonna let happen again and again.  I guess we have to give people a chance especially when they    want to move forward so badly.  As for me, I just want to get my life in order and move on for the rest of my life.  I just hope nothing happens or else I might wind up playing  the fool again.

Don't Want To Repeat That Ever Again: Headed For A Fall By Fire Fall

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I have often mentioned in my post some of the periods in my life where I fell to the bottom of the barrel.  This happened not only once but twice.  The second longer and more painful than the first.  One thing I learned is that I do not want to go through that experience again.  Every time I hear the song "Headed For A Fall" by Fire Fall,

Those two periods where my life fell to an all-time low has always haunt me everyday.  I never wanted it to happen but sadly it did.  It was financially, emotionally and mentally traumatizing as I felt so alone and powerless and yet I can only blame myself for what happened.  The fact that it hjappened once was bad but for it happen again when I was in need really hurt.

Right now I am still trying to get together and though some things have been restored, I still have a long way to go.  I know there are people out there who are probably going through the same thing I experienced and I feel for them. My advice for them is be careful what you decide; don't impulsively and think you're safe.  Just when you think nothing can go wrong that's when it will.  Tread carefully or else you might be headed for a bad fall.

What Was Was: Was By Kenny Wayne Shepherd

You know they say what happens and in the past is past.  No matter how many times you go back to it, you can't change it.  What's worse is if you continue to dwell on it, you'll be trapped in it forever. That's why it's always important to move on.  When I think about what was, the song "Was" by Kenny  Wayne Shepard comes to mind.

Sometimes when you dwell on the past, you don't remember much of it except its impact on you.  This is especially true when it was some thing that was bad or worse something that scarred you to this day. As time goes by, when you remember that event, you tend to have some differences on how it happened.  Yet one thing will remain constant and that's the pain that you've felt during that time.  That will never change and it stays with you no matter what you do.

Well what was will always be that.  There's nothing you can do to change it.  That's why for me, it's best to move on. I don't want to take control of my life.  That part of me is over so I move on in the hopes of finding something better.  Cause that's what life is all about and that's why I keep moving on.

Another Day Has Ended: Daylight Fading By Counting Crows

Just got back work and it's very late.  I had cold dinner and I got ready for bed.  Still despite accomplishing all those tasks there are still some things that remain unresolved.  Those are things that keep bothering me day by day for quite some time now.  Now another day has ended and once again, I feel that I got no answers.  I guess that's the reason why I'm listening to the song "Daylight Fading" by Counting Crows.

Though I don't speak about it, deep inside there are things that bother me which I can't shake off.  I guess this is brought about by the fact that things are getting tougher and tougher.  Each day I try my best to find the solution but alas I always run into a brick wall.  Before I know it the day has ended.  Once again I feel frustrated.

Still tomorrow is new day.  With new days comes new opportunities as well as new hope.  I guess that means I get to try again.  Don't how many tries it'll to get right but maybe one day will that day.  As I think about it to warm me up, I get ready to call it a night.  The day has faded so that all for now.

Harsh But True: Only The Strong Survive By Bryan Adams

When we look back at the past generations. one thing that can say about them is that they were a strong bunch.  Especially those who were born from the 20's to the 50's because they went through the toughest and yet they manage to come through it all and made their dreams a reality. Sometimes I wonder if we're ever measure up to them? These days the times are also getting tougher are we and the generations to come up to it?  That's the question I ask myself when hear Bryan Adams' song "Only The Strong Survive".

I wonder about that because there have been a lot of bad things happening around here making this world a difficult place to live in.  Problems \just keeping more than you can solve it.  It's like a video game where a mass horde just comes at you and all your lives and weapons are just running trying to fend them off.  Still if you give up that's it and if there's one thing I don't want to do anymore is giving up.

For me, I've made a lot of bad choice that I gotten either nowhere or in an awful mess.  Still, I won't accuse me of being quicker.  I'm still alive so that means there's still things I can do.  This world may get meaner but it won't get me down.  Only strong survive and I'll stick by that old motto as I keep up with life's hard jokes.

(P.S. Unfortunately this is the only video that I can post from YouTube.)

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Swinging And Being At Peace: Iduyan Mo By Basil Valdez

Back when I was young, I remember one of the things that I looked forward to during the summer vacations was when my parents would buy a large hammock. We'd tie to a tree at one end and to post on another.  Once it was set up we would all climb and on board and swing as high as we can.  We'd swing so high, we thought we were flying.  It was one of the fun things that we did when we were kids.  Remembering that hammock and all the fun we had with it reminds of the song "Iduyan Mo" by Basil Valdez.

When I remember that hammock, there were also times when I'd just lie there the whole day and do nothing.  Still, it was relaxing and all I could see was the sun shining down on our garden while the mango trees gave me some shade.  During that state, I felt that time stood still.  If I had my way, I'd stay like forever.  I never more at peace while lying down that hammock.

Nowadays, there's no good place to relax.  The next best thing is a lunch break nap at the office and it's so hard to get some snooze time when your sitting on a chair and putting pressure on your arms with your head. The hard part is waking up with your arms numb due to the weight of your head.  All I have left is the memory of that hammock.  It was in those times when I was swinging and being at peace that I really miss most.

First Rock Song That Made Me Want To Rock: Tayo'y Mag-Rock And Roll By Maria

I remember the first time I heard of Pinoy Rock or rock music written and performed by Filipino bands with locally written lyrics was from my brother.  I remember he pasted the wall of his room with cut-outs of Pinoy bands and their logos that he got from music magazines.  One of the earliest songs that I heard from that genre was from the band Maria Cafra.  One of their songs was one of my first favorite Pinoy Rock songs,  That song was "Tayo'y Mag-Rock And Roll".

The songs message was simple:  Forget your blues and let's rock!  It was a very uplifting sound and it was great for chasing the blues away.  First time this caught my ear, I was hooked and I kept playing this song again and again.  The only person that didn't approve of this song was tutor and she wonder why a kid my age was listening to this music.  The answer was simple:  It rocks!  Since it rocks, it a cool song and that's that.

I'm really glad that YouTube posted this song.  I've missed listening to it for such a long time.  I thinks I'll be repeating it again and again for tonight.  That's a sign that it's a good song.  Especially when you just rock and rock hard.

Hanging In There When Times Are Tough: You'll Never Walk Alone By Gerry And The Pacemakers

A few days I woke up and did my usual routine exercise and breakfast before heading out to work.  As I got ready I was the Sports Channel and they had a soccer program on and I thought of turning the channel.  Then I was surprised as fans from Liverpool started singing I song that I knew way back then.  What made me watch it more was the intensity in the way the fans sang that song with one of them wiping his eyes after singing it.  The song was "You'll Never Walk Alone" by Gerry And The Pacemakers.

I guess this song caught my attention because of the many storms that's happening lately.  Things are so hard right now and every choice that I make seems to strike out.  The worse part is it often happens at times when so much is at stake and these things fail me.  Hearing this song kinda gives me some solace when things have not gone as I had hoped.  I dare say it helps me stay gives me hope to stay in the mix no matter how daunting it can be.

Nobody likes it when things fall apart and times are tough.  Still, you have to hang in there.  It's easy to just give in during times like these.  Still, there are people who still believe in you which means things aren't that bad.  Bad times are a part of life but so are the good times.  So long as you have hope, you'll never be alone in your struggles and if you hang in there, things will be better.

  

Still Trying To Reach For The Light: Nobody Said It Was Easy By Le Roux

Whether we are young or old, we all have dreams and aspirations that we want to see fulfilled.  Everybody tells you that it's all out there and it's yours for the taking.  That said, don't expect things to simply land on your lap.  If you think that way, you're going to be in for a tough time.  Listening to Le Roux's song "Nobody Said It Was Easy" often reminds me of the struggles it takes if you really want to make your dreams come true.

When someone tells you that it won't be easy don't take it negatively.  They're just telling you the truth no matter how daunting it sounds.  It's easy to have a dream or a goal but you have to realize that making it come true is another story.  A lot of times, you'll do it yourself and you can't rely on others.  The worse part is that it won't come true instantly and there will be times when you feel frustrated that you're tempted to give it up.

That doesn't mean that you should just give up just because things are so hard.  If that were the case, I would've thrown in the towel a long time ago.  The fact that people told me it was impossible makes me more determined to succeed.  Though I have to admit that I'm still feeling my way around, I'm still hanging in there.  I still believe despite the nasty obstacles that life throws at me.  I'm sure one day I'll make it come true and when that happens, the light will shine.

Here Today Gone Tomorrow: Touch And Go By Rupert Holmes

They say that nothing lasts forever in this world.  I learned that the hard way.  When the good times came in, everyday was a joy and it seemed that it would go on and on.  Then all of a sudden, the party was over and the harshness of reality just wrecked it all.  When the party's over, it's definitely over. How fast the times change from this to that and the things we lose along with it reminds me of Rupert Holme's song "Touch And Go".

When is it good?  That's when everything is going your way and you feel no stress,  You're inspired and feel no stress despite some hassles that the day may bring.  When the good times are gone and the bad times set in, things start to fall apart.  Everything you work on just doesn't cut it and a lot of times what you thought were opportunities turned out to be a waste of time.  What's worse is that there's no one to help you when that  happens and what's worse is that you get heaped with criticisms that  never seems to end.  How fast things can change from good to bad.

You never know when these things will happen so you just have to do your best to be prepared when it does.  I guess that's why when the times are good, we live it up while we still can.Once it's over and the hardships begin, it'll be a distant memory.  Sometimes your up and sometimes you're down.  That's how life is when everything is touch and go.

Sitting Around Somewhere Just Looking At The Sunset: Sitting

Whether I'm at home or on vacation, I'd like to start my day and end my day sitting somewhere in a comfortable spot where the scenery is good.   In the morning, I witness the sun starting to chase the night away as a new day rises while drinking my coffee.  After a hard day's work, I'd go to the same spot and watch the sun's color turn orange as it sets down at the day's end. Enjoying the view while forgetting all the bad things that have happened.  For some reason, I feel at peace when I do that.  Doing that reminds me of the song "Sitting On The Dock Of The Bay" by Otis Redding

Every time I would be ask to draw myself at workshops I often depict myself sitting somewhere gazing at the sun.  Even when I was studying,  I often try to look for places where I can be by myself where there's a lot of peace and quiet.  Why do I do this?  It's because I'm trying to find some place where I can be at peace.  More importantly, maybe I'm trying to find peace of mind.

Things are more hectic now.  I seldom have time to gaze at the rising and setting of the sun as make preparations for the day's task.  The best I can do is simply look out my window and breathe a deep sigh.  Hopefully when all things are settled, I'll be find a peaceful place.  And when I do, I hope to find some peace of mind.

Another Song That Reminds Me Of Life's Circular Course: Full Circle By Collective Soul

No matter what I do, there are times when I feel that life seems to take a certain course.  It starts at a certain point only to end at a certain point.  It always does so at fixed amount of time.  Just when you think that you've avoided that course, you realize that you just ran it in the end.  I got reminded of that when I was listening to Collective Soul's song "Full Circle".

You can say that I've been dwelling that "vicious cycle" that I've been trying to break that I have been blogging about.  You do what you can and take every precaution.  You look out for the signs and try your best to learn from every mistake.  Still something always comes out of the blue.  When that happens you find yourself back in that cycle again like dude who's been pushed into a roller coaster and tied there to ride it again and again.

This year was no different.  Sometimes the signs are subtle you don't even notice them till it's too late.  Man, it stinks whenever that happens.  Still I'm not giving up even if it's getting me down.  I will figure out how to break this course or cycle or whatever it is no matter how long it takes.

Giving It Your All: Everything In My Heart By Corey Heart

Everyday life just keeps getting harder and no one is spared.  As if the weak is being weeded out from the strong.  Still with a lot of things at stake, you just can't give up.  If you want to succeed, you have to give it your all.  When it comes to giving your all, the song "Everything In My Heart" by Corey Hart comes to mind.

They say if you're going to to do something half-hearted, you're most likely going to fail.  The same is true when you have doubts or hesitations.  If you believe it is possible, it will erase all doubts in your mind like gate that's opening letting you into the place you want to go.  Sure you need to know the facts to get it right.  Still, when you're determined that means nothing can stop you. Anything is possible if you are dedicated enough.

Why am I blogging about this?  I guess it's to remind myself of that lesson.  These days, there are too many things that's putting me down.  The worst is that it's the truth.  Still, now that I know the truth, that won't stop and I should use it to my advantage especially if I put my heart and mind to it.

Will Always Love The Old Songs: It's The Same Old Song By The Four Tops

The reason why I never tire of tuning to 24K Weekend that happens every Saturday.  As I've said again and again in most of my posts, the songs being played can't found anywhere else for they the rarest of the rare.  Apart that, the memories of my past come alive with every song being played.    I never grow tired of them as I request them every Saturday. It's just like that song "It's The Same Old Song" by The Four Tops.

Why do I never tire of the old songs?  Like I said earlier, each song is a part of the things I experienced when I was young.  Sometimes I can use to reflect on certain situations that I find myself in.  Still, the best reason is that I had a lot good times when these songs came out.  It's like the past coming alive and you're back reliving the glory days.  Those tunes are a part of you and that's why you never tire of them.

Today you can surf the internet and download your favorite tunes for free.  You can store them in a flashdisk or burn them on a CD to preserve them.  Though I've collected quite a lot of my favorite songs and stored them in a disk, I still request them on 24K.  That's because I want to hear them on the airwaves where everyone who's listening can hear them as well.  They may tend to play the same songs every weekend but it doesn't matter cause these special songs or they wouldn't be worth their weight in 24K Gold.