Still Believe In My Dreams: Little Dreamer By Van Halen

Just celebrated my birthday two days ago but for some reason, I wasn't in a celebrating mood.  This was especially true when I looked at myself in the mirror after a rude awakening this morning.  Very little has been accomplished and more crap has been thrown my way.  That said I still believe that some of my dreams can still come true which is why I still carry on.  Still believing in my dreams reminds me of the song "Little Dreamer" by Van Halen.

It's bad enough that too many people are against the things that you want to do in life.  It gets worse when they don't come true.  Even when you ask the question why it didn't come true, deep inside you know the answers.  It gets harder when you when you get older and you see nothing's changing. You feel alone, desperate and disappointed and that feel gets worse when your time has come and gone.

Still, I go on and keep going on because I"m still here and that means there's still hope. I have to just re-evaluate what I'm doing.  I don't care about the criticisms anymore.  Listening to that is what got me nowhere in the first place.  I still believe and I know one day, I'll get it right.

Wish I Could Have It All: Best Of Both Worlds By Van Halen

You know it's funny.  It's either you no time and a lot of money or vice versa.  When I was younger there were a lot of things that I wanted to do but didn't have the money for it.  Now that I'm older, I've neither the time nor the dough for the things that I want to do.  Wouldn't it be great if you could have all the time to do what you want to do and have the money to spend for it?  Van Halen's song "Best Of Both Worlds" reminds me of wanting to do a lot of things and having the money for it.

I guess I've been thinking this way because of a lot of responsibilities that take up both my time and money.  Just two years ago, some thing that I wanted to do suddenly got set up around here but I didn't have the cash for it.  Then all of a sudden it closed down and once again I missed out on something that I was interested in.   The worst of it is that more problems are rising out of the woodwork.  That's one way to remind me of what I've lost out on and what I'm stuck with.

To add insult to injury I see at lot of things around me that I want to get into but the time and cash issue once again blocks my path.  I'm not one to blame but sometimes I think life is playing a sick joke on me.  The only thing I can do is give a rueful sigh.  Will I ever feel what it was like again when I could do what I want to and had the time and money for it?  I really don't know. It's been a while since I had that feeling when I can have not only the best of both worlds but to have it all and enjoy it.

Man That's Darn Good Cake: Pound Cake By Van Halen

Last week, my aunt and uncle came home from abroad for a little vacation. We greeted them and we talked about some good times and asked how they were doing. My mother's birthday was coming up and my uncle promised that he'd cook up some of his best recipes. Best of all he'd baked his signature dessert that was Sansrival which we all loved. When I remember that dessert, Van Halen's song "Pound Cake" starts playing in my head.

The first time we tasted that cake, we devoured it to the last bite. 40 years, later it still doesn't compare to anything bought in the stores. My brother would even drink the syrup from the tray till nothing was left. When they went abroad, I haven't come across a cake that matches his recipe. When he said he'd baked a batch, our mouths started to water and we couldn't wait.

True enough when the cake came in, nothing was left. That's because it was as delicious now just as it was in the past. It was perfect to the last drop and every time I took bite it was perfectly the same. I'm glad my brother and sister watched how it was made which means they do it. That is one darn fine cake.

That's One Way To Jolt You: Eruption By Van Halen

There are days when you feel like you don't want to get out of bed. You're so sluggish that if you just close your eyes for a second, you'd go into coma. To top it off, you wish you Rip Van Wrinkle since you don't to get up and just sleep the whole day. Times like that you need something really loud and really strong to blast you wide awake. One song that does that is Van Halen's "Eruption".

I got that idea from watching the first installment of the movie Back To The Future. This is where he puts a pair of earphones on his future father and turns on the walkman to high volume, really jolting him from his sleep. Apart from a wake up song, I use to listen to this when I work out cause it keeps the adrenaline pumping which me going. That's better than taking something that might do you more harm than good. That's what I call a natural high.

These days, the contemporary songs don't that kind of punch anymore. Some would argue that I'm not up to date with what's hot. Well, I'm officially old school now and I'm with listening to what I grew with. I just can't relate to it anymore. Besides they don't the same power that this song and others like it have.

When You Don't Want To Hear It: I Don't Want To Hear What Love Can Do By Van Halen

here are times when you get so mad that reach that point of anger where you're oblivious to everything around you. That's when you're eyes are bulging; you're screaming obscenities at the top of your lungs and probably breaking everything you see in sight. The hard part about that stage is your now beyond really reason as you're anger has already gotten the best of you. That's when you might yourself and worse people around you. When you're so fully of rage and beyond, the song "I Don't Want To Hear What Love Can Do" By Van Halen" comes to mind.

I guess that's the reason why when things blow up, I try to pacify rather than add fuel to the fire. It's not always easy seeing people possessed by rage and any suggestion to calm down only enrages them even more. You only have to stand by and hope that they get it out of their system. When they target other people when they're angry, that's when I draw the line. Even if their anger is righteous, that doesn't give them the right to be disrespectful to other people.

Times like that, I wish these people would go jogging or punch the bag till they've calmed down. When they start spreading their anger around, it's like dropping a match in a gasoline station. Pretty soon everybody gets caught up in the madness and nothing gets solved. People who get mad beyond reason better be careful because there are those won't stand for it. It might costs them dearly in the end.