Bests Describes The Bad Times Of My Life: Wasted Years By Iron Maiden

Whenever I talk about the "bad cycles", those were the low points of my life where bad things just kept on coming to the point where you found your situation hopeless.  Even when you've finally made through the storm, it really leaves a scar on you.  You can't help but look back and wonder what it is that you could've done to prevent and it really hits as to how much time was wasted.  When I think about those bad times and the years that went down the tubes, it reminds me of the song "Wasted Years" by Iron Maiden.

Those bad times happened to me a lot from elementary to the time I started to struggle in the real world.  The first bad period of my life happened from July of 1993 to May of 1995.  I had arguments; applications turned and a bad loss of self-esteem.  The second time was from 2000 to to 2004 and though I was able to work a little bit in between those, the experience was twice as awful.  A lot of bad choices as well as mistakes that could have led to my salvation really left me in the mire for a longer period than  I had anticipated.

Though things are a bit better now, I still feel haunted by those years because as much as I don't want to dwell on spilled milk, a part of me keeps thinking of what could've have been.  If I hadn't fallen down back then, maybe life wouldn't be so hard now. That's why when I see others stumble, I know how they feel and try to help them as bests as I can.  Right now I just want to move on and try not to make the same mistakes that landed me in the pits.  That really sums up those bad times in my life and do hope I or anyone else in my family would never experience that again.

Want To Break Free Of This Prison: The Prisoner By Iron Maiden

After 1999, my life has gone to crap.  The years that followed gave new meaning "Life's Not Fair". If it's not one problem that keeps me troubled, it's another.  Even the few good times that I enjoy are quickly overwhelmed by bad developments that spoil my mood.   These bad developments are like bricks that are trying to keep me imprisoned.  This feeling of imprisonment brought about by all the bad crap life throws at me reminds me of the song "The Prisoner" by Iron Maiden.

These I feel like I'm walking around with a floating cage keeping hemmed in from anything that would make me happy.  The only relief that I feel is that if there is nothing happens. I always pray at the end of the year that things would be better instead something comes out of the blue and everything falls apart.  When that happens I feel as if the powers that be has played another cruel joke on us.  As if they're tightening the chains to prevent me from being free and enjoying life like other people.

As much as I believe that life is what we make it, I have to sometimes fight the urge to blame the MAN for all this miserable developments that plague us every year.  I feel bad when these things happens, it's like someone put chains and leg irons on me and it's bad enough that I have to deal with this on my own.  Well, if that's what they want I won't give them the satisfaction.  I swear one day I'll break free of prison that life seems to cage me into.  I won't stay caged  and I'll fight to the end just to be free, free I will be.

Watching War And Actually Fighting In One: The Trooper By Iron Maiden

When I was young, I use to watch a lot of war films on television. Whether it was sword of and shield or rifle and bayonet, we were totally glued to the screen. There were times when we would play war right after watching the movie. Of course now that we are older, we realize that there is a big difference between playing war and actually fighting in one. This is why I am going to use the song "The Trooper" by Iron Maiden for this post.

It looks so simple and so heroic back then that we thought going off to war was all about prestige. Yet after watching documentaries and reading interviews from veterans, I realize that war is more gruesome and leaves both victor and vanquish scarred both physically and emotionally. Sadly, there are some battles that need to be fought. It's like surgery that can be very messy but has to be done since preventive measures were not taken that could've avoided this situation.

I still like war but I realize that the real is a heck of a lot worse and that's an understatement. I guess that's why I hold a deep respect to a lot of people who are now on the frontlines. For them to face the madness day in and day out says a lot about what they go through. Once you get hit, it's all over and that's not what happens when you play. That's why I don't criticize those who fight because no matter how we know, we don't.