It's A Feeling That I Don't Want To Experience Anymore: Stranded By Heart

Because of the many hurdles that now stand before me, I often dreaded falling into another one of those dark cycles. That bad phase in my life when everything just fell apart and everyone was just so far away. It's like you find yourself locked up in glass cage and while everybody roams freely, you find yourself on the outside, helpless. It's as if you find yourself in the middle of nowhere and helpless to boot. The dread of falling into that bad cycle reminds me of Heart's song "Sranded".

A lot of people have gone through bad times and made it through. Still, I wouldn't be surprised that even though they made it out of the abyss, doesn't mean they want to fall into it again. That feeling of desperation and helplessness with no one to turn to is a painful experience that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It really leaves a deep emotional scar that haunts you even during the best of times. You just come to terms with it.

As much as possible, I try to learn from my mistakes so as not to repeat what happened in the past. At my age, I can't afford another bad cycle as I have barely recovered from the ones that I went through in the past. I don't want to live my life that way anymore and wouldn't want anyone in my family to experience that cause it shows you just how cruel the world can be. I just want to keep moving forward till I reach my goals which have been sidelined for so long. Here's hoping that I don't get stranded anymore as I keep on trying.

When I'm In Shutdown Mode: Fortress Around Your Heart By Sting

When a person has a hard time expressing him or herself, that person is in for a very hard time in the future. Usually these are the people who are meek and simply settle for what life throws at them. Still, a lot of these guys have some pent-up anger inside of them due to the frustration that they were not able to get the life they want and as a result they have become really jaded and often shut down when things get too much. When that happens, don't be surprise to find them surly and reclusive. The thought of shutting down due to too much negative crap happening around you reminds me of the song "Fortress Around Your Heart" by Sting.

They say that pleasing too many people often leads to the ruin of your own happiness. That is especially true when you're force to do things you don't want all the time. Pretty soon it gets too much that you don't want to be around be people since all they do is cause you pain and you just want to get lost and be by yourself. What's insulting is that people don't understand why you suddenly shut down and left after all that badgering. They just don't get the fact that they're sucking the life right out of you and if that wasn't enough, your happiness along with it.

Sometimes, we need some time to heal ourselves from all that abuse. People should arealize when they go too far with a person before that person goes off the deep end. All we want is to be given a chance to do what we want and be what we want to be without the sting of redicule or the fear of being forced into something we don't want to do or be. I really people could be more encouraging and less demanding of others. If that were the case, we need not have fortresses or wall in our hearts.