For All Those Angry People Who've Reached Their Limit: I Don't Care Anymore

As I have mentioned before, I'm easy when it comes to dealing with other people. Most of the time, I'm the one who backs down just to settle things amicably. It happens so often that people often remark that if I was an explosive device, I'd have a very long fuse. Still, just like everyone else, I have my limits and once the fuse is lit and hits the power enough is enough. You called down the thunder you asked for it and to heck with the consequences. When my anger reached its peak and I don't care anymore, the song " I Don't Care Anymore" by Phil Collins comes to mind.

The problem with people is that when you're too nice, they tend to abuse you. These are the kind of people who really make me see red. They're the ones who play with fire only to get burned themselves. I don't like getting angry but I'm not going to let some jerk keep annoying me. Times like that I don't care anymore. You made this mess so clean up and see if I care.

When I get in mad mode, I just want to throw my hands up and leave. Anyone who tries to push it might wind up with a kick in the face. Like anyone else who get pissed, I too need some time to cool off. I sometimes hate myself when my emotions take hold of me which is why I don't like getting angry. At that point, I really don't care anymore.

When It Was Easy To Party Out When You Wanted To: Let's Get Crazy Tonight

Day in and day out, it seems like everyday is the same. Nothing changes and you're lucky that if nothing bad happens before the day draws to a close. Pretty monotonous life huh? When you were younger, you didn't have to deal with this crap. Whenever you had the itch to do something all you had to was pick up the phone and let the party begin. Remember those sudden urges to just party reminds of Rupert Holmes' song "Let's Get Crazy Tonight".

The fact that you can just party out of the blue when you were younger goes to show just how much time you had on your hands. A few brews and a good sound system and instant party. Once the gang arrives, let the party begin! It won't stop until the last bottle is empty and everybody's passed out on the floor. It really was a crazy way to pass the time.

Right now, there are a lot of things to attend to. Hopefully, things will look up with these months as things are starting to pick though slowly. When bears fruit and becomes sustainable, then I'll be able to party again. You can say I'm being too strict with myself but I want to make sure that thing are cool before doing anything else. I guess when I go crazy, let it all the way to savor every moment and let nothing stop it.

It's In The Family : Running In The Family By Level 42

I know I'm beginning to sound monotonous about about being tense everyday but I just can't help it. Things aren't happening yet and though things are still okay, it doesn't give me much comfort. One thing that gave me reassurance was what my brother told me. He reminded me that I was my father's son which meant that you are strong and never forget it. Being reminded of that also reminded me of the song "Running In The Family" by Level 42.


Though we acted differently, there are times when we share the same traits as our parents. It just doesn't manifest itself that often or we just have different interest. Still, the passion is there and its the same passion that runs deep in the family as well as the resolve not give and until we achieve what we set out to do. Even if the paths we take are different, the way and attitude is always there. It really struck me upon realizing it.

Well things are still up in the air right now but I'm still have my nose to the grind. I may not be as smart or aggressive as my father but I won't give up. There are somethings that a person has to face and resolve and for me this is it. Though still apprehensive, I'll go on. This is because it runs in the family.


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Unwind A Bit After Work: Happy Hour By The Housemartins

I remember blogging about how I'd have a drink or two before going home. Though it may not have been a healthy habit physically,mentally and emotionally you get a lot out of your mind and heart. This is truly so when you have good people to talk to while you enjoy your drink. After a weary and sometimes bad day, you really need to take some time to get it all out of your system. Remembering those times when you unwind a bit before going home reminds me of the song "Happy Hour" by The Housemartins.

When work sucks and you feel the same way, sometimes you want to just get it off your chest before going home. Having a few brews with someone who's had his or her share of crap helps you open up about the remains of the day. Just go to a good place where the atmosphere is cool and the drinks are cheap. Pretty soon the smile replaces the scowl and you feel relaxed after a tensed. Not wanting to overdo it, if you feel better, then that's the time to call it a day.

It's been a while since I shared a drink with my friends (inner-circle). Especially now, that things are a bit chaotic and I'm needed here at home as soon as work is done. Still, it's starting to take it's toll on me as I wake up and go to sleep tense. I just hope that what I am working on will finally bear fruit and be sustainable so that from their I can work on other things that can help ease the situation around here. Once all of this is resolved, I'd gladly have a real good drink and have a good time cause by then it'll really be happy hour.

I Guess I'm In It Now: Into The Fire By Dokken

They say that you shouldn't look fore trouble because trouble will surely find you sooner of later. I was never one for getting into trouble because of that. Life is hard enough as it is. Unfortunately, whether you like or not, the crap will hit the fan and your going to have to deal with it. Times like that, you have to take the bull by the horn. When you're in it deep, the song "Into The Fire" by Dokken comes to mind.

For young people who complain about life, my advice to them is enjoy your youth while you still can. When problems hit you, that's when it separates the lions from the lambs. I was hoping for a happier year this year but a tragedy shattered that hope. It's affected all of us and right now we are coping with it. Not a day goes by when I worry about what the future will bring. Still, that doesn't mean that I'll curl up and die because I swore that I'll make it through this one way or another.

I know it's easier said than done. Right now the things that I am working still haven't reaped results as I had hoped. Still, I won't give up because there's a lot stake here. For once in my life, I really want to win. Even if I'm in deep, I'll make it out of here.

Reminds Me Of My Nanny/How My Favorite Songs Affect Me: Yesterday Once More By The Carpenters

Today is Saturday again and that means it 24K again. Today is also my late Nanny's birthday and I miss her a lot. What the two have are the fond memories of the good times that I have about the good time that I had in the past. She was a second mother who raised us through the years and cheered us up when we were down. Now that she's gone, I think about her a lot and just like my favorite 24K songs, her memories really bring back the past so vividly that it sometimes overwhelms me. I remember one of her favorite songs was "Yesterday Once More" by The Carpenters.

Like any of my top 24K songs, this one really makes me stop what I'm doing and just want to listen to it. With this song, the memories of the good times I spent with her come alive and I hear her laughter and remember how she stood by us like a true mother. I remember when I took her out to a movie and treated her to the mall, I felt happy and proud to do something for her in return for all that she's done. I wish I could've done more before she passed away. Not a day goes by when I don't think of her.

Wherever she is, I hope she's doing fine because she deserves it after all that she has done for all of us. I remember I saw her in dream where she was in a party and she was smiling. Someone told me that it was a sign that she's in heaven and I hope that's true. I bet right now, she, my father and grandfather are having a great time somewhere up there. Happy Birthday Ads, I miss you a lot.

This Definitely Isn't America: This Is Not America By David Bowie

When Barack Obama won the 2008 elections, people hoped that change would come at last after a tumultuous eight years under the Bush Administration. Hopes bringing the war to an end as well as fixing the economy were high on the hopes of Americans when he was sworn into office. Everyone heaped praises for him being the first African-American President as his youth, eloquence and image captured the imagination of Americans and the world as a whole. These days it's a different story as more people are now dissatisfied with the Obama and his policies as it is counter to what Americans believe in. This recent 360 degree view of the current U.S. President reminded me of the song "This Is Not America" by David Bowie.

This is the soundtrack from the movie "The Falcon And The Snowman" about two Americans who sold secrets to the Russians. Even though I am politically right of center, I was willing to give the Obama a chance since the U.S. economy went down during the Bush Administration. Unfortunately, many of Obama's policies run counter to that of the American character which put to much emphasis on big government and his programs wold burdened already cash-strapped Americans who are having a hard time staying afloat. To sum it up, all of his policies are the ones that make people more dependent on government rather than encourage self-growth. To top it off, he keeps blaming Bush just to remind people this wasn't his mess.

Correct me if I'm wrong but the U.S. that I remember was a country where people chased their dreams; were proud of who they were and were fiercely independent. It's no wonder the Tea Party Movement is growing because these want that America back again. I guess we'll in the November elections and in 2012 if Obama will still remain in Office. The negative reaction to his polices is proof that people don't want that kind of America. I guess Obama and the progressives really underestimated the true nature of the American character.

Looking For The Person You Once Were: Everybody's Looking For Jack By Colin James Hay

Way back when you were younger, things were different. Life was simple and the future was full of promise. Back then when people look at you, they say that you were full of potential that you were destined for big things. You thought that it was so easy to just go out there and it would fall into your lap. Sometimes things don't turn out the way you thought they would and in the process the person you once were or were expecting to be gets lost over the years. When that happens, I remember Colin James Hay's song "Everybody's Looking For Jack".

Sometimes having a lot of potential is not enough to ensure that you'll get where you're going. We've all seen such people tumble down the road from time to time. It sure is sad when that happens. Whether they didn't try or something bad happened, sometimes these people failed to reach their potential. They were the least likely people who would wind up in such a situation. We are left wondering where that person who was so full of promise disappear to.

What have we learned from this? Potential isn't enough for one to be successful in the future. You have to have drive to achieve your dreams because life is not easy and you have to fight every inch of the way to become that person people believed that you would be. Some say it's not too late and you can still find that golden boy inside you if you just move. It won't be easy but if you keep trying, then that person will be back again. When that day comes back, I guess people will find Jack again.

Why I Hate Making Mistakes: Mistake Number Three By Culture Club

They say that no matter how careful we try to be, mistakes happen. They also said even if mistakes happen, we should not be afraid to try again. As much as I agree with the second sentence, there are times when making a mistake can really hit you hard. Sometimes it not only affects you but also people around you and that makes it worse. Whether it's because we took something for granted or something just happened out of the blue, when a mistake happens, you can bet the consequences are catastrophic. when I think about mistakes and their consequences, Culture Club's song "Mistake Number 3" comes to mind.

When I was young, I remember the stern reprimand that we got from our parents when we made a mistake. They made sure that we understood what would happen if we did it again and we did our best not to. As a result, I've come to realize that we make mistakes, other people get affected as well. If it was just me, it would be okay. If other people got hurt, it would really bother me.

Still, we can't let that stop us from trying. We just have to learn things along the way. There is no full proof guarantee that things won't go wrong. I know now that although it's hard when mistakes happen, you have to face up to it. More importantly, you have to learn from and grow from it. In the end, you have to chalk it up as one of life's lesson and move on.

Back When There Was No Stress: Feels Like Heaven By Fiction Factory

I remember the good old days when life was simple and problems were non-existent. The only thing that you worried about was what to do for the day. No matter what you did, at the end of the day, everything was all right. Those were the days, huh. Remembering those care-free days reminds me of the song “Feels Like Heaven” by Fiction Factory.

Man, the only thing that I was worried about that time was having trouble with school work but I always did my chores and passed my lessons despite the difficulties. I had to or it would have cut in on my fun time. Looking back, I never realize just how easy life was back then. There was always something to do and it was always fun.

These days, It’s a different story as responsibilities keep popping up and deadlines have to be met. These days, I worry about the future as the consequences of my mistakes are catching up with me. I just hope I get it together before things start crashing down. Maybe one day, I’ll get to feel that care-free feeling that we once enjoyed in the past. I’d give anything to feel like that again.

Wishing And Making Wishes Come True: Wishing By Flock Of Seagulls

Every time I think about the band Flock Of Seagulls, the first thing that comes to mind is the outrageous hairstyle that their lead-singer wore at the time. It was combination of hawkman/wolverine that definitely caught people’s attention. Lately, however, there is one thing that got my attention from this group. It has something to do with wishing and making wishes come true. The song is of course, called wishing.

Like a lot of songs at the time, this one is about wishing to be with someone. For me, it’s more about wishing and making something come true. It’s okay to wish for something but there is a difference between wishing and actually making it come true. If you’re stuck with just the wishing part, chances are you’re not going to get anything done. You have to be ready to do what it takes to make things happen.

As for me, I am currently working on something right now. I’m taking it one step at a time to learn more so that I know what I’ll need to do. I really want to get it right cause if I do, then it will really help ease things around here. Hopefully, I’ll be able to make things happen soon. It’s better than just wishing.

Another One Of Those Get Up And Go/Feel Good Songs: Jet By Paul Mccartney And Wings

Well the night has come and the day is officially over. Once again tomorrow is Monday and I already feel the lead in me getting heavier. It's at these times, that I need a good motivational song to get me going for the start of the week. One that jolts me awake and makes me feel good at the same time even if it is Monday. One song that fits the bill is Paul Maccartney And Wings'song "Jet".

It's been so long since I listened to this song that once it crossed my mind, I was surprised. I gave it a listen again and boy it sure sounded good. Now this is the stuff that makes me feel good during the day. If they had more songs like this on the airwaves, I'd bet people wouldn't downloading tunes on the net anymore. That goes to show just how good the music was back then.

Well, I'm wrapping up a few things before I call it quits for the day. One for sure, I'll be listening to this song when I wake up in the morning. It's the next best thing to strong coffee and what's best is that there's no caffeine. Two birds with one stone is what I say about this song. I feel good and motivated to start the week.

Something Cheerful : Parker's Band By Steely Dan

I've been through a lot these past few weels. It really left me worn out and stressed without any relief in sight. With Monday fast approaching, I could sure use something cheerful to pick me up. Suddenly, a song just came into my head that just fitted that bill. That song was Steely Dan's "Parker's Band".

It was loud, fast-paced and had a way of lifting me out of my funk. It was like someone shaking your up and telling you that something grand is happening. When you take listen to that song, I guess it's the next best thing to having your real "bros" and "buds" with you with the band playing and everybody cheering. More importantly, it reminded me that there is still something good out there. Just get yourself on your feet and find it.

I don't know how long this cheerfulness will last. For all I know is that the next bum rap is just around the corner. For know I'll just immerse myself into this song and let it wash all the bad stuff away. With the weekend at a close, I really need to pick myself up. I guess the best way to do that is take a piece of Parker's Band.

So People Would Know You Better: Tell Me What's On Your Mind By Information Society

As I have mentioned several times on this blog, I am a very private person. I never give away too much of myself when I am with other people. I guess it stems from my loner nature and the fact that I can only connect with those who are now part of that circle of friends who we consider brethren when we do our weekend gigs. Still I also know that if I want people to understand me better, I have to open up a little more. With in mind, it reminds me of the song "Tell Me What's On Your Mind" by Information Society.

Whenever I hear this song, I feel like the nuts and bolts of a heavy machine is falling apart. Well going back to being very introverted, I've always went against the flow whenever I'm around people who are outside the circle. I feel that they just don't understand what makes me tick and even if they did, it's not their thing. I guess that's why I feel so awkward when it comes to going out with people outside the circle because I know everything that they like is what I don't like. It's not that I'm a grouch but I'm a very brooding type of person who needs to be with his kind.

Still no one is an island. As much as possible, I try to find some activity where we can get something in common. That I try to at least make an effort so that people would know that I am an okay guy. It'll take some time though but I hope I able to open and be accepted for who I am. I guest I'll just take it one step at a time.

I Guess I Still Believe: I Believe By Tears For Fears

It's funny how when times change, so do people's values. What was once taboo is now open to the public and what was once sacred is now an object of ridicule. I never subscribed to this view after realizing that your values and beliefs tell people who you are. Sometimes what you believe in fails you but you keep believing because it is during those bad times where your beliefs are tested to its limits. When asks about what I believe and hold dear, the song "I Believe" by Tears For Fears comes to mind.

This song is probably best listened to in a dark, airconditioned bar with stoogie and a brew. As you alternate between puffs and gulps, you think about ideas that you believe in and how you stand by them no matter how rocky things. For right now, things are still a bit messed up and the worst part about it is that everything I believe in is getting trashed left and right. As much as it hurts, I bite the bullet and keep working. As much as it hurts to cry, you've got to keep moving if you want things to change and be proven right.

Despite all the crap that gets thrown my way I still believe in a lot of things that kept me going. I maybe no angel but I believe faith, hope and love as well as God Almighty. I believe that despite all the crap that gets thrown my way, things will be better if we just ride out the storm. Sometimes they get too much for me and leave me weary at the end of the day but I still believe that it'll all come to pass. Through the good times and bad, I still believe.

It’s Like When Sand Castles Crumble: Come Undone By Duran Duran

Whenever one builds a sand castle at the beach they really put their effort into it. Despite the heat and coarseness of the sand, they keep on building till it’s finished. Even if it is a simple little piece of work, it can be frustrating when it suddenly shakes and crumbles back to being plain old sand. You breathe a deep sigh after going through all that work just to see come undone. Seeing things fall apart like that reminds me of the song “Come Undone” by Duran Duran.

One of the painful realities about life is that nothing is permanent and when change comes, it comes when you least expect it. It is even more difficult when you finally found what you’re looking for or finished completing your ideal life. All of a sudden, something happens and it all goes down the drain. All that hard work gone in an instant and just when you think you wouldn’t want anything more. It is really one of life’s most cruel jokes.

Well, like sand, if there is life, then there’s hope. You just have to put a little more effort and start over. I know it’s a bummer but it’s either that or curl up and die. I have no intentions of doing the latter. Still, even if it is water under the bridge, it still stings when you think about what was lost. It really hurts when it comes undone.

When You Realize What You Missed Out: Sandra By Barry Manilow

This might come out as a surprise to a lot of people but when I was in Grade Five, I found myself listening to Barry Manilow. I guess I was still finding my way to what kind of music that best identifies with my character. Still, there were some songs from him that still catches my ear. I guess because like a lot of songs in my collection, it's something that I can relate to. One song that I suddenly found myself remembering from him is "Sandra".

I guess it's about a devoted wife who realizes just how much she was missing out on life. It's something that I can relate to because there were a lot of things that I missed out on life. Things that would have helped me cope with a lot of things that people go through in life. Some of them may seem trivial, but in reality they are essential if people are going to be complete and move in life. Right now I find myself wishing that I hadn't especially now that things are so complicated and there are a lot of things need to be taken care of.

Sadly, time waits for no one. As incomplete as I feel myself to be, I have to keep moving forward. Hopefully, one day things will really settle down, I'll be able to address these things that I've missed out on. I hope I do cause there's lately I've been feeling down. The fact that I feel that is enough for me to know that I know that I've missed.

Another One Of Those Songs That Calms Me Down When Things Get Crazy: Weather With You By Crowded House

One thing that I can say that the weather and my life is that you can never tell what happens next. I guess that's why I've been so apprehensive cause lately I tend to fear what new miserable experience will be thrown my way. In all that time, I forgot an old lesson and that's just take what life throws at you and make the most of it. Also, that a good song can also soothe your soul when things get a little crazy. One song that reminds me of that is "Weather With You" by Crowded House.

This past week was a real downer for me as one bad thing happened after another. Sometimes when bad things just keep coming it sure can be too hard to process. At times like that, you can really use some space to think and calm down. I did just that and it helped me feel better. Though the problems are still there, at least I was able to get hold of myself to face them once again.

Like I've always said, a good 24K song can be like aspirin or in my case paracetamol. Sometimes listening to it can really calm you down. I sure needed after such a crazy week. I don't what's going to happen next and I'd rather not ask. If it will come, it will come. Just take like you would the weather.

When The Sky Itself Offers No Relief: The Sky Is Crying By Stevie Ray Vaughn

The problem with being blue is that even the good things that have been happening around you don’t matter. You feel so low that you find yourself imprisoned by your problems. You feel heavy and it sure is hard to get a more on when more crap gets thrown your way. Even the clear blue sky offers no relief from the crappy feeling that’s inside you. With that in mind, I remember Stevie Ray Vaughn’s version of the song “The Sky Is Crying”.

I have to thank my brother for introducing me to Stevie Ray when I was in college cause the man was amazing as he helped keep the blues alive during my college days. Anyway, whenever I hear this song, you can bet that I’m in a mood as nothing good and a lot of bad is happening around me. Broke, health, emotional issues have been plaguing me left and right. At times like I take my usual trip down south or hang out with Jack or Johnnie. Anything to chase away the blues.

Despite the crap that I’ve been right now, what keeps me going is the fact that this will be temporary. It’s just a matter of riding out the storm and finding a way to make things right. I just need some time to sort things out without throwing this crap to other people. It’s going to be tough though cause the crap doesn’t seem to stop either. That’s reason why I think the sky is crying even if people see it as clear blue.

We All Have Our Reasons For Singing The Blues: Why I Sing The Blues By B.B. King

Though things are starting to calm down again, I still feel that I'm in a deep blue funk. I don't know how long this lull is going to last, but I'm savoring it before something happens and I wind up drowning in the blues. I know I'm not alone but sometimes we all get a little bit caught up with our own problems and there times when we need to just let it all out. Thinking about the things that bring us down reminds me of the song "Why I Sing The Blues" by B.B. King.

Life is hard enough as it is and now it's getting a lot harder for a lot of people. Whether it is family, money, relationship, work, there's always a reason why someone out there feels so down. To add insult to injury, you already paid your dues and nobody seems to understand, let alone care. When that happens, it really makes you feel so alone and alienated. Why wouldn't you have the blues, let alone sing it.

Still, life and time waits for no one. You either get with the program or shrivel up and die. Despite my blues, I do what I can because it's all that I can do. I just wish things would ease because sometimes I feel like paying dues I don't even owe. I know life is hard and unfair, but lately things are getting more and more unfair and that is not right. So when I sing the blues, I have reasons just like everyone cause there's always a reason to sing the blues.

Too Numbed To Cry: I Can't Cry Anymore By Sheryl Crow

Last me and my brothers had an impromptu get-together at my second brother's house. It did me good because for a few hours, it was back to the good old days where we gathered around and simply had a good time. It's been a long time since we did that and I was able to get some of the stress out of my system. The last few weeks was really hell for me that I really got numbed out of my senses. That point of getting numbed without expressing any kind of emotion reminds me of the song "I Can't Cry Anymore" by Sheryl Crow.

The last couple of weeks almost gave me a heart attack due to the crises that's been happening here. I never admitted it to anyone but it was already getting too much for me that it almost drove me to the point of tears. Still, I had to get my bearings straight and get a hold of myself. I remember someone saying that if you want to solve your problems, face and don't cry like a spoiled brat. It really helped me focus and and get my nerves back in order which I needed to do first if I was going to stand my ground around here.

That dinner last night gave me an opportunity to breathe easy for the first time in weeks. To be honest, I was too numbed out to even cry. I guess I needed some time to catch my second breath. Still, time waits for no one so I better get up and do something. To be honest, I'm really tired of crying and would rather do something.

Yes Sir! Right Away Sir! : Coming Right By Bruce Willis

Whenever I see these reality shows on cable that deals about small businesses and the people who operate them, I wonder how they can be themselves while the camera's rolling. One thing's for sure, when your the rank-and-file, when they tell you to jump, you better get to it. Bosses don't want hear excuses that it can't be done. What they want to hear or better yet see are results so when they order something, say "Yes Sir" and get to it. When I think about getting the the job done and fulfilling my duties, it reminds me of the song "Coming Right Up".

Whenever I see people in those reality shows goofing off the job and getting yelled at, all I can say is that they brought it on themselves. You have to set your priorities straight and its simply by knowing what you're suppose to be doing at that time and place. If it's break time, then do your thing but when the clock strikes one, time to get back to the grind. Also be positive about what you're doing. It gets the job faster and helps you appreciate what you're doing.

Most important is always be courteous because it shows that you are more than capable of doing your job and people will trust you more for it. Remember when at work, finish the job and and finish it properly. Be fast but make sure that you do it right so that you don't have to worry about anything at the day's end. So when they tell you to do something just say "Right Away Sir" and do it. It'll make things run more smoothly.


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If There Was Such A Ride, I'd Hopped In: Joyride By Roxxette

Had a bad day in the office again. There was something that was said that left a bad taste in my mouth which lead to even more difficult details that yours truly will have a hard time getting. If that wasn't enough, I come home to a tantrum that gets me riled up as well. It's bad enough I had a bad day in the office and I can come only to experience more of the same. Right now, I feel so out of it, that I'm really desperate of some kind of relief. The need of a change of perspective made me remember Roxxette's song "Joyride".

Sleeping and waking up to the same thing is bad enough and now I have to deal more crap. I know it's my fault that things are the way they are but the struggle to control my temper is really starting to take its toll on me. What I'd give to get on board on a car and just zoom away to a destination where I can what I want and be what I want to be. Like what Kevin Costner said in the movie a perfect world where the car is like a time machine where you leave all the crap behind the past and speed off to better future. How I wish it was so.

Unfortunately, reality can sure slap you in the face. There's magic carpet or sports car type ride that will whisk you away and once again you're left dealing with the crap or reality. The answer is always the same and that's work hard to make your dreams a reality. Still, it would be nice of there was such a ride. If there was, I'd hop on in and just zoom away.


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Getting The Low End Of The Stick: She Caught The Katy By The Blues Brothers

With so many problems and virtually no solution in sight, I am once again on my down mood. Sleeping and waking up to the same situation sure is a bummer. I guess that’s the reason why I’ve been listening to some blues or any song that has a good saxophone or brass section. It really reflects how low I’ve been feeling. One song that has caught my fancy due to my mood is the Blues Brothers’ version of a Taj Mahal classic called “She Caught The Katy”.

I remember this was the opening theme of the movie which was one of my all-time favorites. Anyway, I don’t what the Katy is but lately I feel so low that I’d be lucky if I had a mule to ride. A lot of the things that I hoped for didn’t come about and what’s worse is that the opposite is happening, , the reason for my latest melancholy mood. Right now I’d like to take some comfort down south or take a walk with Johnnie or even hook up with Jack. Anything to chase the blues.

Well, right now I am still trying to get what I’m working on to bear results though I have to admit it’s still an uphill struggle. It gets worse when people tell me that it won’t work and I get a lecture on the “what could’ves” which I have no defense against since nothing’s happening. Right now, the only thing that I can do is work through the ridicule and all the other crap till I do make something from what I am working on. I’d settle for a day without a hassle caused there’s not a day where something doesn’t happen around here. This is really getting the low end of the stick.

You Know The Reason Why But You Don’t Want To Admit It: How Could This Happen To Me By Tower Of Power

You heard the story before. A person comes on to the scene with amazing abilities that people are quickly impressed. They say that he or she will make it big in the future. Sometimes, however, it doesn’t mean that they’ll turn to be successful when they step into the real world. There are times when they wind up failing despite their potential and a lot of times, they wonder what happen. Wondering how that could have happen reminds me of the song “How Could This Happen To Me” by Tower Of Power.

A lot of times, I hear stories of people who are so talented fail in life. It’s surprising because you never thought this would happen. They were so good that you’d think that the road to success was always open to them. To that happen is really so sad. If I had that ability, I wouldn’t be struggling like this right now.

It is often surprising that someone so talented would ironically fail in life. In the past, they just breezed through everything that they did. Sometimes you wonder what it is that people did or did not do to wind up that way. Well, it just goes to sure that some things aren’t so sure in life. They knew what went wrong but they’ll never it.

Double Or Nothing: Lay It On The Line By Triumph

One of the reasons why I’m getting so alienated is due to the stress brought about by the constant worry about taking care of things around here. It gets worse because what I’m working on has not produced any results and there are a lot of things that I need to do around here. Right now, I need to try other venues to help ease the situation. I’m a bit hesitant because I don’t what I’m going to try will the real thing or just a scam. When I listen to Triumph’s song “Lay It On The Line”, I feel like I need to make a decision if I am really determined to make things happen.

The problem with me is that I was never a risk-taker and would rather do things slowly and steadily. Unfortunately, time does not wait for anyone and before you know it, the opportunity is lost. I don’t want to miss out again but I don’t want to be impulsive either. Still, I better think wisely but quick at the same time. If I don’t nothing happens and I might to do things that I don’t want to do since my methods failed.

Be that as it may, I can’t afford to sit still. Life is full risks and sometimes you have to take one if you want to succeed. I just want to know more before I get committed to doing it. I guess it’s double or nothing and if it’s double, then it was worth it. If it’s nothing at least I was willing to try. Well here goes nothing and wish me luck.

Another Song That Gets Me All Fired Up: Fanfare For The Common Man Cover By Emerson, Lake And Palmer

As I previously said before in my blog entries, one of the good qualities of a 24K song is that it inspires you to do your best in whatever you do. It should boost your spirits at the time when you are about to face your biggest challenge. It inspires you to achieve what you set out to do. One song that clearly does that is Emerson, Lake And Palmer's version of "Fanfare For The Common Man".

This song was originally composed in 1942 by Aaron Copeland to honoring the common man. Emerson,Lake And Palmer later revived the song which became one of their biggest hits. It was later used most notably by CBS for as the opening of their sports program CBS Sports Spectacular. It is not surprising because it's inspirational tone really makes people get up and do something great. You don't songs like these anymore.

I wish we had more inspiring tunes like this because it reminds us to aim high and overcome adversity. Sadly, I will again say that most of the songs today do anything but inspire. A lot of them speak of irresponsible people whining and complaining about their situation rather than doing something about it. Well, if that's music today, no thank. I'll stick to my 24K classics cause at least some of them lift me up rather than make me want to whine.

First Really Gritty Police Series: Hills Street Blues Theme By Mike Post

I remember when I was a kid one of my favorite television shoes was Hill Street Blues (I bet you'd expected care bears). It was one of the few television shows that had real action in it. It featured what cops in New York City were up against every time they started their beat. It may start out slow but things get complicated as the episode unfolds. I also liked the theme song of the series by Mike Post.

Going back to the show, what I liked about it is that it gave viewers a glimpse of what cops deal with when they start their shift and although things are a bit slow during the briefing, things start to get rough. Although nobody cussed during an episode, the violence was ahead of its time. It was gritty and almost realistic as well as some of the situations that these guys go through. Some handle the pressure while others get overwhelmed by it and it's something I can relate to.

These days if you want to see something gritty, you watch it on cable. For a television show, characters really push the envelope. It also spawned a lot of cop shows that took what it created a step further and that's no understatement. Still, what was great about this show is that it was able to show all these things under a lot of restrictions at the time. Now that's creativity under pressure.

Need For Change But Feeling Apprehensive: The Boarder By America

As much as I hate to admit it, I think I've been living in a shell which is ironic because I've been trying hard to break out of my own mental and emotional embryo. I think that I've been living in a shell for so long that I'm starting to get use to it. Even my mother as well as my brothers are urging me to try on a new leaf. Maybe I should though I have to admit to a little cold feet, yet it's out there and if you want it, go for it. When I think about a promise land where there maybe better opportunities, I think of America's song "The Border".

I guess I've been feeling lost in the midst of my problems. I feel so alienated at work and I feel like there's nothing or no one here for me. My only apprehension is leaving my mother because I've taken care of her for so long that I fear for her security if I do leave. Before anything else I want to make sure that she is happy and safe. If anything would happen to her it would break my heart.

I know that I suggested change before and I'm not backing out of anything that I have written on this blog. I agree that to have change, you should also be ready to adjust to it for it to work. Still, I want to make sure that everything is going to be all right before I make any undertaking of that sort. It's still a big world out there and I know that I still got time. When all is right, then I'll make a dash for the border and hopefully, I'll find what it is that I'm missing.

Why Is It That Things Or People Fail Us At The Most Crucial Times: Just When I Needed You Most By Randy Vanwarmer

Ever had those days when you are at your most desperate? Times when you really want things to push through cause there was a lot riding on it. It's ironic that during times like that when you need help the most that it doesn't come. It gets worse when things fall apart and you feel abandoned or duped and angry that what you wanted to do didn't push through. That's the feeling I get when I hear Randy Vanwarmer's song "Just When I Needed You Most".
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I know this is another breank-up song but it also reminds of times when people fail you when you were counting on them. Sometimes you count thin k you can count on people to be there for you. Just when you really need them, they fail you at that important time. It hurts even more when they gave their word that they'd be there only to fail you. In the end, you feel like fool for trusting too much on these things or people for thinking that they'd be there when you need them.

I guess that's the reason why I don't make promises that I can't keep. I also do my best to help those who have helped me. They were there for me so it is just that I be there for them. I know how it feels to be abandoned after being promised some help and I wouldn't want to do that to anyone else. When we say that we'll be there, we should because people trust us and we shouldn't break that trust.