Sometimes when we see people, we think that they have perfect lives.  I'm not one to pry despite outward appearance, deep down we all have our troubles. It's like an itch that's bearable but nonetheless bothersome.  It's something that we need to resolve if we're to have some kind of peace in our lives.  When it comes to that bothersome thing, it reminds of the song " The Boy With A Thorn In His Side" by The Smiths.

This thorn or bothersome thing can be anything. A failed dream, a secret obsession or anything that hasn't been or will never be realized.  If there's still a chance then take it.  If it succeeds then the thorn gets removed.  If it fails, then I guess that's that.

Carrying something like that for a long time sure sucks.  How you resolve it is up to you.  It's either that or you carry that thorn for a very long time.  Just remember that if you do take that thorn or bothersome thing out, it can be a liberating experience.  Just do your best and the rest will follow.