Longing And Hoping: California Blue By Roy Orbison

Not a day goes by when something always makes me worry.  Still, I have to wake up and face the day offers because there are things that need to be attended to.  Still, when time permits, I take a few moments to daydream.  When that happens, I think of a place where everything that I want and need is there and I am at peace.  Thinking and longing for such a place reminds me of Roy Orbison's song "California Blue".

I guess the reason why I feel this way is because of the all stress brought about certain developments as well as the usual hassles that everyday life brings you.  It's getting to me more and more that people keep telling that I have that faraway look on my face.  Some asks if you go out on trips to take the stress out?  Sure I do but most of the time, it's to place I don't want to go.  When I get back, I'm more stressed out than ever.

This doesn't I neglect the duties of the day.  It's the only thing that keeps my mind of my problems these days,  I do hope one day, I find myself in a place where everything that I want and the people I want to be with are there.  A place where there is no more stress and no worries.  Till then, I'll be hoping and longing as I get through the day.

Good Sleep, Good Dream: In Dream By Roy Orbison

With all the stress and pressure bearing down on me, a good night's sleep is the only luxury and refuge is the only thing that I have.  After a hectic day, I just close my eyes and let go of all those things that wore me out.  If, I'm lucky the sheets are new and the wind is strong which helps put me to la la land much faster.  It gets better when I good dream is thrown in the mix.  A good night and a good dream reminds me of Roy Orbison's song *In Dreams".

You know that you're getting a good sleep when you start having a good dream.  Like a lot of other people, I've had my share of good dreams.  One of my favorites was meeting that special someone and settling down just in those romance films.  It was so real and I felt so at peace, that when I woke and realized it was just a dream, I really felt bad.

Well a dream can only lasts for so long.  Unfortunately reality has a very rude way of waking you up.  That's when you oversleep and rush to the shower in the hopes of getting to work on time.  Oh well, when the day's over just get a shower and a good nights rest.  That way you can go back to paradise even if it's only in dreams.

When Girls Turn Mean: Mean Woman Blues By Roy Orbison

When women are nice, it's great to be with them. Everyday with them can sure be a blast when they're mood is good. However, when they're not in a good mood, it's a different story. Sometimes they can be just as if not meaner than us guys. When women are mean, I'd like to listen to Roy Orbison's version of "Mean Woman Blues".

This is the type of song that you listen to when you just got taste of your woman's bad side. You'd know when they're in mean mode when you feel some kind of invisible wall between you and that person. Then there's that dagger piercing look as if you have to watch your step when she's around. When you press their buttons by mistake, that's when the fireworks start. Makes you want to leave the room and go out with your buds.

Well I'm not writing this to criticize women but one thing's for sure and when they are in a bad mood, it's best to leave them alone. I guess they have their own way of reacting when things don't go their way. Well if you really like that person, just give them some space. Them's the breals when they get mean.

Song I Listen To When I'm Sad And Searching For A Place Where I Can Smile Again: Blue Bayou By Roy Orbison

Though I don't show it, lately I've been feeling very melancholic and alienated. I guess this is because I've been trying so hard to find a way to solve things here that I've been missing out on a lot of things. Each day, this feeling is getting stronger and I feel so alone in my dilemma that I want to go back to the old days when we lived in the big house in the old road. Back then, there was was less pressure, we were close and tight and the good times kept going and going. Longing for the old house reminds me of the song "Blue Bayou" by Roy Orbison.

Linda Ronstadt sang a version of this song but I'm a stickler for the original song. Anyway, every time I hear this song it really makes me wish we were back in the old house. I always get that far away look when I hear it. I guess the frustration of what I am feeling makes the feeling to go back grow even more intense. It was so much happy back then and there was not a care in the world.

Sadly, there's no going back. I'm left with what I'm facing and dealing with in the present and it sucks big time! Still, that doesn't mean that I'm going to throw the towel and curl up in a corner. I still believe that things will get better if I just keep trying. When that happens, I'll be at ease even if the big house is no more.